(Clearwisdom.net) I was assigned to monitor Falun Gong practitioners for the past several years, and my contact with them over this period of time progressively disturbed my conscience. I have found that the Falun Gong practitioners under my surveillance are completely different from how they have been depicted in the media.
I have seen these practitioners hold firm to their belief under tremendous pressure. While facing punishment, huge fines, detention, forced labor, and prison terms, they have never denounced the government or taken any excessive action against anyone. They have simply insisted that, "Falun Dafa is good," "Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance is good," and "We are being persecuted by evil forces." I have witnessed that they voluntarily give up their seats to others on the bus, turn in lost items they have found, warmly offer help to other people, silently clean up public hallways, voluntarily return change when overpaid, dig out dirt from sewage systems with their bare hands, and give up the minimal stipend paid by the government, saying that "we can make a living and the country should spend this money on more needy people." They willingly accept any assignment except when it is beyond their abilities. They also obey the law, never gamble, never pick a fight, and never curse anyone. Their mental and physical health also command my admiration.
Sometimes I ask myself what I would do in their situation. I might fight the government, at worst exchanging one life for my own. Their lack of hatred or discouragement inspires me as the days go by. The facts have made things clear to me. Let's think about the fact that before 1999, there were many Falun Gong practitioners in my area. Why had there never been any of the terrible incidents such as described on the TV, and why had they never negatively impacted society? Even now, the leaflets they hand out are not anti-society, not anti-government, and not anti-China. The leaflets simply expose those with ulterior motives that have taken advantage of their power to persecute the practitioners, and present the fact that Falun Dafa has spread far and wide around the globe.
Whenever I earn a bonus or overtime for what I have been doing, I cannot face my conscience. We often complain that the moral standards are declining, that there's no trust whatsoever among people, but we do not ask ourselves whether our own actions have suppressed what's good and fostered what's evil. Taking myself as an example, by participating in the persecution of a group of Falun Gong practitioners with high moral standards, I am really abetting evil acts. Thinking this over, we are indeed misled and deceived by our orders and the media. Irrational, unfounded antagonism against Falun Gong has been stirred up, and we have mortgaged our conscience, driven by those with ulterior motives who appeal to our self interest and desire for power. As a matter of fact, it is Jiang Zemin and his followers who, by persecuting Falun Gong, are bringing instability to our nation and our people.
I think it is time that our country should rid itself of those who have wrongfully persecuted Falun Gong and deceived ordinary citizens to act against their conscience.
To conclude, let me tell you, based on my eyewitness observations, that "Falun Dafa Is good! The wrongful persecution of Falun Gong is unprecedented!" I hope this expression of my deepest regrets will alleviate my burdened conscience.
December 9, 2004
