My Experience Cultivating for Over Two Years
(Clearwisdom.net) Given hints by Master, I started practicing Falun Gong in June 2004. Over the past two years, under Teachers merciful protection, my road has become wider and wider. I have deeply felt Falun Dafas boundless power and infinite grace, and witnessed the wonderfulness of the Buddha Fa. It is truly, "Cultivation depends on ones own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by ones master." (from Zhuan Falun)
Before practicing Falun Gong, I had all kinds of diseases including pharyngitis, tracheitis, lipoma, chronic appendicitis, and varicose veins. I lived in pain every day. Since I started practicing Falun Gong, I have not taken a single pill. I was indeed reborn. Now when Im with my son, others cannot tell that I am the father. My physical transformation has opened up a new path for me to validate Dafa and save sentient beings.
Finishing Zhuan Falun for the first time, I understood that the Fa is for guiding cultivation practice, not treating illness. On the second day of watching Teachers lecture videos, my third eye was opened. I could see substances floating in the air, Falun spinning in the book, and Teachers Fashen coming to life from each picture of the exercise instructions. When I was reading "One day, behold, the Great Law gained, Cease not your steps on the path of return." ("On Reading Weathering the Storm") I could see each character shimmering in silver. Later I came to understand that Teacher had opened my third eye to the level of Wisdom Eyesight so as to enhance my confidence in cultivation practice and to make me advance more diligently.
I follow everything Teacher says. I clarify the truth, send forth righteous thoughts, practice the exercises, and look inside every day. I even memorize the Fa while walking. I have melted myself into the Fa. I underwent fundamental changes during the first three months, which changed me from an everyday person full of karma to a Falun Dafa practitioner. I came to understand that Teacher has been enduring for me and that He has scooped me up from hell. I cannot thank Teacher enough with human words, I can only advance diligently.
Every time I was passing xinxing tests, I would think of Teachers words in Zhuan Falun,
"To tell you the truth, the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments."
"...not fight back when you are beaten or sworn at..."
"Ones gong level is as high as ones xinxing level..."
I was able to remember that I was a cultivator when others were swearing at me, looking to cause trouble for me, or threatening to beat me. But at home, my wife would criticize me every day and give me a hard time about something that everyone else found okay. I couldnt pass the tests a few times. After looking inside, I understood she was helping me eliminate my karma.
One day I was carrying my six-year-old nephew on the back of my bicycle and teaching him to memorize Hong Yin. When we got close to home, my nephew accidentally put his feet into the spokes of the wheel. I didnt realize it until the bicycle stopped moving. The boy kept crying in pain. Passersby all said he must have broken some bones, but I had a thought, "With Teachers protection, nothing will happen." Upon arriving at home, I told his mother not to worry and to just apply some simple ointment. In the afternoon he could put one of his feet on the floor and play. Three days later he went back to school. I wasn't fearful until after the event. On another day, I went to buy some vegetables in the market. A passing motorized tricycle kicked up a big stone that bounced off my instep. I had a spontaneous thought, "I am a Falun Dafa practitioner." When I got home and took a look at it, my skin was not even scratched. My family all thought it was amazing.
At the time that Teachers article "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York" was published, I had very strong thought karma. I couldnt stop the train of thoughts running through my head when I was doing the exercises. After I read the part where Teacher explained how to eliminate thought karma, I immediately memorized it, and found that my thought karma was dramatically decreased when I did the exercises. But my understanding of the Fa was based only on perceptual knowledge. For instance, I didnt know what "negate" exactly meant. When I clarified the truth to save sentient beings, I only knew it would also do good to me. I had no fear mentality and my righteous thoughts were strong, so I could feel my body expanding and my gong growing. When the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published, I finished reading it and realized that the Party was indeed evil and regretted having been deceived by it for so many years. I didnt realize the importance of quitting the Party until Teacher published the articles "Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World" and "We Are Not Getting Political." Although I did not swear to the Party that I would devote my life to it, I had worn the red scarf, so I immediately wrote a statement to withdraw from the Young Pioneers.
Actually, I previously believed in Buddha. I have been taking fame, benefit, and sentiment lightly, and always think of others whenever I do things, and treat others nicely. So these have laid a solid foundation for my cultivation practice. Even though I was doing better and better in clarifying the truth, and most people I spoke with could understand that Falun Dafa is good, they would not quit the Party. Some accused me of getting political and threatened me, but every time I would think of Teachers words,
"I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." (Zhuan Falun)
I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, a particle of the Fa. Nobody can harm me.
I have been clarifying the truth in my regular stall since the beginning of my cultivation practice, and I have no fear. Before clarifying the truth, I first send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil communist specter behind every person that walks by and to disintegrate the external interference in a split-second. I also ask for Teachers strengthening. When many people come to my stall all at once, I talk about the Nine Commentaries. When fewer people come, I talk about the three withdrawals, and when nobody comes to my stall, I memorize the Fa. Im doing better and better at helping people to withdraw from the Party and all its related organizations. Although there are people threatening me every day, I am never affected. I understand it is all illusion.
A few times when I was distributing truth-clarification materials to other stalls, I had the thought, "Nobody can see me." I often give away the Nine Commentaries and the VCD. Some people return it to me after reading or watching it, and I give it away again. Some people have wanted to give me money. Everyone has said it was very real.
Among those who have understood the truth, they have recited, "Falun Dafa is good. Zhen-Shen-Ren is good," and have benefited a lot. I have witnessed Dafas mighty power and wonderfulness. Now many people are repaying me by buying me food and dropping it off without letting me have a chance to say no. Everyday there are people praising me, saying, "You're the best.
When the death camps where the Chinese Communist Party harvests organs from living Falun Gong practitioners were exposed, I cried for my fellow practitioners. We are one body. Isnt the persecution against my fellow practitioners also a persecution against me? Teacher said,
"Whether the change in the state of society is negative or positive, or, put another way, whether what comes about is bad or good, it is a test for our Dafa disciples all the same, and not a reason to become content. If things really do change for the better, it will be a different sort of test for you, and you still shouldn't become content. By all means you need to do what a Dafa disciple should do, maintaining your righteous thoughts."("Teaching the Fa in the City of Chicago")
I had no fear, and continued clarifying the truth and exposing the evil. I distributed truth-clarification materials about the Nine Commentaries and posted them in public places.
Under Teachers merciful protection, through my more than two years of truth-clarification in my stall, more than 300 people have withdrawn from the Party, the Youth League or the Young Pioneers. I have also been to see my relatives in the countryside four times, and more than 100 people have withdrawn. Many people have understood the truth.
To this day, every step that I have walked has had much to do with my fellow practitioners and the experience-sharing on the Clearwisdom website, which has enabled me to truly understand Dafa rationally, assimilate to Dafa, and continue to elevate in the Fa. I thank my fellow practitioners for their compassionate help.