An Illiterate Practitioner Learns to Read All of Zhuan Falun
(Clearwisdom.net) I learned Falun Dafa in 1995. I was originally illiterate. But through years of cultivation and fellow practitioners' help, as well as Teacher's inspiration, I can now read all of Zhuan Falun. The wonder and almighty power of Dafa is validated through me.
Before becoming a practitioner, I lost my husband and son and was in great despair. I lost my senses and tried to kill myself. I was overcome with grief, but practitioners persuaded me to learn Dafa, which gave me a second life.
In Zhuan Falun, Teacher said:
"In the course of samsara, you have had mothers who were human and non-human, and there are too many of them to be numbered. It is also countless how many sons and daughters you have had throughout your different lifetimes. Who is your mother? Who is your son or daughter? No one knows it after one passes away. You must still pay for what you owe others. Human beings live in delusion and just cannot give up these things. Some people cannot let go of their sons and daughters and claim how good they are, and then they pass away. One may speak of how good one's mother is, but then she also dies. This person grieves so much that he almost wants to follow her for the rest of his life. Why don't you think about it? Aren't they here to torment you? They use this form to make you unable to lead a good life." (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I have a deep appreciation regarding this paragraph. Every time I read it, my tears flow. If Dafa did not save me, I would have mourned my son and husband for the rest of my life.
Not having read a single sentence in my entire life, convincing myself that I could learn to read Zhuan Falun was not that easy. Educated practitioners said that Dafa was miraculous, and I knew that Dafa was great, but being totally illiterate I thought, "What can I do?" I cried out in anguish, and sometimes I even resented my parents for not letting me get an education. Later, through repeatedly listening to Teacher's lectures, I enlightened to a principle: The fact that I did not study in this lifetime did not mean that I had never studied in my past lives. I followed Teacher to this world to rectify the Fa. This is not something of just this one lifetime. Being illiterate is only a superficial manifestation at the level of an ordinary person. As long as I devote myself sincerely to cultivation, Teacher will let me develop wisdom. I decided that I must learn to read all of Zhuan Falun!
After I developed this thought, miracles started to occur. Teacher's Fashen would appear and teach me to read, sentence by sentence, when I was doing the exercises, meditating, or sleeping. Sometimes when I forgot, Teacher would give me hints. In this way I was able to read through it once and then again. Now I can fluently read through the entire book without missing a word. I have hand-copied Zhuan Falun six times. Every time I finished reading it, I felt I had elevated, and copying it was even more helpful. I have enlightened to very profound principles that cannot be described in human language.
I thank Teacher for his care and help and for letting me join him on the journey of Fa-rectification.