With Continuous Righteous Thoughts, Challenging Tests Are No Longer Challenging
(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings, Revered Teacher! Greetings, Fellow Practitioners!
Having gone through the past seven years of the evil Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) persecution, the most vicious so-called "test" in history, every Dafa practitioner has chosen a path for himself. Each test of life or death and each test with spiritual challenges witnesses the cultivator's path, as well as the wonder, superiority and miraculousness of Dafa.
The following are my experiences validating the Fa. I'd like to share them with everyone.
Like many other assistants at assistance centers in China, I have been arrested many times, brainwashed, sent to forced labor camps and forced to leave home, going into hiding during the evil persecution. Some of these tests I passed easily, some with great difficulty. However, my righteous belief in Teacher and Dafa is diamond-solid and unshakable.
A. Rejecting Old Force Arrangements and Returning Home Openly
I left my home and went into hiding for over a year. Though I wanted to return home every day, it was very difficult for me to take the first step. Though I studied the Fa every day, I did not resolve the fundamental attachment in my soul. I had asked myself repeatedly, "Why are you hiding here? Why don't you go home? What are you afraid of? Aren't you just afraid of being persecuted by the old forces? Isn't this just following arrangements made by the old forces?" A Dafa practitioner must always follow the requirements of the Fa. That can never be skated over. At that time, the Minghui website, the Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net, published many articles exposing the evil. Teacher also told us in "Rationality,"
"The actions they are now adopting in the persecution of Dafa and its students are extremely evil and shameful, and they fear these will be exposed. You must let the world's people know about their evilness--this is saving people, as well."
After discussing with other local practitioners, we decided to immediately write articles to expose the persecution of my family, how my husband was taken to a forced labor camp, how I went into hiding and how my son was left home alone. Not only did we send the article to the people who created the disaster for our families and their bosses, but we also distributed the materials to the public to let the people know the truth and expose the evil. The evil could not stand it. They asked people to bring a message to me saying it would be OK for me to return home to take care of my son. So I returned home openly. First I visited the leaders of the offices that were involved or related to the persecution of me and told them about the persecution of Dafa practitioners and the wide spread of Falun Dafa to over sixty countries in the world. I also called the head of the 610 Office, reminding him that goodness begets goodness and that evil will be punished. After they understood the truth, they said that they would no longer persecute me and that I could stay home and practice Falun Gong. They understood the difficulties created for me and my family in the past few years and were willing to help me if I ran into any problems. I was joyful to see these sentient beings being saved and felt sorry for the time I wasted and the opportunities I missed during the year that I had been hiding.
After rejecting the old force arrangements, I was delighted to return to the cultivation environment of assisting Teacher in rectifying the Fa. Looking back over my cultivation during the past few years, I saw that every time I fell, it appeared to be caused by the evil persecution, but at the root it was my attachments that I needed to eliminate. The torture against me exposed my many shortcomings, gaps and potential problems. To be honest, my determination in assisting Teacher to rectify the Fa is solid as a diamond and unshakable, but my heart was not pure enough to reach the Fa's standards of selflessness, and always considering others first. I needed to truly consciously assimilate myself to the Fa to make my body undergo fundamental changes.
I also understand clearly that to walk every step well and correctly, one must study the Fa well. No matter how the ordinary world changes or how crazy the evil is, that's just the cultivation environment for us cultivators. Everything in the Three Realms is set up for Fa rectification at this time. In this environment, we must unconditionally look inward at ourselves. If we can firmly follow Teacher's lessons and arrangements, we can reject the old force's persecution at its root.
B. Understanding what is meant by "Cultivation Is up to You, Gong Is up to the Master"
1. Eliminating Fear When Buying Supplies for Truth Clarification Materials
Setting up truth-clarification materials centers everywhere is Teacher's request to Dafa practitioners in the Fa Rectification period. It is also a special cultivation form for us to validate the Fa in the ordinary world. Thus it is a path that we must walk well.
There had not been enough truth-clarification materials in our area, and many materials requiring higher technical skills such as small booklets and Dafa bookmarks were mainly provided by practitioners from other areas. Via Fa study and discussions, our local practitioners came to the conclusion that we need to eradicate our old ideas of selfishness such as waiting for, relying on, or asking of others. We should create those materials by ourselves and reduce the burden on Dafa practitioners from other areas. So we pooled our money together and bought the equipment. However, buying the raw materials became a challenge. At the meeting, several older practitioners in their fifties and sixties looked at each other, and finally all looked at me. I just came home from hiding, should I take this "risky" task? Then another thought came into my mind, "You are a Dafa practitioner in the Fa Rectification period. You must do well the three things. Are you returning home to enjoy life?" I was tested with the fight between righteous and evil and the options of moving forward or stepping back.
"A forward move, myriad things come into being. A step back, all turns to nothing, forever to be a mystery." ("Nothing" from Hong Yin Volume II).
Saving sentient beings is our sacred task. I cannot back out but must be responsible for them.
So the next day I took a long-distance bus to a city that I was familiar with. I came to a high-tech shopping center and told a store owner that I wanted to buy paper, ink, CD's, etc..., he stared at me for a while, then asked, "Ma'am, what do you need these things for at your age?" I told him that I was running my business, but my heart beat like a drum. I recited in my heart,
"A Great Enlightened One fears no hardship. Having forged a diamond-like will, free of attachments to living or dying. He walks the path of Fa-rectification, confident and poised." ("Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions" from Hong Yin Volume II)
...to keep myself calm. The owner did not ask me anything else. Under Teacher's strengthening, they packed ten boxes of materials for me. I took a taxi to bring them to the bus station for my return trip. I removed the box label (but it could still be recognized). The bus driver was a very nice person. While helping me load the boxes, he said softly on on my ear, "Ma'am, please do not deal with these things in the future." I smiled. During the whole trip, I had kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate my selfish ideas and fear as well as any hurdle on our path of Fa validation. When I finally reached home, my thunder-beating heart calmed down. I could feel that my mind nature had been enhanced and raised up in the Fa. When I got off the bus, I saw Teacher's Law Body was next to me, smiling.
After the first experience, it became very easy for me to do it again. After getting rid of fear, my path was easy to walk. The store owner is in his thirties, and after a while, we cooperated well and have a tacit understanding of each other. Once, he said softly to me, "Ma'am, there are cameras around here." I patted on his shoulder, "It is not able to tape me." He smiled. Such words seemed to come out naturally, but it is when we have cultivated to the level that Teacher described as,
"If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)").
How much Teacher has done benevolently to protect us!
2. Studying the Fa Well and Fulfilling My Responsibility
Difficulties are not only hurdles on our path of Fa validation, but they are also touchstones of our cultivation process. We clearly understand that we are not overcoming difficulties doing ordinary people's jobs, but cultivating via breaking the old universe's Fa and the old force's restrictions and to return to our true selves and reach Consummation, becoming a new life meeting the new universe's standards. Because of that, the things we do are sacred, great, and full of mighty virtue.
It was extremely difficult to set up the truth-clarification materials center. Not only did I not know how to connect to the Internet or print, but the managers from my company also frequently visited my home to show their concern for me (my husband was sent to a forced labor for refusing to give up cultivation). Once in a while, the police would come to my home to look around and harass me. Under such an evil environment, the Dafa truth-clarification materials would not be created should I not have a righteous belief in Teacher and the Fa. I knew clearly that this was not just doing things but cultivating.
"Somebody who truly cultivates up to high levels has to let go of all the different attachments he has." (Zhuan Falun)
Fear is a human attachment that needs to be eliminated during cultivation. When the evil CCP persecution started on July 20, 1999, I said to Teacher in my heart, even if I was the only practitioner in our area, I would continue cultivating to the end. With indestructible righteous thoughts, I took the equipment home and started fulfilling my responsibility of saving sentient beings.
My education was limited. I had no prior knowledge of computers, not to mention printing. But once I had the wish to save sentient beings, everything was taken care by Teacher.
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master" (Zhuan Falun)
Via continuous Fa study, Dafa kept giving me wisdom. It was quite incredible for ordinary people to believe.
When the computer and printer came to my home, I viewed them as my Fa-implements and cherished them. I told them that they came to my home for the Fa, so they should cooperate with me. It was Teacher who told me how to print. I knew nothing about computers. All we had was a flash memory card containing truth-clarification material created by practitioners from another area. When I first turned on the machines, I stared at the monitor, not knowing what to do. All of sudden, a voice sounded in my head: click on "My Computer," then click..., then click... I followed the instruction to click through and put paper into printer, then the printout came out! Because I did not set up the paper tray, the pages came out quickly and flew all over in the room. But I was afraid of stopping it for I might forget how to do it again. Then a voice in my head told me to press the Pause button... Therefore, I learned how to print single page material. Gradually, Teacher also told me how to make a small booklet. It was just a pure miracle.
One evening after I had just learned how to make small booklets, someone knocked on my door. When I opened it, several policemen burst in. They searched my home without saying anything. I asked them what they were doing. They answered savagely, "Ransacking your house." They took my MP3 player, my PDA and a printout of Teacher's new articles. They asked me to "go with them." I did not want to go, but then I thought that I should not stay at my home to deal with them, otherwise they might find my printer (I always boxed it up after I used it). So I decided to go with them to clarify the truth, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts. I was very rational, clear and calm, feeling my body was surrounded by a strong energy field. I sat on a sofa as a guest, because they had "invited" me there. I said in my heart that my Teacher sent me to save you. At the same time I sent forth the righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors behind the policemen. They saw that I was very calm and pounded the table. I told them calmly, "You can't do anything to me. I did not do any thing wrong. I am just a cultivator following the the principles of 'Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance.' My family was broken apart by the CCP's persecution. I have only myself now and have nothing to fear." Then I started to tell them the truth of the persecution of Dafa. They realized that they could not handle me so they just kept quiet. One policeman said, "Take her back home now. See? She is not afraid of anything." Within an hour, they took me home. Once I came into my home, I picked up my phone, "I am going to report to your supervisors that it is illegal that you ransacked my home. You are supposed to enforce the law but instead you broke it." The two policemen rushed to take the phone from me, "Please do not call. If you want to practice Falun Gong, just do it in your home. We will not come here to bother you any more." Since then, no evildoers have come to my home to interfere with me. When in hardship or in a challenge, as long as we truly believe in Teacher and Dafa, having a firm belief will vaporize the evil. Actually the evil is nothing at all. This understanding came from solid Fa study.
As the Fa Rectification advances, the Fa requirements of me become higher and higher. When writing this article, I realized my shortcomings in Fa study and the shallowness of my article. At the same time, I also found shortcomings and gaps in my cultivation. Let's advance together by focusing on our study of the Fa and cultivation.