Improving Myself in the Process of Learning to Surf the Internet
(Clearwisdom.net) I bought a computer at the end of 2005. At the time, I was eager to learn how to make truth-clarification materials. But as soon as a fellow practitioner was going to install the firewall and other software for me, much interference occurred and I became fearful as well.
In the summer of 2006, a practitioner told me I could get on-line with a cell phone and he would buy me a cable. I waited for him to install the software. A lot of things happened at the end of October, and I had to postpone my plan again. I later realized the reason for the constant delay was my lack of a strong will to do it at the very beginning, and because I still had a lot of attachments.
Just as Master said,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master. It is good enough if you have this wish. It is the master who actually does this, as you are simply unable to do it." (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
After I found my problem, I strengthened my desire to learn, and asked for Master's help. At the end of December 2006, I had all the necessary software installed on my computer. I started surfing the Internet and burning CDs, as well as sending statements of withdrawal from the CCP and news reports to the Epoch Times. When "DynaWeb" first appeared on my screen, I was so excited that I could not find the words to describe my feelings. I thanked Master for the magnificent path He had arranged for me and made up my mind that only by advancing diligently and offering more sentient beings salvation could I be worthy of all Master's help.
After I learned how to surf the Internet, I discovered my strong show off mentality. One day, in front of several practitioners, I said I saw such and such news on the Internet. Afterwards, a practitioner reminded me that I was showing off, that I should have kept the information between only a few of us, and that I should cultivate my speech. I didn't take it seriously. I repeated it a few times after that and I couldn't hold my tongue. He again shared with me that he was like that before. His attitude was very firm but full of compassion. I accepted his points immediately.
I ran into several problems in the process of learning. For example, shortly after I started surfing the Internet, the computer alerted me that the firewall was expired. I did not understand the problem, couldn't find anyone to ask, and didn't know if it was dangerous to go on-line again. Finally I ran into an article about fixing the firewall. I downloaded the patch and fixed the firewall with my child's help. In another example, while burning CDs, I had no idea initially what speed I should use but learned it on my own after a few tries.
In 2007 many practitioners were arrested in my area. The situation was serious. The quantity of truth-clarification materials became very low. In the past, a few practitioners had typed up all the experience-sharing articles before sending them to the Minghui website through the Internet, but this year we couldn't find practitioners who could do this. I was quite new to the computer, and my typing speed was very slow, but I thought I should accept the responsibility to type and send out practitioners' experience-sharing articles in time. To meet the deadline of October 18, 2007, I sped up writing my own experience-sharing article about personal improvement based on the Fa and saving sentient beings and encouraged others to write theirs too.
I helped proofread articles and entered them into the computer. I was slow. It took me an hour to type a page. Six or seven practitioners started writing their articles; one of them wrote nine pages. Starting on September 30, 2007, it took me four nights to finish typing that article and send it out. I also transcribed and typed an article for an illiterate practitioner. After it was done and sent, I felt very happy. But my own article was not finished yet. On the morning of October 5, I fell asleep while working on it and had a dream. In my dream I wrote two articles and finished printing them on one page. But it was too dense to read. In addition, a big block of text was blurred and unreadable. I was so worried that I burst into tears. Waking up, I looked inside and realized that the foundation for my doing this was not right. I was merely trying to get it done and paying attention to the formalities. I reminded myself that through cultivation practice, our joy of personal improvement and saving sentient beings is hard to describe, and the goal in our writing articles is to record the process, not just to have written an article. At the time several more articles were brought to me. While typing, I saw these practitioners' pure hearts and courage in saving people, and was moved to tears by their compassion in truth-clarification. I felt my xinxing improve, and I was purified. Plus, after typing four articles, my typing speed improved dramatically.
October 17, 2007