Passing Tests in My Cultivation with Righteous Thoughts
I'm from Henan Province. I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1998. During these past nine years I've had a couple of amazing experiences that I'd like to share.
On July 6, 2006, I bought some cabbage at a farmers' market. After I got home, I cooked it. My husband didn't like cabbage, so he only had one bite. I thought, “I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. I can eat anything.” However, before I had even finished my dinner, I had a stomachache. I threw up and had diarrhea. When I emptied my stomach, I spit out some bitter fluid. I wasn't able to stand up and had symptoms of dehydration. I felt terrible. Then I couldn't help shivering. I knew it was a test that was targeted at my life. My husband was very worried and wanted to take me to a hospital. But my thoughts were righteous. I clearly knew that it was a persecution of me by the old forces. I knew they were simply superficial symptoms and therefore I should not acknowledge it.
“In such cases there are only two choices: You either go to the hospital and thus give up on trying to overcome the test, or you completely let go of everything, behave like an upstanding and noble Dafa disciple who has no resentment or attachments, and leave it to Master to arrange whether you stay or go. When you are able to do that, you are a god.”(Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles)
The pain was overwhelming. I laid down on my stomach and asked my husband for a blanket. I kept reciting Teacher's words,
“Fear is a death trap on a human being's journey toward divinity.” (Pass the Deadly Test)
I asked Teacher to help me. About twenty minutes later, all of my symptoms started to go away. Gradually, I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning as if nothing had happened. My family said, “You would have definitely needed a few days of IV if you weren't practicing Falun Dafa.” Falun Dafa is amazing!
On the evening of November 3, 2006, I took some truth-clarification materials and distributed them in a suburb. On my way home, I passed a park where they were playing a waltz. I didn't realize that it was a test. I was very attached to the waltz before, and in the beginning of my cultivation. In recent years, I had been determined not to dance the waltz again. However, when I heard the music, I couldn't help myself. I danced two waltzes and my emotions were stirred up. Just when I had planned to go home, my legs hurt so much that I couldn't stand up.
Immediately, I realized that I had made a mistake. I thought that I had removed my attachments to dancing. I said loudly, “Teacher, I was wrong. I shouldn't be attached to dancing. I know I was wrong. Please help me, Teacher.” Immediately, the pain disappeared and I was able to walk very fast. I came to deeply realize that we need to dig out our attachments.
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide” (“The Master-Disciple Bond” in Honyin II, Translation Version A)