After 12 Years of Searching, I Finally Obtained the Fa When the Time Came
(Clearwisdom.net) I have practiced many schools of qigong in order to seek the genuine great way of cultivation practice. Teacher has been imparting Falun Dafa (or Falun Gong) for over a decade since 1992, but I kept letting opportunities to obtain the Fa pass me by. I regret letting12 years of time slip through my fingers. I have experienced many phenomena that Teacher has explained in Zhuan Falun. For example, when I practiced a school of qigong, I used to enter a trance where my main spirit fell asleep and my assistant spirit exited my body for many days. I used to pursue the ability to treat other peoples illness and, as a result, ruined my own health to the extent that I had a sickly, dark complexion. Were it not for the protection of compassionate Teacher, I would have been done for.
In the spring of 1993, I met a Falun Gong practitioner in my hometown, but we didnt talk much. This was the first time I missed the opportunity to obtain the Fa. In the lunar New Year of 1996, I went visiting my cousin and saw his collection of Falun Gong books. I couldnt bring myself to borrow books from him, so I missed the opportunity to obtain the Fa for the second time. In the spring of 1999, I made a living collecting usable items from the garbage. I had seen many Falun Gong practitioners practicing Falun Gong exercises together as a group outdoors and I had read Falun Gongs introduction flyer carefully. I was motivated to learn Falun Gong, but I was embarrassed by my poverty and my filthy appearance as a lowly garbage man. I thought, "I am not worth learning Falun Gong." Once again, I missed the opportunity to practice Falun Gong.
Soon it was the spring of 2002. At the time, China was infested with the Chinese medias hate propaganda against Falun Gong. While I started to suspect whether any of the accusations were true, I had become increasingly interested in Falun Gong. One day after just arriving at a small district, I saw a girl who collected garbage opening up a plastic bag and revealing a copy of Zhuan Falun, a copy of Essentials for Further Advancement and several other Falun Gong books. I was ecstatic at my discovery. I immediately asked the girl, "How much are you willing to give me these books for?" I gave her every penny I had earned that morning. More and more people came and surrounded us. They were astonished at my new possession. They asked, "These books are now banned by the government. How dare you buy these books?" I replied, "I am interested in their contents. Whats wrong with satisfying my curiosity?"
I read them through a few times and my mind and body responded very strongly. I felt numerous Falun rotating all over my body, adjusting my health for the better. These books completely cleared my mind in an unprecedented way. I had a lot of doubts about the Chinese Communist Partys (CCP) accusations about Falun Gong to start with. Now that I had read Falun Gongs books, it was crystal clear to me that the CCP has been telling falsehoods.
At that time I was getting ready to treat peoples illness with qigong. I had even prepared all the materials for my clinic. After I obtained the Fa, I burned all those materials. I was certain Teachers fashen was giving me a hint to abort my qigong clinic. Otherwise, how could I have been so lucky to obtain Falun Gong books? Because I taught myself to practice Falun Gong exercises, I didnt do them correctly. I did not know how to find any fellow Falun Gong practitioner or to obtain any Falun Gong truth-clarification materials. I once saw the formula to send forth righteous thoughts on a street wall in a small district, but I didnt know how to use the formula, so I repeatedly chanted the formula.
In 2005, I traveled to southern China for a part-time job. Thanks to Teachers compassionate arrangement, I managed to contact fellow practitioners in southern China. Owing to their selfless assistance, I started to practice Falun Gong officially. Many thoughts crossed my mind while doing the exercises. It was truly difficult to obtain the Fa.
Each time I practiced Falun Gong exercises, my face was flooded with tears because I was enlightened to the profoundness and intricacy of Falun Dafa. As I understand more and more about Teachers Fa, it is increasingly clear to me how magnificent and respectful our Teacher is. I am extremely lucky.
Nevertheless, I have a very limited understanding of the Fa. The only way to keep enhancing my understanding of the Fa is to continue listening to the Fa and studying the Fa repeatedly. I often feel sleepy and my eyes feel dry when I start studying the Fa. But after about ten minutes, I enter a good state. The more I study, the more energetic I feel. I often forget about time when I study. Sometimes I even see numerous golden Falun shooting into my head. The vision boosted my faith in the Fa. I would went through karma-elimination from time to time. Within one day, I felt my head swelling or aching a few times. When I experienced the symptoms of influenza or coughing, they would disappear in a day or two.
When I first started to send forth righteous thoughts, I thought, "Can I do it?" I saw a lot of sparks shooting across the air, as well as bigger dark sparks. I had no choice but to try my best in sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate these bad things. At first, I didnt do it well. In order to prevent myself from dozing off, I sent forth righteous thoughts standing up. Sometimes the palm in front of my chest became tilted. Sometimes my lotus hand sign became a closed lotus. Sometimes I felt a strong force of energy attacking me. Nowadays I am better at it. I feel as though I am sitting in mid-air, overlooking those evil spirits and rotten demons. I feel refreshed and pure in the head and no longer feel any force of energy attacking me.
I am trying hard to clarify the truth to save sentient beings. Things are starting to improve. I am participating in such a magnificent task as Teachers Fa-rectification. Regardless of whether I have signed any pact with the old forces, I must cherish this once-in-an-eternity opportunity, walk a righteous path, do the Three Things well, and completely deny the old force arrangements. Only when I walk on the path Teacher has arranged for me and be diligent in my cultivation practice will I be able to reach Consummation.