Walk Well on Our Way Home
(Clearwisdom.net) I didn't see the Minghui/Clearwisdom website until the fall of 2001. When I first saw it, feelings beyond description emerged in my heart.
I was fortunate to obtain the Fa in 1996. After studying the Fa and doing the Falun Gong exercises, all my illnesses were healed. Most importantly, I learned the purpose of life.
After July 20, 1999, we lost the environment to study the Fa, exercise together, and share our experiences. Communication between practitioners stopped. I no longer watched TV because all it showed was slanderous propaganda against Dafa. I fought with family members who spoke about Dafa the way they did on TV. I couldn't calm down and study the Fa, and often did the exercises with anger. The atmosphere was tense in my family and the pressure was killing me. I struggled through my daily life but there was one thing crystal clear in my mind, "Falun Dafa is good and I can't give it up."
In the fall of 2001, a practitioner brought me several copies of Teacher's lectures and articles from the Minghui/Clearwisdom website written after the persecution started. That was the first time I read material from the Minghui website. I earnestly studied Teacher's lectures and read every article from the website. Tears streamed down my face as I read. I felt terribly ashamed of myself as I saw practitioners so firmly protecting Dafa and making diligent progress in their cultivation.
I was deeply touched by Teacher's immense compassion. He picked up a practitioner who fell out of the group. My feelings were beyond words. I said to Teacher's picture, "Teacher, I've disappointed you, but I'll do well in the future."
That night I had a dream that I was sitting in a flying ship, and the ship was full of people; some I knew and some I didn't. I looked around, and there were many flowers blossoming in the clouds. I thought, "How can flowers blossom in a cloud? Is this real?" Just then a piece of cloud flew by and I touched it. The flowers were real and beautiful, with a pleasant fragrance. I woke up knowing Teacher was hinting that I should board the Fa ship.
At that time, there were few truth-clarification materials available in my local area. Most of them came from practitioners in other places. I started to write posters about the truth of Falun Dafa and make banners. Initially I was very scared when I went out to clarify the truth. I constantly felt like someone was following me and I was about to be arrested. My heart jumped when I heard sirens, but I still firmly believed in Teacher and Dafa and didn't stop what I was doing. I felt panicky before I left home every day, but as soon as I stepped outside, I felt a lot better. When I went home, I always felt that Teacher was right beside me, protecting me. Gradually my fear faded. I put out more posters and banners during holidays and politically sensitive days. During the Chinese New Year of 2002, I posted many "Falun Dafa is Good" flyers in my local area. It was the best New Year's present anyone could offer sentient beings.
For the Dragon Boat Festival Day in 2002, I prepared many banners and flyers. It's a local custom that people go out to the riverside or to the mountains for a walk on this day. A few days before that, I heard that the police would intensify their patrols during the holiday and the main roads and mountains would be monitored. Some practitioners said we should all lay low and wait until after the holiday. I repeatedly thought, "No. I'm a Dafa practitioner, and I only listen to Teacher. The evil can't intimidate me." The night before and the morning of the holiday, I posted the banners and flyers I'd prepared on utility poles by the roads, in the parks, and on trees in the mountains as I usually did. I saw a few police cars on my way, but I wasn't afraid. I did what I was supposed to do.
I continued to do the Dafa work and study the Fa calmly. Dafa gives us all our positive elements. One night, my sister (a practitioner) and I went to the suburbs to distribute truth clarification materials and post flyers. It was cold and we weren't familiar with the streets. There were no streetlights, either. We fumbled our way through, distributing truth-clarification materials to each household and posting flyers everywhere we could. After we finished, we were totally lost. A taxi happened to come our way (there were rarely taxis in this area) and we got home safely.
Later I read articles on Minghui/Clearwisdom about clarifying the truth face to face. That was another test for me. I became uneasy when it came to face-to-face truth clarification, and all kinds of thoughts surfaced in my mind. I knew those thoughts were wrong, but I couldn't stop them. I repeatedly recited Teacher's article, "A Suggestion." "It is the evil that is afraid of people knowing the truth of the situation, not Dafa disciples." I cleaned out the unrighteous thoughts I had and started to clarify the truth face-to-face to those around me.
I started to tell my students the facts about Falun Gong. For example, when I taught the word "burn," I took the opportunity to tell them the truth about the self-immolation incident in Tiananmen Square. I clarified the truth whenever I had the opportunity, and the children were willing to listen and ask questions. One time a student composed an article entitled, "Me in the Future." The student wrote, "In the future, I will become a grand judge, and I will try Jiang Zemin for his crimes and ask him why he persecuted Falun Gong." I was excited when I read it, for I knew the child's conscience had awakened. I went to this student and told him that it was good enough that he knew the truth for himself. For his own safety, he need not write it in his composition.
Soon after, a young teacher told me that the principal wanted me to go to her office. I asked her why, but the teacher didn't know. I felt something wasn't right and was a little uneasy, but I immediately told myself, "I've done nothing wrong,. What's there to be afraid of?" Teacher told us that when we run into a situation (where we need to clarify the truth), don't walk away from it. I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked for Teacher's support. I walked into the principal's office and not surprisingly, she told me a parent had called her and reported that I'd spoken about Falun Gong in class. The principal asked me if it was true. I could see she didn't want me to admit it. I didn't deny it and she became a little panicked. I stayed quiet and continued to send forth righteous thoughts. Later, she said I was silly and I should've thought more about my family. At the time, I was very calm. I told the principal not to believe the lies from the media. Falun Gong practitioners are all good people and the government's suppression was illegal. After I told her more about truth, the atmosphere became a lot more relaxed. The principal told me she would keep it a secret, but she wanted me to promise not to talk about it anymore. I didn't respond to her request, but I told her I knew what to do. I sincerely advised her not to speak ill of Dafa, no matter what the circumstances. She nodded and agreed. She never made negative comments about Dafa after that.
Walking out of the principal's office, I felt especially relaxed and free. I felt like I was walking on air as I pushed my bike home after work. In fact, I had long wanted to talk to her, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, because she had defamed Dafa at one of the meetings. Now the opportunity had found me!
When the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published I knew that the Fa-rectification had gone to the next stage. It was time to let people know what the evil Party really was. I withdrew from the Party on the Internet and read the Nine Commentaries several times. Then I told my friends about the Nine Commentaries. I felt it was harder than clarifying the truth, because some people were so poisoned that they couldn't accept what I said.
July 1 was coming, and it was time to reward outstanding Party members. The school nominated me. I found my supervisor and told her why I couldn't be an outstanding member. I told her about the Nine Commentaries and about the facts about Falun Dafa in China and around the world. We talked for more than an hour. She agreed with me, and said she'd really enjoyed talking with me, because she got to hear the truth. I told her that practitioners don't lie. In the end, she agreed that I didn't have to become an outstanding Party member, but because she'd already nominated me, there might be trouble if she reversed it. I also told her that from then on I would no longer be attending the study sessions for Party members. I told her the Party's "advanced nature" and "Three Representatives" were all lies.
Because the nominees for "members with advanced nature" had already been announced, many people noticed the change, and asked me what had happened. I took the opportunity to tell them the truth about Falun Gong and introduce the Nine Commentaries. I stopped going to the study sessions for "preserving the advanced nature of the Party," and I stopped buying the study materials. Initially someone would notify me to go to a study session, and I would clarify the truth to him or her. Finally, nobody bothered anymore. Many others began to say they didn't want to attend the study sessions, take more than 10,000 words of notes, or write repulsive reports that had to be over 4,000 words.
I remembered Teacher words in, "Dafa Disciples' Righteous thoughts are Powerful,"
"Since we cultivate in a righteous Fa, we should care for and save beings and the people of the world who are good."
In September, I took over a class of first graders. On October 13, it was "Team Building Day," and the school had to hold a meeting to induct the first graders into the Young Pioneers. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil communist spirit for several days prior to the meeting, and refused to submit the list of new members. Officials began trying to pressure me. I went to one of them and clarified the truth, "I won't do it. This communist farce has gone on for more than 100 years, and everyone knows it's a failure. Aren't we pushing the kids into a dead end alley if we help the Party to drag them in? We are committing a crime!"
She said, "The crime is mine and has nothing to do with you!"
I replied, "It has everything to do with me. I'm responsible for these kids' futures. How can I face their parents if I lead these children astray? I won't comply, and I won't help the Party do this to them!"
They saw that I was determined, and in the end they decided to assign a "nominal" assistant to my class. They also decided to stop deducting points from classes if the students didn't wear their red scarves. This had never happen before. In the process of making it happen, I told the truth about Falun Gong and the Nine Commentaries to everyone involved.
Whenever a new problem emerged, I would remember Teacher's instruction from "Dafa Disciples' Righteous thoughts are Powerful,"
"No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates. If everyone does this the environment won't be this way."
It's been six years since the persecution started, and I've held on to one thought: "Firmly believe in Teacher and Dafa." I've made it through to today with Teacher's protection. No matter what the evil bellows, I only listen to Teacher. On every step I take, Teacher showers me with His meticulous care. My attitude has gone from anxious to unwavering. I safely walked through many dangers because of Teacher's protection and immense grace.
I never thought there was anything about me worth sharing, because I've never been arrested, imprisoned, or persecuted, but in fact, that is what we should do - not be persecuted, and we should boycott the evil's arrangements for us and for all sentient beings. I know I still have a lot of room to improve, and I promise Teacher that I will become a competent Dafa practitioner.
I share my experience with everyone today. My level is limited, so please kindly point out any incorrect understandings.
Thanks to our compassionate and mighty Teacher! Happy New Year Teacher! All practitioners in Hailaer District in Hulunbeier City miss Teacher!
Thanks to the practitioners who work on Minghui/Clearwisdom! Heshi!