Looking Inward and Stepping Out of Emotion
(Clearwisdom.net) The term "looking inward" can now be understood by all practitioners. When we do not study the Fa well, we cannot look inward and we experience a lot of interference. We should rid ourselves of all sorts of attachments, notions, and desires, thus walking toward godhood and out of the maze of human society. In addition, we must do the three things well.
My husband liked watching movies made by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and it was difficult for me to explain to him why this was bad. On August 10, however, he suddenly had back pain, leg pain, and high blood pressure. He went to the hospital and the doctors recommended that he have an X-ray and a CT scan. When the results came, the doctors told him that he had a bone spur. He was very scared when he got home and spent several hundred yuan on medicine. He did not want to work and could not get out of bed because of the back and leg pain.
My emotions kicked in. I wanted him to recover fast so I clarified the truth to him about Falun Dafa and the persecution by the Communist Party. He did not listen and interfered with my Fa study. When I picked up the book, I just wanted to sleep. I did not go to group practice and I also did not do the exercises often on my own. I gradually stopped going out to clarify the truth. I was full of emotion, but I knew that this state was a reflection of the interference from the old forces and the CCP.
I recalled Teacher's lecture at the 2002 Fa Conference in Boston:
"The old forces don't dare to oppose our clarifying the truth or saving sentient beings. What's key is to not let them take advantage of the gaps in your state of mind when you do things." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa conference in Boston")
I solidified my righteous thoughts and was determined to follow Teacher and believe in Dafa. I eliminated my fear and other attachments. I truly did things to save sentient beings. I sent righteous thoughts at the set global times and stepped up studying the Fa and looking inward.
I spoke to my husband again about Dafa. I said to him, "Do not watch the CCP's Olympics and other bad things. Read truth-clarification materials, recite 'Falun Dafa is good,' and 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,' and your pain will be gone. I believe the bone spur was caused by a being crouching there in another dimension. Teacher can remove it and you will not have pain."
That afternoon, he asked for some booklets to read. He finished a few booklets in one afternoon. In the evening, he watched a performance by Divine Performing Arts on DVD. The next day, he read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. Just like that, without him noticing it, his back pain and leg pain disappeared. He said that Dafa is really amazing and he believed in Dafa. I would like to thank Teacher and Dafa. My husband being cured without surgery saved us a lot of money. I can also return to work.
Through this experience I realized that Dafa practitioners need to study the Fa more and study the Fa well. We can then really look inward, find our shortcomings, and do well on the last leg of our journey.