From Being Confused to Stepping Forward and Firmly Validating Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1999. Within three months, the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the persecution. At that time I didn't understand the Fa very well. The TV and radio kept attacking and slandering Dafa and spreading lies. Even so, I could feel the Falun that Master gave me rotate every day. All my diseases were gone. I just could not understand why the Party would be against such a good practice.
At that time, my daughter, who works in the county, came back and told me that she had a neighbor who was practicing Falun Gong, and asked me to share my experiences with her. So I contacted that practitioner. We both believed that we could not keep silent. I wanted to assist Master in rectifying the Fa. I knew we needed to recover Master's and Dafa's good names.
Even saying this, I was still fearful. My husband was a government official. When I was sick, it was he who told me that Falun Dafa was great and borrowed the book, Zhuan Falun for me to learn. Now, Jiang Zemin attacked Dafa, and my husband was also afraid. What should we do? So I decided to study the Fa more.
Master wrote in "Rationality" in Essentials for Further Advancement II,
"...as those who attack goodness are bound to be evil. The actions they are now adopting in the persecution of Dafa and its students are extremely evil and shameful, and they fear these will be exposed. You must let the world's people know about their evilness--this is saving people, as well. While eliminating the evil, you consummate yourselves and strengthen the Fa's manifestation in the world."
Master also said in "A Message" in Essentials for Further Advancement II,
"Clarifying the truth, at the same time as exposing the evil, restrains the evil and lessens the persecution; and exposing the evil is at the same time purging from people's minds the poison of the evil's lies and deception--it is saving people. This is the grandest mercy."
So I could not keep still any longer. I thought: Even though I dare not tell the facts to other people, why could I not tell my family and friends? So I clarified the truth at my relatives and friends' homes, and later I clarified the truth to the whole village. I even found opportunities to clarify the truth to those relatives or friends of my relatives and friends. They all said I gained weight and looked younger because of my practice of Falun Gong. With that opportunity, I started to talk about how Jiang Zemin's regime persecuted Falun Gong, and I clarified the truth. I told them that my Master taught me to be a good person, and behave according to Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance, and that it is not wrong to do so. Subsequently they all understood what was going on and said that they were not against Falun Dafa. Finally, I told them to remember, "Falun Dafa is great. Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance are good." Through constant experience sharing, studying the Fa, practicing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts, I realized that just talking to people face to face was limited.
I then acquired truth-clarifying materials to distribute. At first I was still a little afraid. I could not distribute them during the day, and it was dark during the night. I went out by myself and was a little afraid. Later, I enlightened that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, and that Master will protect us, so what was I afraid of? At this time, Master's Fa showed in front of me,
"Now you can see why I've often told you to read the book more, right?! The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
"Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos's Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciples' rock-solid, Diamond-Like Bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings' thoughts disintegrate. However strong the righteous thoughts are, that's how great the power is." ("Also in a few Words" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
So I started to distribute materials outside my village. It was dark, the road in the countryside was not too good, and this was the first time I went out. While I was walking, for no reason I stopped and sat down on the ground. When I turned on the flashlight, I found that with one more step I would have fallen into a big hole in the ground. It was Master who protected me! I thought that if I still didn't do well, I would really regret not trying to repay Master's compassionate help! Therefore my spirits rose. The more I did in my truth clarification efforts, the braver and more rational I felt. The next morning when I got up to make breakfast, I heard someone say, "Every one of us received a red package at our doors." The head of the village came by and said, "These were sent from the heavenly soldiers and generals, and we should read them carefully." After I heard his words, I went to his home to clarify the truth that same night. He said, "You can let whoever is sick practice." Therefore, many people in my village learned Falun Gong from me. They personally felt and experienced the wonder of Falun Dafa.
I clarified the truth of quitting the Chinese Communist Party and its related organizations to eliminate the evil party's culture, family by family. Most of them have quit the CCP. Most people have accepted the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and "The Real Story of China's Jiang Zemin." Eventually, however, my show-off mentality and attachment of zealotry came up, but I didn't realize it. I thus let the evil take advantage of my attachments.
One day I was about to talk about quitting the Chinese Communist Party at the village head's home, when he said, "You must be careful. There's a command from above. Some people want to monitor you. If they really do, you'll be in big trouble. Your house and personal property will be confiscated, your grandson will even be expelled from school. Your husband's work, property, and savings will all be gone. You won't have anything then." At that time I immediately felt bad, and I felt worse when I returned home. I wondered, what have I done wrong? How can the evil take such advantage of me?
I thought and thought, and then realized it was still my show-off mentality and attachment of zealotry. I was proud because I led the whole village to quit the CCP and its related organizations. I thought that I had done everything that I should do. I had done it all. I did very well. I even thought that some practitioners didn't do as well as I. Therefore the evil dared to threaten me. When I thought of this, I remembered what Master said,
"They'll try to take advantage of your gaps, and when you're just a little bit off they'll seize the opportunity. So when your righteous thoughts are very strong they can't take advantage of you, and this is because in Fa-rectification Dafa doesn't acknowledge the old forces' arrangements, and I, as your Master, don't acknowledge them either. Of course, each one of our Dafa disciples says that we don't recognize the old forces' arrangements, but that's not something you just say--you have to follow the requirements of Dafa and the Fa-rectification. "I absolutely will not acknowledge any of those things you arranged in the past, old forces. I don't even acknowledge you." When your righteous thoughts are very strong you can purge it and you can reject their arrangements. And that's because we absolutely cannot acknowledge them." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.")
Therefore I strengthened my Fa study, exercise practice, and sending forth righteous with my husband. I asked for help from Master. When I talked about quitting the CCP at the village head's home again, he nodded in agreement. Again I experienced the truth that as long as we do things according to Master's requirements, it cannot be wrong.