The Wonders of Dafa Manifest In Me
(Clearwisdom.net) I am a sixty-year-old senior practitioner. I started practicing Falun Gong in 1998. Before I practiced Falun Gong, I suffered from various illnesses: aches and pains in the legs, rheumatism, osteophytosis, high blood pressure, problems with my heart, kidneys, and cervical vertebrae, gynecological disorders, cystitis, nosebleed, tuberculosis and protruded lumbar vertebral discs. All the medical treatments I had for many years were to no avail. As time went by, I could no longer take care of myself, and became a burden to my family.
After I started practicing Falun Gong, I learned that all my illnesses were caused by my karma. In my cultivation, I follow Teachers words and follow the principles of "Truth, Compassion, Forbearance". I became much improved and was purified both mentally and physically, and a miracle happened all my illnesses went into remission. Teacher gave me all of this. As long as our xinxing improves, Teacher will help us with anything.
Jiangs regime began the brutal persecution of Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. Even under those circumstances, I still firmly believed in Teacher and Dafa. I always told myself that there was nothing wrong with following Teacher. I had a dream. In my dream I stood on a stage alone. The stage looked like the kind of stage made of mud often seen in rural areas. There was only a worn out desk and I was standing on the stage alone. It was dark. I looked down and saw many people sitting there. I could not see what they looked like. Next day I discussed my dream with another practitioner. I asked him whether it was Teacher giving me hints to clarify the truth, and that the the people in the audience were those who came to hear the truth. My fellow practitioner agreed with me.
Since then I clarify the truth to everyone I come across. All people in my village and my relatives and friends know that my diseases were cured through practicing Falun Gong. Because I needed to take care of my grandchildren during the day, I made truth-clarification materials at night when the children were sleeping. I took them with me to the market. I would push the stroller to the place where they were selling clothes and put the truth materials there. Everything went smoothly. I kept one thought: that this was God saving sentient beings and others could not see it.
Since I have practiced many years, I should be in the state of "the closer to the end, the more diligent I should be." However, in the past several months, I have not done the three things well and have developed complacency. I also have not completely rid myself of the attachment of fear. The old forces exploited this loophole while I was distributing materials. The authorities found out that it was me who put the materials there from their camera surveillance records. Fellow practitioners and I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts, and nothing bad came of the incident.
In the hottest month last year, the old forces exploited my loopholes again. One of my eyes suddenly became inflamed. I did not take it seriously and went to distribute materials as usual. Later I thought it might not be a good idea because people would ask me what happened to my eye, so I asked other practitioners to do it instead. Four or five days later, both of my eyes became red, swollen and infected. They started to discharge bloody exudate and were so swollen that I could not open my eyes.
My eyes hurt a lot for two weeks, but I was not afraid, remembering Teachers words. During the worst days, I thought to myself that the old forces did not want me to study the Fa, but that I would persist regardless. I held the book Zhuan Falun with both hands and said to Teacher: "I shall see the words clearly." It turned out I could see the words especially clearly, even more clearly than I can now.
Why did I have such tribulation? I looked within and found out it was my attachment to qing. My little granddaughter lived with me. Her parents work in other cities. I was always afraid that she could get ill. But isn't this fear an attachment? So she got ill frequently. I could not let go of this notion and gave her medicine and took her to the hospital. Because of this, I was busy all day and did not have enough time to study the Fa. Consequently, the old forces took advantage of this loophole. Its purpose is to destroy practitioners that they consider unqualified. Teacher said,
"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive out interference")
I once again witnessed the wonders of Dafa. If we enhance our righteous thoughts and truly believe in Teacher and Dafa, it will be like Teacher said,
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, master has the power to turn back the tide." (From article "The master-disciple bond")