Passing Through Ordeals with Faith in Teacher and Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) In 1998, while I was poor and sick, I heard the good news of Dafa. On the first day of watching Teacher's lectures on video, Teacher started to cleanse my body. Not long after I began the practice, my many chronic illnesses such as rheumatic arthritis, chronic bronchitis, low blood pressure, anemia, reduced blood platelets, all disappeared without treatment. Teacher pulled me up out of hell.
As business was slow at my workplace, I could hardly get by financially, so I began some small enterprises like taking care of children and doing housecleaning. I had never completed five sets of exercises at once, could not finish one lecture of Zhuan Falun in three days, and rarely joined group Fa study and group exercises. Nonetheless, Teacher was mercifully protecting me.
Soon after the persecution started, however I recognized down to my bones: Dafa is righteous; I have not taken a wrong path by practicing Dafa; I can't give up this practice even if the sky should fall and the earth crack open. My workplace group leader told me: "I heard if you stop practicing this, your previous diseases would come back. Go home and practice well." (They said this because the group knew the fundamental cause of the physical changes they had witnessed in me.) During the toughest days, I persisted in studying the Fa and practicing the exercises at home.
Even facing evildoers' harassment, tracking, surveillance and interrogation, we practitioners were not frightened. In the face of evil, I was fully aware: Simply do according to Teacher's requirements, expose the evil, deal with the evildoers righteously, then the evil would be frightened. The evildoers do not dare persecute righteous Dafa practitioners, as the evildoers really want to hide and avoid us! Over time, I have gradually matured through tribulation, and doing the three things wisely.
During nine years of persecution, the majority of our local practitioners had the strong attachment of relying on others, so we were very short of Dafa truth-clarification materials. It was very difficult to obtain and read Teacher's new articles and materials in a timely manner. When we did get some Dafa materials from other cities, we dared not pass them around widely. We only carefully circulated them in our small area; thus, the whole body did keep up in the Fa-rectification process. The old forces took advantage of many practitioners; they had strong symptoms of sickness karma.
No one realized that we should form a unified body and eliminate our gaps, until one day my younger sister, also a practitioner, lost her physical body as a result of the old forces' persecution. As I was unclear on the Fa principles, I began to have serious doubts: She has been doing the three things; how could she be taken away by "sickness karma"? Is a Dafa practitioner worse off than an ordinary person who shouts "Falun Dafa is good"? Why didn't Teacher protect her? The next day, I did not want to get up to practice the exercises. In a dream, I clearly saw my sister fluttering from a distant place, standing outside the window and pointing at the alarm clock. It was 4:45 a.m. -- the time we usually get up for exercises. I asked her, "Are you dead?" She shook her head with smile and fluttered away. I knew Teacher was giving me a hint; so, I quickly got up for the exercises.
"Without knowing the Fa at high levels, one cannot practice cultivation. Without cultivating one's inner self and one's xinxing, one cannot increase gong." (Zhuan Falun)
Why do Dafa practitioners lose their physical bodies during this period? Teacher had already told us in the Fa, but I had not cultivated solidly enough. When my younger sister was going through the tribulation of life or death, I thought it was the usual elimination of karma. I did not realize that I should have helped her raise her understanding of the Fa and helped her negate the old forces' arrangements. Not to mention, I should have compassionately pointed out her shortcomings. We did not know to negate the old forces' arrangements. Cultivation practice is serious. My righteous thoughts of believing in Teacher and Dafa were not strong enough on this issue; I found the loopholes the old forces had taken advantage of and learned a big lesson.
"The old forces have arranged for all Dafa disciples a set of their things, so if a Dafa disciple doesn't follow Master's requirements, he must be following the old forces' arrangements." ("Be Clearheaded")
This incident itself was a fundamental test of my belief in Teacher and Dafa. Soon after, I was interfered with by the evil. I had a high fever and my whole body felt cold. I even felt cold air drilling into my heart when I took a breath. I felt sleepy when I picked up Zhuan Falun. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw people in black clothes without faces coming to beat me. Meanwhile, many hard lumps grew on my body. I was distracted and became weak; my whole body was swollen, and any movement was difficult. Shocked, I finally began to take action: I can't be barred from working for the salvation of sentient beings. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts in my heart, and asked Teacher for strength: "Teacher please save me! I have not completed my prehistoric wish; at this critical time of saving sentient beings, I must do my part! I can't bring a negative impact onto Dafa!" I did not even have the strength to hold the book; so, my husband read it to me. Finally, through calmly studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts continuously, and sharing on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, I learned to truly look inward, and remembered Teacher's Fa:
Calmly reflect on the attachments you have("Don't Be Sad" from Hong Yin II)
Remove your human thoughts and evil will naturally die out
The old forces immediately disintegrated. A month later, my high fever was gone, the lumps on my body also slowly disappeared. I could sit in meditation for an hour from half an hour with difficulty. My body was restored to health and vigor. Since then I started to truly study the Fa with concentration, and do the three things attentively. If it were not for Teacher's mercy, I would probably again be walking on a path arranged by the old forces. As long as we listen to Master's teaching of "looking inward", there is no tribulation that we can't break through! Here, I sincerely thank practitioners at the materials production site who have contributed so much; they sent me Teacher's articles and the Minghui materials. They helped me find Teacher when I was lost, and helped me to pass through ordeals.
Teacher, don't worry, I have already became one of the "flowers springing up everywhere"! Because I know:
"Dafa disciples as a whole have passed the stage of personal cultivation. At present, because the enormous current of Fa-rectification is charging forward, the stage of Dafa disciples' validating the Fa is approaching completion and history is about to enter a new phase. From now on, the Dafa disciples in China as much as anyone, both new students and veterans alike, should let go of their long-standing human attachments and start to seize the day and comprehensively save the world's people. Once the current time period is over, the first large-scale process of weeding out sentient beings will begin." ("Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People")
I won't leave early, I will use my full strength to save sentient beings and thus complete my prehistoric wish. I can't get lost again!
Here, I would like to urge all my fellow practitioners through this sharing platform to be diligent, and let go of fear. Sentient beings are waiting for our salvation! Teacher is waiting for us to come home!