My Indifference and the World's People's Indifference
The purpose of this article is to share my understanding with fellow practitioners, and in the process, eliminate interference so that we can become diligent, end our indifference and save more sentient beings.
Some people felt the CCP's actions were despicable, yet others were indifferent when I exposed the practice of live organ harvesting from Falun Gong practitioners in China's prisons, labor camps, and concentration camps. Some didn't believe it at all. Even the ones who thought it despicable were fairly indifferent.
Dafa practitioners have spent an enormous amount of time, energy and money over the last few years to awaken the conscience of the world's people and save sentient beings. Many Dafa practitioners lost their lives in the process of clarifying the truth. Then why do the world's people act so indifferently when Dafa practitioners clarify the facts to them? Of course it has to with the CCP's evil control and it's degeneration of public morality. However, I think it also has something to do with Dafa practitioners' own indifference. When I look inside myself, I feel that I am also somewhat indifferent.
For example, when I learned from fellow practitioners about the organ harvesting happening at the prisons, labor camps, and concentration camps-although I was upset, I felt mostly helpless. Since I felt there was not much I could do, I just sent forth righteous thoughts. I did not take the initiative to expose the evil, but was waiting and relying on others to provide me with materials before I took any action. I also failed to spread the truth widely. It was almost three weeks after the organ harvesting was exposed that we began to broadly clarify the facts about it. I think one of the reasons was that the fellow practitioners were indifferent, just like I was.
Actually, I demonstrate indifference to many things. Although I am doing the three things, I am not doing everything with full attention and commitment. I sometimes feel that since I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, I have to do the three things, and then somehow they became a daily routine for me. I am not able to study the Fa with a calm mind. As to doing the exercises, on busy days I skip them, and sometimes when I am tired I don't do the whole set. I don't do all of the exercises every day. On sending righteous thoughts, I am much worse than a few years ago. When Jiang Zemin traveled outside China a few years ago, I was able to send righteous thoughts every hour on the hour, no matter how sleepy I was. Now I cannot even wake up to keep up with the four times daily global sending forth righteous thoughts. Sometimes, even when I wake up, my mind is not clear. During the day, I don't send righteous thoughts on the hour, either. Instead I only send righteous thoughts at noon, 6 p.m., and midnight. When sending forth righteous thoughts, my mind is often not calm. I am also less willing to talk to others to spread the facts. I feel as though all those who I can clarify the truth to, I have told. For those who still don't understand, I have run out of things to say to save them. On the issue of rescuing abducted fellow practitioners, in the beginning I was very diligent in sending righteous thoughts, but after a few days, my enthusiasm dissipated. My effort to rescue the practitioners in labor camps lasted even less time. Also, I tried to help the practitioners who have lagged behind. Although I've put in quite a bit of time and energy on it in the last few years, all of them failed to become diligent, and I felt frustrated and out of steam. I thought I had tried my best and felt hopeless. Actually, I think the cultivation status of those who have lagged behind in cultivation is also a kind of indifference.
In "Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.," Teacher said,
"As I've said, everything that happens today in the ordinary society is the result of Dafa disciples' thoughts."
As a Dafa practitioner, I have displayed such indifference and helplessness in my cultivation. Then for people who have been brainwashed by the evil party for so many years, wouldn't our indifference influence them? I think there are three main causes of my indifference: one, I do not have complete faith in Teacher and the Fa; two, I am attached to time in the Fa-rectification; and three, I have the habit of starting with enthusiasm and fading to numbness, which was formed by the "CCP culture" of political campaigns.
In "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be," Teacher said,
"And yet a small number of students--veteran students, even--have to differing degrees exhibited a despondent state and slackened in their resolve to be diligent. They haven't realized that this is an attachment to the duration of Fa-rectification, or is caused by interference from incorrect, acquired notions, which results in their gaps being exploited by interfering factors that the old forces left behind early on in the surface of the human dimension, wicked specters, or rotten demons--things that have magnified and strengthened those attachments and human notions--all of which has brought about this despondent state."
My understanding is that only when we recognize the root of our indifference and its effect on Fa-rectification and saving sentient beings can we become more diligent towards the end, keep up with the Fa-rectification, and save more people.
Written on May 24, 2006