Faith in Master and the Fa is the Key to Overcoming Tribulations
(Clearwisdom.net) On the night of February 20, 2006, factory security officials and a few secret police officers came to pick me up. I was illegally arrested and taken to the office of the State Security Bureau. My computer, five printers, several copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and two or three thousand yuan in cash were confiscated.
I calmed my mind after I arrived at their office and began to consider why I had been arrested. "It must be due to the gaps I have," I thought. "The evil is exploiting them." I found many human attachments in me, including the attachment to doing things. Among classmates, we "...are privately becoming like buddies and pals--'we do things together, we're a little group'--and they often talk about a bunch of useless things, wasting large amounts of time." (Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference) At times I'd play games on my computer and read everyday people's books, but I was involved in important Dafa work, so of course the evil took advantage of my lapses.
I thought dimly at the time, "Well, I'm done for. I wonder how many years I'll get." Then I changed my mind. "That's not right. I am a Dafa disciple. I may have gaps, but the evil is not worthy of testing me. I can get rid of my attachments in Dafa cultivation and redress myself." So I said to Master in my heart, "Master, although I haven't done well, I'll cultivate myself in the Fa. The evil is not eligible to test me. I'm determined to reject the arrangements by the old forces." With those thoughts, I rejected the thought of receiving a jail sentence or being detained by the evil.
While doing this, I truly sensed my ability to choose between esteemed Master's arrangement and that of the old forces. When I had insufficient righteous thoughts and my human mind prevailed, I'd follow the path of the old forces' arrangements. The old forces' arrangements can't be rejected by human minds. It takes the righteous thoughts that a practitioner develops during cultivation in Dafa, and depends on whether one has faith in Master and the Fa at the crucial moment. For instance, I had an attachment to family love. Then the police said, "You are making truth-clarification materials at home. If your mother sees it, ands doesn't report it to the police, she can be sentenced, too, for protecting you." But when I put aside that human heart, the police abruptly changed subjects. When I had an attachment to money, the police threatened, "The evidence we found in your home reveals the amount used to buy printers doesn't add up to the withdrawals from your bank account (because I used the money fellow practitioners sent me). If you don't tell us where the money came from, we'll confiscate your home and sell it." When I was afraid of receiving a prison term and was attached to getting out, they said to me, "You may get five years in prison. We'll let you go if you tell us all you've done." But when I got rid of these human thoughts, the police suddenly stopped asking these questions.
"But as cultivation is lived out, when the suffering bears down on you and conflicts come up that hit upon the deepest part of you--and especially when it rattles the rigid notions you have--the test is really hard to pass. It can even be to the point that you know full well it's a test but still can't let go of your attachments. What's more, Dafa disciples are cultivating in this "real" world that brims with temptation, so it becomes even more difficult--and even more important--to change those notions." (The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be)
On the first day of my arrest, I didn't maintain sufficient righteous thoughts, and human ideas raced through my mind. As a result, I told them some of the things I did and consequently the evil seized on a pretext to persecute me. Later, I repeatedly recited in my mind, "The Fa rectifies heaven and earth, eliminating all evils!" As the righteous thoughts grew, the human ones started receding. Subsequently the police had fewer and fewer questions. Finally the police asked, "Listen, can you promise that you won't spread the truth about Falun Dafa again when you get out of here. If you can, we'll let you go; otherwise, we'll send you to jail!"
At this very moment, Master's words flashed into my head,
"...with its sick mind, it keeps forcing students to write so-called "repentance statements" and to sign its stuff. It knows very well that that's all fake and can't change people's hearts, so why does it insist on doing that? Why does it insist on having you sign that paper? Why does it insist on having you say, "I'll stop practicing" before releasing you? One person says "I'll keep practicing," and they slap him with a sentence; another one says "I'll stop practicing," and just for this they set him free. The difference between these is unbelievable, isn't it? Is this normal? It's not. Isn't that obvious? They just want to make you fall, they just want to make you say those words. Once those words are said, even if they're not from your heart, it leaves a stain. For a Fa-rectification disciple, that's a disgrace."(Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Fa Conference)
I replied, "What's the point of your asking me this question? I could promise now that I won't do it again, but a person's mind is changing and unsteady. Can you guarantee that I won't clarify the truth to the public when I go back home?" Speechless, they held me handcuffed at the office of the Bureau of State Security for half a day before letting my mother pick me up.
Through this tribulation I felt the big difference between doing things according to esteemed Master's words and following the old forces' arrangements. Back in 2001, I was arrested by the secret police and held for a year for passing out a few flyers. This time they took so many materials, and I didn't answer any of the key questions concerning them, yet I was soon released.
Of course, it's also due to the fact that over time a large number of evil beings in other dimensions have been wiped out during the Fa-rectification and so they are not that powerful anymore. After all, the situation now is different from that of 2001. Although the secret police are still persecuting us, they know much more of the truth now, thanks to the truth-clarification efforts of practitioners in China and overseas. They are no longer completely in the dark about Dafa.
In hindsight, I found I still suffered a tremendous loss even though I was released. The equipment and funds were gone. Besides, when they were taken, I was helpless and didn't reject it, thinking, "Once they're gone, they're gone." I only rejected my being held by the police. Isn't that a filthy, selfish thought?! I didn't do well in many other aspects during interrogation. This would usually happen when my human mind played a role, and the evil would race to exploit it. When I let go of human thoughts, the evil could find no gap to exploit. Had I not experienced this tribulation, I would not have felt so acutely the words of our esteemed Master. Naturally, Dafa disciples are categorically rejecting the tests instigated by the old forces. Indeed, Dafa disciples are becoming more and more clear-headed as they reject the tribulations they encounter.
The above is only my own experience and understanding. I kindly ask fellow practitioners to point out any inadequacies! Heshi!
March 15, 2006