Witness Master's Compassion and the Splendor of Dafa
My name is Zhang Chuanxian, and I'm 61 years old this year. I had the honor of obtaining Dafa a year ago. Recalling my cultivation path over the last year, I am excited and feel wonderful. I personally experienced the tremendous magnificence of Dafa. Dafa has brought me tremendous changes both physically and mentally. I would like to take the opportunity of this Fa Conference to share some experiences from my cultivation with fellow practitioners.
Dafa Changed Me and My Family
Before I obtained the Fa, just like many ordinary people, my physical body was aging, and illnesses appeared after I became a senior citizen. At that time, every joint in my body was stiff. I limped with every. People who did not know me and saw my posture would have thought that I was disabled. What was even more serious was that after I turned 50, I suddenly found myself having serious heart problems. I required an oxygen cylinder by my side at all times.
After I started to practice Falun Dafa, I underwent tremendous changes in my physical and mental health. My heart symptoms disappeared and I no longer needed an oxygen cylinder. All of my sickness went away without even taking any medicine. I could do laundry, cook, and care for two children. I could do chores from morning to night and did not feel tired. Everything about me changed for the better. Even my son-in-law (a Westerner) said, "After my mother-in-law started to practice Falun Gong, both her physical and mental health greatly improved and she is glowing with good health."
Now, whenever I see slow moving, exhausted senior citizens, I think that if it were not for Master and Dafa, I would be one of them.
In the past, I was a quick and hot-tempered person. I used to go to extremes in handling problems, and I was very stubborn and attached. I could not handle family relationships, children, and social relations well. I always thought to myself that I had good intentions. What I had done was for the good of others. Why didn't anyone understand me? I complained that my good intentions were not rewarded. I complained that my children did not love me. I complained about my husband's resentments and ungratefulness. I also complained about the greed of my friends and colleagues. In a word, I always felt in my heart that life was unfair, and I could not sleep or eat well.
After I studied the Fa, I realized that all these things were predestined. I might owe debts to others. After I understood the Fa, my heart suddenly saw the light and I was no longer hassled by success or failure. I felt that everyone was lovable and everything was beautiful. My life was henceforth filled with sunlight every day. I completely changed to another person. Because of the changes within, all the things that were twisted in the past were resolved.
When my son encountered problems at work, I would use the Fa to inspire him and guide him. The relationship between mother and son improved. It was very harmonious. We also would often have heart-to-heart conversations. My son tells everyone that after his mother started to practice Falun Gong, not only her physical well-being but her temperament changed for the better as well.
Another time, my daughter and my son-in-law had some conflicts. I used Master's Fa regarding searching within to help her find the source of her problems. The knot in her heart was immediately untied and her marital relationship became harmonious again. She said, "Mother, I felt at ease after I talked with you." Later, she was also willing to talk to me about work or other related problems.
I told her this wisdom was all given to me by Dafa. I said, "During the past, I wanted to show you, however, I did not know how to teach you. Now, with Master's Fa, I can help you to solve problems easily."
My son-in-law also noticed the changes in me after my cultivation. He said to my daughter that, before, I watched TV all night long (because of insomnia). Now, every night I study the Fa and do the exercises and my face glows with health. After they saw the tremendous changes that I experienced after I started cultivating, they praised Falun Gong to my in-laws. They also introduced Falun Gong to their friends. Later, both of them came to learn Falun Gong.
Master's Compassion Helps Me Let Go of Attachments
Once a tenant broke the wash basin in our bathroom during his stay. I was quite angry about the damage and determined to make him pay for it. I asked him to pay for the damages, otherwise I would inform the company he was working for about it. After he knew how I felt, he thought about resigning from the company in order to avoid the payment. My son said to me that if he resigned due to the pressure I put on him, his manager might not find someone else to replace him and that would affect his business. My son also suggested that he would pay for the tenant's damage to assuage my anger. However, I was so annoyed by his behavior that I insisted on getting the money from him by calling his manager. I still thought I was justified because you have to compensate for any damage you cause other people.
Soon after this, I became sick with a cough and could hardly talk. I thought it was sickness karma, and did not realize that my lack of compassion had been exposed by this test and it was time for me to improve myself, until I read in Zhuan Falun: "Once you rise slightly higher above the level of everyday people, however, you will find that the principles at this level, as understood by everyday people, are usually wrong." (English version 2000) I looked inward and realized what I had done wrong. Shortly after this I recovered from my illness.
On another occasion, I dreamed that an aggressive person was attempting to hurt me. I was so scared that I woke up. At that moment I felt Falun was rotating very quickly near my lower abdomen, lasting for more than a minute. I immediately realized that the person was coming for the debt I might owe him, and it was Master that protected me. I am very grateful for Master's protection.
Another time, I used a belt to keep my feet in the correct position when doing the fifth exercise in the lotus position. After the exercise, my left ankle was very painful, as if it had been twisted. I thought this was caused by my karma but could not understand why it lasted for so long. When I read Zhuan Falun, the following paragraph appeared before me:
"In qigong practice, those of you whose qi cannot go through a pass or come down should look for reasons within your xinxing to determine if you are stuck at that level for too long and whether you should upgrade your xinxing!" (English version 2000)
I realized that Master was giving me hint to improve my xinxing. When I looked into myself carefully, I realized there was a tendency to show-off, compare and compete in my seemingly diligent state. I actually felt my lotus position was not as good as other practitioners' and was keen to catch up with them but not with very pure diligence. Isn't this another attachment?
Master told us that cultivation teaches inaction, and that the inaction includes the Fa principle of doing things naturally without pursuit. Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"A practitioner believes he should only focus on practicing, without paying attention to obtaining gong. In cultivation and practice one should be in a state free of intention. As long as you focus on cultivating your xinxing, you will make breakthroughs in your level and certainly get things you deserve. If you cannot give something up, isn't it an attachment?" (English version 2000, Lecture 2)
I also understood from this experience that I need to guard every thought and action in my cultivation, and let go of the attachment of pursuit. My pain soon dissipated after I found my attachment.
I am blessed with the Fa and have achieved a healthier body in that I can do more things than before and can help my daughter with her housework. I can also help my family members to keep their minds open. I do not worry about being a senior citizen, and feel very happy to have obtained the Fa. I am grateful for Master's salvation. If it were not for Master's compassionate salvation, I couldn't be where I am today.
Endeavor to do Three Things Well
I am a pretty new practitioner and feel honored to be able to practice Falun Gong at the last stage of Fa rectification. When I just started my cultivation, I always thought that I was a new practitioner, and although there were so many books and lectures I needed to read, I also had to look after my grandchildren, I did not take the three things very seriously. However, I was awakened when I read Master's "Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference." Master said:
"However, it won't be that just because you have entered [Dafa] only recently the standard of cultivation will be lowered for you. So in cultivation you must try hard to do the three things that Dafa disciples should do well, and at the same time save sentient beings and fulfill the roles that Dafa disciples should." (English translation from Clearwisdom.net)
In one of Master's writings, he said that those who only want to benefit from Dafa but do not validate the Fa are very bad beings in Gods' eyes. I suddenly understood that I really should do the three things well and participate in more activities to let more people know about the persecution.
With the progress of Fa-rectification, I have felt Master's great compassion and that Master does not want to miss even one disciple. I discovered that when I could do three things well, I actually also improved myself more in my personal cultivation.
Once I happened to read Master's article "A Suggestion:" "These people who only want to take from Dafa and not give for Dafa are, in the eyes of Gods, the worst beings." (Essentials for Further Advancement II, English translation from Clearwisdom.net) I suddenly realized that Master was revealing the truth to me. I changed my notion that doing the three things was only something for veteran practitioners to do, and I actively devoted myself to clarifying the truth and saving sentient beings.
During the process of truth-clarification, I can see the great compassion in my fellow practitioners when I see how calm and respectful they are even when they are being wronged or misunderstood by certain Chinese people who have been poisoned by the lies spread by the Chinese Communist Party. They can remain calm with enormous patience to sincerely clarify the truth to those people to help them understand the truth. I also feel really sorry for those poisoned Chinese people that have lost themselves in the CCP culture. Some are even grateful to the evil that persecuted their family members or even themselves. This also reminds me that I can see this only because I have obtained the Fa and been purified by Dafa and Master. Otherwise, I probably would have held onto the same CCP culture, separated from my true self. It is therefore so important for me to help other Chinese people to wake up.
I understand that I need to let go of more attachments during my cultivation. I will study the Fa more frequently and keep doing the three things with more diligence.
I am glad to share my experience with you today. Any comments and suggestions would be appreciated.