A Change in Myself, a Change in My Husband
(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained Dafa five years go, but for the past few years, I have been busy with managing my bookstore and earning a living, so I was wavering in a state between cultivation and non-cultivation. My family does not cultivate, so I did not come back to join Dafa practitioners in assisting Master Li in Fa-rectification until the autumn of year 2005, when I sold my bookstore. Our local Minghui school was established over half a year ago, and I also provided the space for a computer classroom to clarify the truth. At approximately the same time, I joined the Celestial Band that was recently established in Taiwan and participated in many related activities to promote Dafa.
My husband does not cultivate and when he saw that I devoted so much time to Dafa activities, he always reminded me not to be too involved. He thought that it was good enough if I could just do the exercises and cultivate my xinxing, and he didn't understand why I needed to participate in so many activities. When he heard that I used a computer to clarify the truth to people in Mainland China about the persecution of Falun Gong and withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), he even misunderstood and said that we were getting involved in politics! I tried to explain to him several times, but he didn't want to listen. Later when I participated in the Celestial Band, he had even more difficulty understanding why Falun Gong organized a band. He felt that since Falun Gong teaches people to cultivate, then they should just cultivate, instead of doing other things. Later, I could only write him some notes and clarify the truth to him in a tactful way, but he still could not accept it.
At that time, whenever I came home late from clarifying the truth on the computer or practicing with the band, he was unhappy. On the other hand, I tried to treat my husband even better and my tone was softer. In the short run, I didn't see any obvious effect on him, but gradually he no longer tried to stop me from participating. Whenever I thought about my husband and that he is a good person, I felt that he also came to obtain Dafa, but due to his notions and attachments, he got lost when he came here. I felt a burden in my mind. He also vaguely felt his predestined relationship with Dafa, but due to his attachment to comfort, he was unwilling to start cultivating. My mother-in-law also tried to persuade him several times, but he always refused. I often wondered to myself if it was due to karma, or maybe it was because I was not diligent enough and didn't study the Fa enough, so I could not change the reality of the situation.
When I read Master's lectures, I saw that Master Li kept telling disciples to study the Fa more and study the Fa more. In "To the Australia Fa Conference" Master said,
"In order for Dafa disciples to walk their paths well and do the three things well, they must study the Fa well and take Fa-study seriously. The regions that have done well saving sentient beings and validating Dafa, and where great changes have transpired, are always places where people have studied the Fa well."
I enlightened to the fact that I should study the Fa more carefully, improve my xinxing, and do the three things well. Then I could help my husband be genuinely saved.
Because I treated this issue seriously and maybe the predestined relationship with my husband was maturing, late last year his company reduced staff and my husband was also asked to retire. Therefore, he had more time for reading. I thought that it must be Master's arrangement for him to obtain Dafa, so I found a chance to gradually tell him about how Dafa will rectify the human world in the future. At that time, he didn't believe it and I showed him Master's article "The Blessings From Dafa." He started to skeptically search for information on the Internet. When he found information about the Mayan civilization and some of the Bible's prophecies, in addition to his previous knowledge about Buddhism, he started to ask me questions. For many of the questions he asked, I had already read about them recently in Master's lectures.
I knew that my husband had a lot of interest, so I often left Dafa books on the table and hoped to attract his attention. He started to read them, including Zhuan Falun. Over a short period of time, he read many Dafa books and no longer interfered with my participation in Dafa activities. But he still had strong fear. Though he understood that this was the path that I should take to validate Dafa, he still didn't allow me to join the band for a parade in Hong Kong. He even said that he would leave me, to stop me from participating.
Faced with this situation, I really struggled with it in my mind, so I started to look inward and wondered if I should send forth righteous thoughts towards him and strengthen my Fa study to improve my xinxing. I didn't expect that when I volunteered to organize the Fa-Study winter camp for young practitioners for 3 days and 2 nights at the Minghui school, it would become the turning point. On the first night of the winter camp, after I arranged the accommodations for practitioners and went back home to finish my housework, it was already very late. When I lay down to go to sleep, I found that my whole body was extremely hot and I had a clear feeling that the Falun was rotating from my head down to my toes and penetrated my whole body. The Falun rotated over and over again and I didn't fall asleep the whole night. At that time, I really felt moved and thanked Master for helping me to clean up my body. At 4:00 a.m., I got up and started to study the Fa. Then I went to the Minghui school's winter camp and joined other practitioners in doing group practice and sending forth righteous thoughts.
During the winter camp, I saw some young practitioners insisting on finishing the course even when they had a serious situation in eliminating karma. I looked inward and felt ashamed and also realized that I was really not diligent enough. I should not use any excuse to explain why I didn't do well in doing the exercises, studying the Fa, or sending forth righteous thoughts. On the second day, during lunch break I suddenly felt a warm current again suddenly come down from the top of my head to all over my body. This time I felt as if my body was going to explode. Many thoughts came to my mind. I suddenly enlightened to many Fa principles, as many of Master's teachings emerged in my mind and I suddenly understood their true meaning! I realized that it was Master Li who was giving me a hint to cultivate diligently. When the activity finished, although I was worn out, I still went to the practice site to do the exercises on the second day.
When the winter camp finished and I went back home, I felt very touched upon seeing my husband. He had wanted to keep his hair long. I urged him several times to cut it short, but he was unwilling to do so. In "Lecture in Sydney" Master mentioned that, "Nowadays, there are people, hard to tell whether they are men or women, with long hair." I wanted to tell him about this and hoped that he would cut it short, but I could not find a suitable opportunity. On the second day of the winter camp, he told me that someone had mistaken him for a woman, and I used this opportunity to tell him what Master had said. He still argued with me, even on the last day of the winter camp when I was reading Lecture Nine. I still thought I would show him this Fa principle from "Lecture in Sydney" when I went back home, and ask him to cut short his hair. I was surprised to see that when I got home, he had already cut his hair short.
I knew that Master was encouraging me and I became firmer in my belief in Dafa. That evening, when we went to bed, I talked to my husband in depth until about 4:00 a.m. He quietly listened to my experience over the past few days, and Master also gave me the wisdom to keep talking to him and convince him to let me join the parade in Hong Kong. My husband finally let go of his attachments and fear, and decided not to oppose my participation. After I joined the Celestial Band, my oldest daughter also started to cultivate again, and my family environment become more harmonious. After I established our local Minghui school and volunteered to organize this young practitioners' winter camp, I went back home and saw some big changes in my husband, my children, and my mother-in-law. I cannot adequately express my heartfelt appreciation for Master Li's compassion and the magnificence of Dafa!
I want to thank Master Li again and I want to thank the members of the Celestial Band and young practitioners of the Minghui school, as well as the fellow practitioners who have given me assistance. I appreciate your help, which has enabled me to improve so much. I also thank every practitioner for correcting me when they saw my challenges. I want to say again that it is really magnificent to be able to cultivate in Dafa and I am so grateful to Master for giving me this precious opportunity.