My Understanding of Good or Evil Coming from a Person's Spontaneous Thought
(Clearwisdom.net) One day in 2004, I went out to pick up some truth-clarifying materials by bike. On the street, I was hit by a three-wheeled motor car and fell to the ground. Everyone who was passing by said, "Oh, the old lady who fell is surely injured." I thought, "As a Falun Gong practitioner, there should be nothing wrong." I crawled aside and stood up easily.
Soon after that, a bad thought suddenly occurred to me, "You will feel pain after you stand up even though you did not feel pain when you fell." For the first three days afterwards, there was nothing wrong. However, I could not walk on the fourth day. For each step I took, I felt like I was being hit with a stick. I favored my left side. It was so painful that I was almost in tears. However, I could still persist in doing the exercises because I thought, "Even though it is so difficult, I should still keep on studying the Fa and doing the exercises." I did not tell my family members because my family members did not live with me. I could not go out. Fellow practitioners brought in food for me but I insisted on preparing the food by myself. However, I could not go out to clarify the truth. I was worried about it and soon two weeks passed.
One day, a practitioner who lives above me was arrested. When I heard this, I wanted to know more information. I asked Master for help and thought that I should go out to hear about it more clearly. That way, I could tell other practitioners about it to avoid further losses. As soon as I walked out, I felt extreme pain. However, I considered myself a practitioner. I was going out to do the noblest and most righteous thing. No evil was worthy of stopping me; I have Master's help. So I insisted on walking out. It took me over two hours to walk all 1,500 feet of the way. It was arranged by Master. When I arrived at the destination, I met with the practitioner that I wanted to meet. We learned the details of the arrest, and the other practitioner went out to let others know.
Later, I returned in a three-wheeled motor car. After that I thought, "Of course I can go out and clarify the truth." There were so many sentient beings who were waiting for me to save them. With the help of Master, I could definitely go out. Could ordinary people do this? With this thought, I went out the next day. Although it was not very east to walk, I could still go out independently.
I have enlightened to how important a practitioner's spontaneous thought is. Master says, "Good or evil comes from a person's spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences" (Zhuan Falun). I also understand what Master says in Lunyu: "Humankind must fundamentally change its conventional thinking." The better we study the Fa, the fewer mistakes we will make. And thus we can purify ourselves.