Believing in Teacher and the Fa while Passing the Sickness Test
(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Gong in 1998. From 1972 to 1998 I suffered from various illnesses including liver problems, gallstones, nephritis, and insufficient blood supply to the brain. I was known as a chronically ill person and could not live without medicine. I spent huge amounts of money attempting to cure all my illnesses. At that time, my weight dropped to about 35 kilograms (77 lbs.). My parents-in-law did not like me, and my husband detested me. All this made me suffer. I learned Falun Gong in 1998. Under the compassionate care of Teacher, all my illnesses disappeared and I also gained about 15 kilograms (33 lbs.).
On one memorable occasion in 2006 I suffered from persecution by the old forces, which used the excuse of practitioners having karma and attachments. I suddenly felt uncomfortable all over my body and then I had this acute pain in my right leg. It was so painful I couldn't move. My husband was very scared and thought that my liver problem had recurred. He worried that I might have contracted liver cancer, so he asked me to go to the hospital to have a checkup. I asked him not to worry and told him that I didn't want to go to the hospital. I told him that I would not die since I was a practitioner and was taken care of by our Teacher. Only our Teacher could save me. Teacher has already removed the names of every single Dafa disciple from hell's list, so the king of hell could not take our lives. Therefore, it must be interference and persecution by the old forces, so I must totally negate them and eliminate the dark minions and rotten ghosts.
I was in a lot of pain so I asked Teacher for help. I told Teacher that if the old forces attempted to force me to die, I would never agree. I must wait for Teacher to come for me. No divine beings, demons or human beings have the right to touch me. I always remembered Teacher's requirements for practitioners, which was to study the Fa a lot, to look inward, and to do the three things well.
At the time when the sickness demon tried to kill me, I thought of Teacher. Teacher said,
"Your suffering only comes from not wanting to let go of your attachments--'My! How come I feel so awful! Why do some people always treat me so badly? Why is my body always eliminating karma?' Human beings just can't let those things go. What's the maximum you can let go? Can your thoughts be righteous and can you be like a true Dafa disciple? Be upright, dignified, and confident, and regard yourself as a Dafa disciple. If you can truly let go of your attachments in any circumstance, and treat yourself as a Dafa disciple who is different from an ordinary person, I believe everything will change. " ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Western U.S. Fa Conference")
This paragraph of the Fa woke me up. I knew Teacher had rooted out my illnesses so what appeared was nothing but a false phenomenon. The old forces used it as an excuse to "test" me and to interfere with my helping Teacher to rectify the Fa. I was studying the Fa, cultivating my xinxing, clarifying the facts, and saving sentient beings. The old forces created this false phenomenon in an attempt to prevent me from saving sentient beings. I knew the old forces must have taken advantage of my omissions. Therefore, I made it very clear that I would not leave any omission for the old forces to take advantage of and that the old forces were not in a position to "test" practitioners. The Fa principle is that I, as a practitioner, can eliminate the old forces but the old forces have no right whatsoever to persecute me. Teacher does not recognize the arrangements by the old forces, nor do practitioners. We must disintegrate the old forces. I am a practitioner and am taken care of by our Teacher, so no one can touch me.
In this way, I eliminated the false sickness karma, which lasted for more than a month, with my powerful righteous thoughts, believing in Teacher and the Fa.
Please kindly help me understand any shortcomings I may have.