Why Was My Wife Afraid?
I am a retired teacher and began practicing Falun Dafa in April 1998. Since I began, I've practiced the exercises, studied the Fa, and cultivated my xinxing (mind/heart nature; moral character) every day. My long time health problems have all disappeared. After all this time, I have come to know the true joy of living and have discovered what the purpose of life really is.
In the beginning of the Jiang regime's persecution of Falun Dafa and Falun Dafa practitioners, I found that my thoughts were wavering a little bit. Due to my fear of the evil people searching my home, I hid my copy of Zhuan Falun in a very secret place that is quite far away. I had not studied the Fa for a long time and could only read truth clarification material and Teacher's new articles that were delivered to me by other practitioners. Sometimes I would go out to spread truth clarification material in secret, without letting anyone know. As time passed, my family environment suddenly became very tense and my wife's attitude changed to one with a very unhappy nature, and it caused all my family members to become chaotic, especially when I came back from delivering truth clarification materials.
In the beginning, I thought that it was because I had neglected helping my overworked wife with the housework. So I voluntarily took over the housework, and began doing the cooking, laundry, house cleaning, and taking care of the grandchildren so as to be more considerate of her, but she did not change a bit. At this point I started to complain that she was not being reasonable. My wife used to be a very kind person. When Dafa brought back my health, she was very happy and even told everyday people that Falun Dafa is very good. However I think the reason that she had become so unreasonable lately is because that while we are under the Jiang regime's pressure, she was afraid that I might be fired from my work place and lose all of our retirement benefits because I continued to practice Dafa.
Why was my wife afraid?? I looked inside myself. In the beginning of the evil's persecution, my mind was unsteady and under the pretense of safeguarding Dafa, I hid my copy of Zhuan Falun, and clarified the truth in secret. All of the above behavior is due to my own fears, and my fears caused my wife's fear and her worries. Teacher said: "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference" Essentials for Further Advancement II) Amidst this, I even hid my copy of Zhuan Falun, and did not study the Fa for some time. Therefore where could I obtain my righteous thoughts? Because of not having enough righteous thoughts, the evil exploited my fears and enhanced my wife's fear too.
Therefore I took my Zhuan Falun out of hiding and studied the Fa righteously and delivered the truth clarification material openly. In the mean time, we sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all of the evil's interference. We became diligent in doing our three things, studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and clarifying the truth, and became determined to accomplish our historical mission as Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples. As a result, my wife started to change. Her scolding and complaints disappeared one after another and the smile on her face returned. When I studied the Fa, she would sit down to listen and we also watched truth clarification videos together. Every time that I would go out to clarify the truth, she would remind me to "send forth more righteous thoughts."
Teacher has emphasized many times to us that we should not neglect Fa study, and the need to study the Fa more. We must remember Teacher's words. Only with the Fa's power can we rectify people's hearts.