Correcting My Thoughts and Actions to Save My Husband, a Police Officer
(Clearwisdom.net) My husband is a police officer. Since July 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) has wantonly fabricated lies to slander Falun Gong. My husband believed the CCP hate propaganda and participated in the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners.
At that time, I did not understand the Fa well. I seemed to be actively validating the Fa, but my thoughts and actions were not really on the Fa. For example, I was very attached to accomplishing more and equated doing things with cultivating. I showed little consideration for my husband and was not tolerant of his behavior. Also, I did not help to stop his evil deeds. When fellow practitioners told me that my husband had participated in persecuting some practitioner, I felt embarrassed and harbored hatred. I fought with him about this when I got home. I didn't think to respond with a cultivator's attitude and did not try to patiently help him understand why he should not do this. Instead, being controlled by the old forces, my husband became even more rampant.
Because I was unable to let go of my attachment to affection for a long time, the evil took advantage of me. Once, while I was distributing materials explaining the truth about Falun Dafa with my fellow practitioners, I was arrested and sent to the local detention center. But with Master's guidance and protection, I walked out of the evil den after nine days. After getting home, I did not look inward for the problem. Instead, the attachments of fear and wanting comfort emerged. At that time, my husband cooperated with local police officers and sent me to a brainwashing center.
After that, I looked inward seriously. I thought, "Why did my husband help the evil persecute me?" I recalled that when I was in the brainwashing center, an officer looked at me and said, "Some practitioners fight with their husbands at home." I realized that it was because of my affection. I decided to get rid of this fundamental attachment after reading what Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"You will be made to abandon all those attachments that cannot be given up among everyday people. As long as you have them, all of those attachments must be removed in different environments. You will be made to stumble, whereby you will become enlightened to the Tao. This is how one goes through cultivation practice."
By studying the Fa, I changed my thinking and let go of my attachment to affection. I started to treat my husband with care and waited to find the right time to clarify the truth to him. I used compassion to try to persuade him, and I used the Fa to judge my words and actions. Doing things this way changed my husband.
Later on, he was transferred to work at another police station. One day, he found a copy of Zhuan Falun that had been confiscated and asked me to hide the book. Once, when we were walking together, my husband saw me posting some Falun Dafa materials and he asked for one. "Who says Falun Dafa is not good? It is good!" he said, and helped post the material on a wall.
As Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples, we should change our conventional thinking. In dealing with our relatives and family members, we should remember that our true purpose is to save sentient beings. We should not create tribulations for ourselves. Only by doing things this way can we do better in the three things Master has asked us to do and reach consummation to return with Master.