(Clearwisdom.net)
July 4th of this year was an unforgettable day.
This day was the second time I joined a new group Fa study. I had not planned to attend this weekly Fa study, as I already have a group study at my house, but I decided to go because practitioners bring truth-clarification materials to me there, and I then deliver them to several other practitioners to distribute.
In several lectures Master has reminded us not to leave one practitioner behind. As a disciple I feel it is my responsibility to help those who only practice at home to step forward and join the Fa rectification, and improve along with us. That is why I take the responsibility to deliver Teacher's new articles and truth-clarification materials to three practitioners who live in the suburbs. They each live in different districts - one in the east, north and south. The one who lives in the south district has already stepped forward and joined our Fa rectification team. To visit the practitioner in the north takes a five to six-hour round trip, first by subway and then by taxi. The place for group study is on the west side. I contacted these practitioners after July 20, 1999. They are all very diligent and I like meeting with them, but sometimes I feel my capability falls short of my wishes. I am close to sixty and keep doing the three things well everyday.
I was moved by a practitioner's pure heart one day. It was March this year when practitioners finally received the long-awaited Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and Minghui Weekly (the Chinese language version of Clearwisdom.net, in digest format) announced that a wave of quitting the communist party and its affiliated organizations had begun. The practitioners kept saying: "We are late, we are behind."
I was deeply moved by their eagerness to catch up with the Fa rectification and with their yearning to read Minghui Weekly in a timely manner. When I compared this to my own attitude, I was ashamed. From that moment on I decided, no matter how tired I was, because I had access to Minghui Weekly, I would make sure that they were able to see the most updated information in the timeliest manner. I also joined them for Fa study every week.
On July 4, we started to study the Fa at 8 a.m. We studied two chapters of Zhuan Falun in the morning. At noon we sent forth righteous thoughts, and after lunch we started a discussion. Everyone was able to look inward for the problems that were brought up during discussion. We compared our understanding and cultivation on the basis of our understanding from the Fa, of cleansing our minds of ordinary thinking and degenerate notions, concepts and behaviors, and of reaffirming our righteous thoughts to assist in Master's mission.
I usually returned home at around 2:30 p.m. because I would deliver truth-clarification materials at night and it usually takes about two hours. Practitioner Xuelian (alias) asked me, "Will you come with us later to distribute truth-clarifying materials?" Without hesitation, I replied, "Sure, where are we going?" "Not far - just under the bridge." I thought, it was not far, would not take much time, and I could still catch the 6 p.m. time to send righteous thoughts. The only thing I gave up was some rest.
We sent forth righteous thoughts before we left, clearing out the interference in other dimensions, eradicating all evil in the Three Realms that damages Dafa, allowing all predestined beings to obtain Dafa and asking for Master's support.
The five of us each carried a bag full of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, flyersand truth-clarifying DVDs. It was 39 C° in the mid-afternoon and the sun was blazing, but none of us felt hot; we were marching forward on the path of Fa rectification.
Suddenly when we had 100 meters to go before we reached the bridge, a police car drove up to us. Xuelian and I spoke with one voice: "The evil cannot see us." Lamei and Qingchun (aliases) gave us an understanding smile. We walked on and did not pay any attention to the police. The practitioner on the bike did the same.
I saw big trucks lined up under both sides of the bridge waiting for jobs. We divided into two teams, Xuelian and Qingchun, Lamei and me; Huiming (alias) who came on bike went to the front. I saw one driver asleep on the ground. Lamei said, "Since he is asleep, let us not disturb him." I thought we should still leave him the material. It was fine that he was asleep. I said, "Let's go over there, there are people in the truck." Lamei raised a copy of the Nine Commentaries and said, "Mr. Driver, here is a book for you."
"What book?" He asked.
The "Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party."
The driver took the book and said, "Thank you very much."
Wow, I was shocked by how she gave out the copy of "Nine Commentaries" this way! This was the first time for me. Was I afraid? Why should I be afraid? None of my fellow practitioners were afraid. My righteous thoughts came over me and there was nothing left in my mind except "saving sentient beings." At that moment, I could truly sense the greatness and power of Master's words:
"One righteous thought itself subdues a hundred evil things" ("Righteous Thoughts")
I raised the book above my head and talked to the driver, "Here is a book for you to read, sir."
"What kind of book?" the driver asked.
"You will know when you start to read. It is a wonderful book."
He took the book, opened the cover and kept saying, "Thank you, thank you."
"You are welcome, good luck!" In this way we gave the books away one after another.
Suddenly, Xuelian on the other side yelled at us: "Have you finished yet." We replied: "Not yet."
"Bring some over here, we are finished."
We hurried over and saw more than 20 drivers sitting in a group. Each of them held the "Nine Commentaries" and was reading intently. Those who did not have the book kept asking us for one. Those that refused us earlier changed their minds. Some of them wanted to discuss the book with us. What an exciting and inspiring moment! Our pure hearts, compassionate behavior and righteous thoughts dissolved any deviated thoughts in their minds. We saw the understanding part of them and their urgency. They were longing for the good news of Dafa.
We finished the job smoothly. Looking at my fellow practitioners, my eyes welled up with tears and I sighed with emotion. How mighty is our Master! How mighty are our disciples! They suddenly appeared huge, with bodies reaching all the way up to the sky. All of my sweat pores were open. I truly felt what is called "to join the mind and body together." A deep gratitude welled up from my heart, "Thank you Master for giving us righteous thoughts and courage. Thank you Master for the opportunity we've been waiting for throughout the ages to save sentient beings."
In order to catch my bus in time, I left and hurried to the bus station. The moment I arrived, an empty bus also arrived. I knew it was under Master's care. In the past, it was common to wait for the bus sometimes for over forty minutes, and once it arrived all the seats would be occupied and we would constantly ran into traffic jams. It seemed I took an express bus that day and arrived home earlier than usual. I realized that during our cultivation and Fa rectification, each step we move forward involves Master's giving and care. How could we not be diligent!
In the evening, after I saw the practitioner who delivered more materials to me, I reflected on myself. When first delivering the book, my deeply hidden attachment of fear was exposed, even though it only lasted a second. I always thought I believed after all these years of truth clarification that no evil would dare to touch me, and I thought my attachment to fear had long gone. I felt so insignificant in front of the true Dafa disciples. Especially when I heard Lamei say: "When I saw the police car I thought to myself, 'if he comes out I will give him a book of the Nine Commentaries.'" She also said that she felt very safe beside her fellow practitioners. I was even more ashamed when I heard that. I also found my attachments of self-satisfaction, being stubborn, laziness and qing. I was greatly surprised. I always believed, and so do fellow practitioners, that I was very diligent. On this day I discovered a big gap between myself and those practitioners who truly do well.
From this truth-clarification activity and experience of saving sentient beings, I saw my shortcomings. My heart and mind was also purified through the experience. From now on, I will work harder to do the three things well, and walk each step well on the right path.
Just like Master said:
"The closer to the end, the more diligent you should be." (Title, "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be")