Compassionate Teacher Saved Me
(Clearwisdom.net) I became a practitioner in August 1997. My symptoms of uterine tumors soon went away. However, at that time, I only understood the Fa on the surface and I did not cultivate diligently. I also had many human attachments. In July 2001, under the severe persecution by the CCP, my husband and I deviated from cultivation. We soon lost contact with fellow practitioners. Gradually, my tumors came back. I had forgotten Dafa's principles and did not look at the re-occurrence of my illness according to the Fa. Instead, I went to a doctor for medication. One day in 2004, I suddenly had a severe stomachache. My family members accompanied me to the hospital. The diagnosis showed that it was a rare malignant tumor, over 10 cm in diameter, but even the doctors were not sure about their diagnosis. I was scared and followed the doctors' advice for therapy. As a result, my body was severely damaged.
At this time, both my husband and I felt that something was wrong, although we could not tell exactly what it was. With Teacher's guidance, my husband found some fellow practitioners. After several discussions, I realized that our response to my "illness" was not from the standpoint of the Fa. My husband borrowed a copy of the book Essentials for Further Advancement from fellow practitioners and hurried to the hospital to give it to me.
As soon as I decided to resume cultivation, the situation immediately changed. About 7 a.m. the next morning, the head doctor came to me and said, "We have discussed your case for two days, but we still cannot come up a treatment specific to your illness. So, for the next step, it is up to you whether you will receive therapy or not." Then he left. At that moment, I suddenly became very clearheaded. I thought, "Since there is no specific treatment for my illness. I will stop the therapy." Plus, at that time I was physically very weak and could not have withstood any further therapy. I returned home that morning.
Compassionate Teacher gave me this opportunity to resume cultivation. I felt as if I had just woken up from a dream, and I realized that we had been going along with the persecution by the old forces. I decided to stand up and truly cultivate again - Teacher had never abandoned us. If my husband and I were to continue going astray, how sad would Teacher be?! Recalling the time several years earlier when I was actively practicing Dafa, everything went smoothly with my family, work and life. However, once we had stopped practicing, all sorts of trouble came up and things were unpredictable.
During the period of time that I had stopped cultivating, especially during those days in the hospital, Teacher gave me hints many times. However, because I had not studied the Fa for such a long time, I could not understand things according to the Fa. Under the persecution by the old forces, step by step, I slid closer to the danger of falling completely. At the moment when my situation was the most critical, compassionate Teacher saved me. My gratitude to Teacher is beyond description! I can never pay back Teacher's enormous compassion.
After returning home, I quickly obtained copies of all of Teacher's books from fellow practitioners. I started to study the Fa diligently, and my health rapidly improved. Through Fa-study, I realized that all of my illness symptoms were in fact, manifestation of the old forces' persecution. The old forces did not show any mercy in persecuting me, and I had suffered unnecessary pain and caused unnecessary losses. I was so regretful because I could not make up the three years of losses incurred. I was also regretful for the persecution that happened to me after I had stopped cultivating. I knew that I did not have even one more minute to waste! Therefore, from that moment, I've spent a great deal of time studying the Fa and I've focused on doing the three things well. I feel that I'm quickly improving in the Fa.
Now I am doing my best to do the three things well. I follow Teacher's guidance and am doing better at becoming selfless. Every day the thing that is foremost in my mind is how to do better in saving sentient beings and validating the Fa. Although I still face difficulty on the cultivation path, our environment of validating the Fa has become better and better. At every moment, I can sense Teacher's care and guidance, and so I am able to walk my path firmly and more righteously.
I should have written about this experience earlier and used my own experience to validate the Fa, since compassionate Teacher gave me everything. Still, I had a lot of interference, and it took two years before I was able to write my experience down. From the depths of my heart I have realized that without the Fa, we have nothing. "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." (Essentials for Further Advancement II)