Making Up for Lost Time by Advancing Diligently Without Letting Up
(Clearwisdom.net) I was fortunate to start practicing Falun Dafa in May 1995. At that time I was suffering from many illnesses and my mind was extremely tormented. After practicing Falun Dafa, all of my illnesses disappeared and I became full of energy. Just thinking about group Fa study and group exercise practice during that time brings back an indescribable joy.
After July 20, 1999 when the persecution started, I was devastated. On every holiday, my brother and his wife would come to my home with many presents. On the surface they came to spend some time with the family, but in fact they came to watch me and keep me from studying the Fa and practicing the exercises, fearing that I would be arrested. Due to my attachment to emotions, I didn't study the Fa enough and slacked off in practicing cultivation, thinking that I would resume practicing as soon as the Party saw their error and lifted its ban. This cost me two years, two years of missed opportunities to join the Falun Dafa practitioners who were clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings. During these two years I did nothing and almost stopped practicing cultivation altogether. My cultivation state created a loophole for the evil to take advantage of, and all my old illnesses returned. In particular, I could not get rid of a cold for over a month, and I couldn't stop coughing. When I was about to go to the hospital to receive an IV injection, I suddenly understood that cultivators do not get sick. From that day on, which was in late 2001, I came back to Dafa once again. I again started studying the Fa and practicing the exercises every day. As a result, I haven't had any "sickness" since then, and have not taken a single pill. I did not even get the most common headache or cough. I made up my mind to make up for the lost time, step forward to validate Dafa and clarify the truth to world's people.
Eliminating the Attachment of Fear and Helping Former Practitioners to Resume Cultivation
One day on my way to my sister's I clarified the truth in the train. After I clarified the truth to a woman I saw tears in her eyes. She told me she used to be a Falun Dafa practitioner too, but the police in her township were very evil. They often ransack practitioners' homes. They took away all her Dafa books and Teacher's lecture tapes. Later, two practitioners from another area went to their local area and were getting ready to share experiences with them, but even before everyone arrived, because someone had reported it, the police showed up. They took the two practitioners away and fined the others. From then on, no one in her area dared to continue the practice. I told her I would make sure to send her the books and tapes.
I had forgotten to ask her name although I did get her address. I was determined to help practitioners there come back to practice cultivation in Dafa, so I discussed it with the practitioners in my area and decided to deliver the books and tapes in person. The night before I sent forth righteous thoughts constantly and other practitioners did the same for me too. Before I set off a fellow practitioner said, "Taking a taxi is safer after all." I thought, "Spending 80 yuan on a taxi is too luxurious. I'd rather spend that money making truth-clarification materials, which can rescue many sentient beings." I took two bags of Dafa materials, books, Teacher's new articles and exercise instruction CDs to the train station by myself. In the train station, just like my fellow practitioners had told me, there were two controls. At the second control where tickets were checked stood two policemen. I thought, "I am a Falun Dafa practitioner and I'm doing the most righteous thing in the world - rescuing sentient beings. I will not allow you to check my bags." I told the policemen, "I'm so busy. I have lots of stuff in my bags. Don't bother to look at them." One policeman smiled at me and said, "OK, just go." I had a deeper understanding afterwards that one must have a peaceful mindset while doing Fa rectification deeds, with a heart of rescuing the world's people, and Teacher will arrange everything for you. How could it otherwise be possible to find someone in a new place without knowing her name all by myself? It was Teacher's arrangement. It turned out that not only did I find her, but I also convinced her to take all the materials I had brought to her. Even though she was initially very scared, after I talked with her for more than two hours she calmed down and said, "I will call all my fellow practitioners in this area and we will study Teacher's new articles and continue to practice cultivation!"
Let Go of All Human Notions to Save the World's People
On normal days, I followed Teacher's requirement and did the three things conscientiously. I was tailed many times when I was distributing truth-clarification materials, but as soon as it happened I had a thought, "I am a Falun Dafa practitioner rescuing sentient beings." Then the follower would stop and leave. One day I went to a village about twenty miles away to distribute truth-clarification materials. I was unfamiliar with the roads there, and it was dark when I finished. On my way back, a person on bicycle blocked my way without saying a word. In the moonlight I could tell it was a young man in his twenties. I thought, "I am rescuing sentient beings. Can you stop me from that?" As soon as this thought came out, he let me go. Later I regretted that I forgot to clarify the truth to him.
I went to a township last summer to clarify the truth. One day I clarified the truth to a group of construction workers. I told them about how Falun Gong could heal illness, the benefit of practicing Falun Gong, the staged "Self-immolation" on Tiananmen Square, the lawsuits against Jiang Zemin as well as other high-ranking officials, and Falun Gong being spread to more than 70 countries throughout the world. One worker said, "You are so brave. We dare not listen any more. Please, leave quickly. There used to be several people practicing Falun Gong here, but all of them were arrested. Who dares to listen to the truth or practice it anymore? Two people who live back there even stopped practicing." I asked him, "Do you have their names?" He refused to tell me. I thought, "I'm Teacher's disciple. Since I'm allowed to know this matter it must be Teacher's arrangement to send me to find them." I went into the village to clarify the truth. Indeed, Teacher helped me find the two former practitioners. I talked with them for a long time. In the end they said happily, "We are so grateful to our esteemed Teacher for sending you here." When I heard they didn't have the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, I took another trip there and gave them the book.
Later it occurred to me that the evil in that township was rampant, but "Evil cannot subdue the righteousness." In broad daylight I posted Dafa's messages on both sides of all the streets and roads in the town. It took me about two hours. Afterwards I sat and rested by the road, watching many police cars going back and forth with sirens. I knew it was the evil making a false show of strength because in fact it was scared to death!
Breaking Through Obstacles to Save Sentient Beings
For several years I've been trying my best to do Dafa work well. Whether it was daylight or nighttime, by myself or with others, as long as I had time, I did the three things that Teacher requires us to do. Some people say I was born gutsy, and some people tell me that I am too radical and that I come and go too frequently (to clarify the truth). They told me people living thirty miles away know my name and that I should be more careful. I looked inside repeatedly, "Was I scared while clarifying the truth? Was I irrational?" I didn't understand it correctly and thought, "OK, I'll go out less." Gradually I slacked off. Then the evil old forces' interference and damage came. One of my relatives told me someone had followed me for a long time. One particular night I went out, but luckily didn't go to practitioner A's home. Since the police had been waiting, had I gone, as soon as all of us showed up there they would have arrested us. I thanked Teacher wholeheartedly. Two nights later I had decided to go to practitioner A's home, which is the practice site. But as soon as I arrived at the intersection something else occurred to me and I didn't go. Was this not Teacher's ingenious arrangement?
Someone told my boss that I was practicing Falun Gong, and someone even posted his/her letter at the entrance to my workplace to let everyone at our workplace know about my practicing Falun Gong. Many people saw it. So my bosses and the Party secretary took turns to talk to me. The Party secretary's first words were, "Can you (practitioners) not gather together?" I had been looking for opportunities to clarify the truth to him face to face, as I heard he was against Dafa and Dafa practitioners. This time I grasped the opportunity and clarified the truth to him. I did the same to other bosses, so they all understood the truth thoroughly. My boss burned the letter in front of me. I was so happy, happy that they were saved.
I passed the message about someone following me to my fellow practitioners and asked them to keep the truth-clarification materials safe. I also organized my materials well and set off again. Because I was distributing the materials in the daylight, inevitably some people could see me. When someone stared at me I would nod and smile at them. And they would nod and smile at me in return. When I arrived at a village, two children followed me through that village and all the way to the end of the next village, and helped me to better position the materials that I had distributed. Here, people's kindness and awakening seemed to indicate the quick arrival of the Fa's rectifying the human world. In the meantime I also came to understand that only when one advances diligently, more and more can he/she be worthy of the title Fa-rectification Dafa Disciple. But if one slacks off this will create a loophole for the old forces to take advantage of.
To conclude my sharing, I would like to thank our esteemed Teacher for having given me the wonders of a light body without any illness, the title of Dafa disciple and the glory of rescuing sentient beings. My gratitude is too deep to describe in words!