(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Dafa in July 1998 and have been guided and protected by Master's immense compassion and supernatural powers. I tried to make rapid progress along with other practitioners and experienced constant physical and mental cleansing. A few months later, however, Division 1 of the Ministry of Public Security secretly labeled Falun Dafa as undesirable and fabricated criminal charges against Master. I wrote letters to fellow practitioners, and together we wrote to state leaders to explain the facts about Falun Gong.

After the "April 25", 1999, Appeal, a colleague said, "Jiang Zemin came into power by supporting the 1989 Tiananmen Massacre. It's been ten years, and now he wants to find out if his tactics still work, so he wants to try it on Falun Gong." I instantly grasped the seriousness of it and sensed what was about to come. This prompted me to contact my superiors and colleagues to tell them of the wonders of Dafa.

After the persecution began on July 20, 1999, my superiors talked to me and said, "If you know it's good, then practice at home. Don't go out and tell others about it. The Communist Party is capable of any brutality." I answered, "Yes, I will study the Falun Dafa books and do the exercises at home, and I will also tell my friends and relatives about it, because there is nothing wrong with being a good person, and there is nothing wrong with believing in Truth-Compassion-Tolerance." My superior said, "OK, that's fine, but don't go out and talk to strangers about Falun Dafa." In the days that followed, I never wavered in my belief in Master and Dafa. I kept up with Fa-rectification and my experiences have shown that Master does give us wisdom, wisdom that is proportionate to our belief in Master and Dafa.

Maintaining the cultivation format Master has given us

The format of cultivation practice Master has left us includes group Fa study, group exercises, and experience sharing conferences. When the persecution first began, my superior handed me a document issued by the central government that read, "Isolate and disintegrate, destroy [Falun Gong practitioners] one-by-one, ruin their reputations, bankrupt them, and annihilate them physically. Completely eradicate Falun Gong within three months." My heart bled, and I thought, "This is vicious! But you'll never be able to achieve your sinister goals." After the police broke up our Fa study and exercise group, I called four practitioners in the local area. We studied the Fa and did the exercises together. We always cultivated in the way Master has instructed us, so we improved quickly. We went out to expose the persecution and the Party's shameless lies whenever we got a chance. We helped other practitioners establish small Fa study groups, and all of us shared our experiences. Because we believed in Master and Dafa and followed the format of cultivation practice Master had given us and continuously improved ourselves in the Fa, Master continuously revealed Fa principles to us. One practitioner printed articles from the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, so we knew what was happening all around the world.

Stepping forward and explaining the facts

I used to think other practitioners should go to Beijing to appeal for justice for Falun Gong. I was a government official and the law says that government cadres cannot appeal at a level of government higher than their local government, so I stayed in my area and explained the facts locally. As my understanding of the Fa deepened and the Party went on with the persecution, I realized that I cultivate the law of the universe, and the law regarding appeals is a human law that should not restrain me and that I should go to Beijing to explain the facts and validate the greatness of Dafa.

I successfully arrived in Beijing before the 2000 Chinese New Year after finishing my work in the government. I joined several practitioners. We went to Tiananmen Square on December 29, 1999. We wanted to unfurl a flag with the Falun symbol on it and shout, "Falun Dafa is good," but it was a chilly day and not many people were around, so we went to a nearby park and waited for more tourists to come. In the meantime we thought, "Maybe the police will come and arrest us; but if they don't, we'll shout 'Falun Dafa is good' and go home for Chinese New Year." The tourists never came, but the police did. We realized later that thinking "the police would come" brought them to us, because we acknowledged the persecution and did not correctly position the relationship between Dafa disciples and the police. We are rescuing sentient beings, including the police, and we are helping them, so it's not a simple case of persecutors and victims.

Producing flyers and pamphlets to help more people learn the truth

In the early stage of the persecution I took a flyer to a print shop, made copies of it, and distributed the copies among my family, friends, and colleagues, telling them to pass them around to help more people. As I made more trips to the print shop, however, the shop owner grew afraid, saying that the police and 610 Office agents frequently harassed and threatened him. So I thought, "Master, it'd be great if we could have our own truth-clarification materials production site."

I got to know a practitioner through Master's arrangement. Her home was spacious, and her husband was also a practitioner. After we talked, she said she wanted to buy a copy machine. I encouraged her to do so and promised to provide her with original materials. Another practitioner whom we never knew before July 20, 1999, delivered articles to the first practitioner on a weekly basis, so she could make copies. I took the copies to practitioners in the countryside, where they handed them out to every household. Eventually I discovered that the second practitioner was responsible for too many projects and as a result made occasional mistakes. I helped the first practitioner whose home has been turned into a materials production site with the purchase of computers and printers, and I taught her how to print articles on her own. I also taught myself how to download materials from the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, and I provided her with U drives. As one of countless family-based production sites, our site was able to produce the "Minghui Weekly," The Net is Tightening, Awaken, Around the World, and many other types of Falun Gong-related publications.

In 2002, an earthquake in Taiwan damaged some oceanic power cables. This slowed my computer download speed, and sometimes I could not get online. Before each download I would communicate with the computer saying, "We must negate the old forces' arrangements and work together to complete the task of downloading in order to better rescue sentient beings." I then sent powerful righteous thoughts to eliminate interference. Once, nothing happened even after I repeatedly sent righteous thoughts and I thought, "What's going on? Are my righteous thoughts not powerful enough?" Then I recalled Master's words, "We negate even the very emergence of the old forces and everything that they've arranged; we don't even acknowledge their existence." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")

I realized that I was actually acknowledging the old forces' existence. I thought too much of the old forces and I was fighting with them, so I was in fact stooping to their level. How does that constitute believing in Master and Dafa? How can Master not have arranged everything? Master is in control of everything! As soon as I came to this understanding, I was able to successfully complete the download.

Master's powers help me create VCDs

After Master published the article "Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People," we studied it and held discussions through which we realized the urgency of clarifying the facts and rescuing people. It suddenly occurred to me that many peasants are illiterate, so it'd be great if we could give them VCDs to watch. I asked Master mentally to endow me with the ability to produce VCDs.

One day, while surfing the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, I came across another practitioner's article that gave instructions on how to install a VCD burner at home. She shared how she studies the Fa during the day while burning VCDs at the same time, and she distributes them at night. She had done it for a long time without bringing any trouble to her family, and it has been a very effective and powerful way to save people.

I had a computer but no VCD burner. I asked my husband to buy one so I could work independently to produce VCDs. Because I had no bad thoughts, my husband quickly bought a new computer; a practitioner brought me brand new VCDs, and another practitioner who is a computer expert taught me how to copy VCDs. I borrowed some Falun Gong VCDs from one practitioner and made copies on my own. I knew Master had arranged everything, and I was infinitely grateful.

I wrote the titles on the VCDs with permanent markers. As the variety of the VCDs increased and as I continued to study the Fa, Master prompted me that the VCDs should play an even more important role. More and more people can access the Internet, but the Communist Party has blocked foreign websites, so it limits the sources for authentic information. I asked a practitioner, "Can I burn the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and anti-blockade software on the VCDs?" He said, "Sure." He taught me how to re-arrange the content of the VCD and reminded me to keep updating the information on anti-blockade software.

After the new VCD was made I wrote some poems asking people to cherish the opportunity to learn the truth and to spread it to others--to choose a bright future for themselves and their families by quitting all organizations affiliated with the Communist Party. I reminded them on the VCD label that inside they could find popular electronic books and precious anti-blockade software. I produced tons of these VCDs, and the feedback was excellent.

Doing away with dependency; Master gave me the wisdom to design VCD covers

I showed the new VCDs to a practitioner, hoping it would help other practitioners who were also making VCDs. He provided me with gorgeous VCD covers that he downloaded from the Minghui website, but he did not write on the label about the e-books and anti-blocking software that the VCD contained. He gave me the U drive with the beautiful cover. I brought it home and added the labels on his VCDs.

Because the variety of VCDs continued to increase, we had to design brand new covers. I went to the practitioner who was the computer expert, but she too busy for at least two weeks to deal with this. I waited eagerly and hoped she could come and teach me how to do it.

I begged Master in my heart, "What should I do?" But then I remembered that I should not rely on anyone. Everyone should take the initiative to explain the facts and rescue sentient beings. We are both practitioners; if she can do it, why can't I? I was being lazy, among many other things. If she designed everything and brought it over to me, I never would have discovered or realized this fault. Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioner! I decided to learn to design VCD covers.

I looked for good pictures on my office computer and found several appropriate ones. Master subsequently arranged for practitioner Ding to bring me even more great pictures. I recalled how to make VCD covers, and on a Sunday I produced two lotus flower designs. One was titled "Minghui Focus: Witness May 13" and another one was titled "Minghui Focus: Exposing Secret Concentration Camps." I printed them and noticed the flower on the second cover was a little small. A few days later I downloaded a pamphlet and caught sight of a beautiful cover with a magpie perching atop a plum tree. I saved it and turned it into a VCD cover.

Eliminating the desire to doing things and better rescue sentient beings

Because I received great feedback from fellow practitioners and non-practitioners as I produced more professional-looking VCDs with good content, gradually and without realizing it I became attached to making VCDs and slacked off on Fa study and sending righteous thoughts. My husband or daughter had browsed a website that contained a virus, making the computer slow down. It used to take only three minutes to produce a VCD, but now it took six minutes, and it was difficult to get online. This lasted more than a month. I simply thought the VCD burner was getting old.

One evening I made VCDs well into the night. The next morning my husband got up early to clean the house and make breakfast. I never thanked him and went straight to the computer to make VCDs. To my surprise, my husband ran up to me, cursed, and grabbed a VCD from me. He threw it on the floor and stomped on it. I tried to get it back and asked him not to do it. He was stronger than I, so I asked my daughter for help. She always supported Dafa, but this time she sat there and scolded me. I quickly calmed down and remembered Master's lecture:

"Some students in China haven't conducted themselves too well at times. When they were arrested and persecuted, when those vicious policemen beat them, they beat them horribly. But at that moment, some students' righteous thoughts weren't adequate, and so the persecution that they suffered became even more severe. When the evil was beating them they forgot that they were Dafa disciples, and they didn't think, 'I'll ask Master to help me.' Or, when some people did ask Master for help, they had a strong attachment of fear. When they were beaten and in a lot of pain, many of them cried out, 'Oww! Mom!' They completely treated this persecution as a persecution of ordinary human beings against other human beings. Then if I tried to protect them at that time, those old forces wouldn't stand for it, because they're upholding the principles of the old cosmos; they think those are the only principles of the cosmos, and they can't see the new cosmos. They would say: 'This is your disciple? Do you think he sees you as his Master? Has he regarded himself as a cultivator? Does he have righteous thoughts? Has he put aside the thought of life and death? Has he remained solid and unshakable, like diamond?' At those moments, Master really couldn't respond to them in the face of their criticism. Of course, you can't say he isn't my disciple just because of his behavior in one or two instances or during one lifetime. They know this, too, so they say: 'The reason we beat him is to bring out his righteous thoughts. See, he doesn't even acknowledge you as his Master. And he doesn't regard himself as a Dafa disciple, either.'" ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")

So I shouted for Master to save me, and my husband and daughter both stopped.

Then I looked inward and found my preoccupation to doing things, and because I did not keep up with sending righteous thoughts and Fa study, the evil took advantage of my gap and manipulated my family into committing a crime against Dafa. Also, I asked an ordinary person (my daughter) first instead of Master when a conflict arose, because I did not have a firm belief in Master and Dafa.

I didn't use the computer for several days, and it stopped working completely. I said to my family, "The computer should serve the purpose of rescuing people by making VCDs, it's just like a cultivator not getting sick. Look, it has not been doing that these past few days, and that is why it's not working." We found someone who re-installed the operating system for us, and the former speed was restored. I thought, "The VCD burner should rescue sentient beings alongside me until the end of Fa-rectification. It should never grow old." It has performed superbly so far! When I again resumed making VCDs my husband and daughter offered help. My husband would occasionally ask, "Is there an end to this?" I said, "Of course. When everyone that should be rescued is rescued, then I'll be done!"

Above is what I've done and understood so far. Please point out anything inappropriate.