My Cultivation Experience
(Clearwisdom.net) Under Teacher's benevolent help and protection, I have gotten through many difficulties and tribulations and become a true Fa-Rectification period Dafa practitioner. Here I'd like to express my sincerest gratitude to Teacher.
Teacher Saved My Life
Before I cultivated Falun Dafa, I had many diseases, including neurasthenia for over 20 years, and rheumatism. I had difficulty sleeping and performing physical labor, and I was afraid of cold weather. I tried many medicines but none worked. In 1994 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was in tears for three days. I had an operation in July, but the breast cancer came back shortly after. I felt pain everywhere. My elder son was 23 and younger son was 20 that year. I thought of taking sleeping pills to end my life so that I would no longer feel the pain, however I was concerned for my two sons, since neither of them was married yet. I hoped for something to save my life, so I tried to hang on. In 1995, I had a bone scan. The results showed a shadow in my shoulder blade, which indicated that the cancer cells had possibly moved to my bones.
My elder son married, and he and his wife had a baby in 1998. When I was visiting his home to see the baby, he saw that I was in great pain. He said to me, "Mother, please go to the park and practice qigong." His classmate was also visiting him. He said, "Auntie, please practice Falun Gong. My mother has been doing it and it is very good." This is how I started practicing Falun Gong.
In the beginning, I only learned to do the five sets of exercises. Later a practitioner lent me the book Zhuan Falun. I was so happy. After reading the book, I understood that this was cultivation. Teacher said:
"We need to straighten all this out for you. We'll keep what's good, get rid of what's bad, and make sure you can cultivate from this point on. But you really have to be here to learn the Great Law." ("Truly Guiding People Up to High Levels" in "The First Talk," from Zhuan Falun, 2003 translation)
Following Teacher's teaching, I tried to fortify my character. About 20 days after I started practicing I had a dream. I saw a white hand that extended from my back and pulled six tumors out of my stomach. Then I head a voice telling me, "Your illness has been cured." I woke up. I did not know what it meant, so I told my sister, also a practitioner, about the dream. She told me that Teacher had cleansed my body. Teacher is so benevolent! From then on, I became stronger and stronger. I could babysit my grandson and even do light work.
I studied the Fa whenever I had time. Teacher said:
"If you're coming here to learn the exercises, or the Great Law, with the goal of getting all kinds of things, then you won't learn anything. I'll tell you a truth: the whole process of cultivation is a process of constantly getting rid of human attachments." ("Truly Guiding People Up to High Levels" in "The First Talk," from Zhuan Falun, 2003 translation)
I remembered Teacher's words and studied the Fa diligently. I complied with Teacher's words. I also tried to do the moving exercises twice a day and the sitting exercise once at a park every day.
Two months later I started to eliminate karma. I experienced great pain in half of my head and body where I had the operation. I could not move and felt as if I was torn apart even when I breathed. I remembered that Teacher said:
"People have to suffer like that because they owe debts from doing bad things in the past, and if you heal them it's the same as violating the laws of the universe, it's the same as letting him do bad things and letting him not pay back what he owes, and that's not allowed." ("The Ability of Knowing Fate" in "The Second Talk," from Zhuan Falun, 2003 translation)
I knew this was eliminating karma to pay back my debts. I continued to study the Fa and do the exercises. I thought that I had a lot of karma and I must overcome this tribulation. I did not want to let Teacher endure the pain for me. I was in pain for seven days. When I awoke on the morning of the eighth day, I suddenly felt no more pain. My body was very relaxed, as if nothing had happened. I knew that Teacher had saved me again. I would not have been able to overcome this tribulation by myself without Teacher eliminating the karma for me. I was so grateful to Teacher. I said to myself that I would be a firm Dafa practitioner forever.
Another time I had so much pain in three discs of my spine that I could not move. I knew this was to eliminate karma again, but the symptom appeared as back pain. I said to myself, "I am a Dafa practitioner. I am afraid of nothing. I have Teacher and I have the Fa. If I cultivate Dafa and die, I will come back as Teacher's disciple again." The pain lasted for a month. One night I saw Teacher in my dream. He wore a suit and sat on a bed to cleanse a practitioner's body. I thought that Teacher was too busy so I did not want him to endure the pain for me. Then I heard Teacher calling my name and he then said, "Come here, please." Teacher held my hand. I felt a warm flow that went through my whole body. It was so comfortable. I was too excited to speak, and I just knelt in front of Teacher and kowtowed. I was crying and saying, "Thank you, Teacher, for saving me." Then I woke up. I tried to turn over, and I was able to do it with no pain at all. Teacher cleansed my body in my dream. I witnessed the miracles of Dafa and the benevolence and greatness of Teacher. I was in tears.
Using My Own Experience to Clarify the Truth and Valid Fa
The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started persecuting Dafa on July 20, 1999. I could not understand why it did this. On one occasion several dozen people attended a funeral for one of my relatives. At a dinner afterwards, I used my own experience to clarify the truth to them. I told them about the wonderfulness of Dafa, the reason for being a good person, and the miracles of illnesses disappearing and getting fit after someone practices Falun Gong. I told them that it was not wrong for practitioners to follow Teacher's request to live by the principles of "Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance." All my relatives knew that I had many illnesses before. Upon seeing that I was totally recovered after cultivating Dafa, many of them believed that Falun Dafa was good.
While I did not go to Beijing to validate the Fa, nor did I participate in any news-breaking activities, one thing I did was to use carbon paper to copy my own experiences to let people know that Falun Dafa was good. I also went out to distribute truth-clarification materials. Some practitioners were afraid at that time. Later Teacher told us to send forth the righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference, and I have done it every time.
Teacher's Benevolent Help and Protection Show Me That Dafa Is Miraculous
I had been doing the sitting exercise outside at midnight. One night, just as I went outside, I heard the music for the sitting exercise. I was very excited and wondered if some fellow practitioners were playing the music. Then I listened carefully and realized it was from another dimension. I realized that Teacher used it as a hint to encourage me to cultivate firmly.
I live in a remote village and normally go out to clarify the truth by myself. Sometimes I walk a long way at night, but I am never afraid. Each time I start sending forth the righteous thoughts as soon as I leave home. I also ask Teacher to strengthen me, and I have never run into any problems. I know that when clarifying the truth or distributing the truth-clarification materials, one needs to be righteous and firm.
Cultivating Oneself Well to Save Other People
When I first started to distribute copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and help people to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations, I was worried that people might not understand what I was saying. Later I realized that we need to continuously study the Fa, cultivate ourselves well, and eliminate fear and other bad notions. Only then can we raise up ourselves and save people.
Through Fa study my xinxing has elevated. Before each truth clarification trip, I first study the Fa. I have carefully studied every one of Teacher's Fa lectures and articles several times. This has made it much easier to help people to quit the CCP. When I am at home, I clarify the truth to my neighbors and friends. When I go out, I explain it to everyone I meet. So far, except for a few people that do not understand us, those I have talked to have understood the truth and quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
This is my cultivation experience. For ten years Teacher has held my hand to walk with me every step. I will do even better in the future. I will cultivate diligently with other fellow practitioners, and we will walk righteously on our cultivation paths.
December 6, 2007