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Eliminating the Attachment to Competition
I previously had strong everyday people's attachments, especially an attachment to competitiveness. I rarely played with my little sister because I didn't want to humor her. Instead we fought a lot over trivial things. Hence, eliminating the competitive attachment was important for me in cultivating. At the beginning, this attachment was very hard to eliminate.
When I decided I wanted to get rid of this attachment, various problems appeared. At one time, I didn't pass a critical juncture. I regretted that I didn't pass. I then sent a gift to my sister and told her, "This gift represents my promise that I will not fight with you any more." However, my sister didn't hear me clearly, and I didn't repeat it. The next time, I didn't maintain my xinxing, and I argued with her again. After a while, we calmed down. Suddenly, my sister showed me the gift I gave her. She asked me, "Sister, what did you say this gift represented?" I was speechless. I knew this was Teacher's hint to me.
I found that the more I suppressed each bit of my competitive attachment, the calmer I became. The second time I passed the test, I felt a lot calmer. One day, my sister suddenly came barging into me. I, however, stayed calm and told myself, "The conflict is coming, so I should maintain my xinxing." But of all sudden, anger seized me. In this brief moment, I felt angry. In spite of this sudden obstacle, I managed to suppress my anger in time, just before arguing with her. Finally, I calmed down.
After this incident, I knew that every time I had an attachment, it was the bad matter interfering. I will work harder in the future to eliminate every attachment. Now I rarely argue with my little sister.
Distributing Truth-Clarification Materials
Initially, I thought that distributing materials was something for adult Dafa disciples to do, and that it had nothing to do with young disciples like me. But one day I told myself, "Dafa disciples, young and old, can validate Dafa. We cannot simply say, after thousands of hardships and bitterness, that we cannot validate Dafa just because we are young." So that day I went out and posted two flyers. Afterwards, my attachment of fear surfaced. I then sent forth righteous thoughts for quite a while. Gradually, this attachment to fear was greatly reduced. I found that distributing materials was also a process of cultivating myself.
On October 1, 2007, our whole family went to our hometown to clarify the truth. I started telling my young brother the true facts, but I worried. I then put down my worries and successfully finished my truth-clarification. At last, my brother obtained the Law.
On October 3, our family planned to clarify the truth to an older man and ask him to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). My father told me, "I'd like to put you in charge of it." I thought, "Can I do it?" I again thought that a Dafa disciple can do it. When we arrived at their home, my father talked to his son. I thought maybe my father really didn't have the time. It was almost 10 o'clock. I wouldn't have time to clarify the truth in a moment, so I decided to talk to him like an old friend.
Because my seat was a bit too far from him, I went out of his house and found a small stool, so I could sit in front of him to talk. At this point, my mind was in a turmoil and I felt a lot of pressure. In spite of this, I wanted to save him so I kept telling myself, "Fa-rectification needs righteous thoughts, not people's attachments." I finally was able to sit near him and he eventually withdrew from the evil CCP.
After several truth-clarification experiences, I gradually became more at ease. I think I should put down all my attachments to do truth-clarification in the future. Although I didn't do well, I will boldly and vigorously forge ahead in the future.
