Eliminate Feelings of Inadequacy and Begin Writing About Your Cultivation Experiences
(Clearwisdom.net) During the past several years, while Falun Dafa has been persecuted, I have read and admired fellow practitioners' articles on the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net). I myself would seldom write such articles, though my major was Chinese when I was at the university. The reason was because of my feelings of inferiority. A situation occurred at my job which changed my mindset. Since then, I have successfully written several articles about verifying Falun Dafa and published them on Minghui website. Here I share this part of my experience with fellow practitioners.
When I started a new job, my manager asked me to write articles. Since I felt self-conscious, I was afraid that if my articles were not good enough, people would laugh at me. Also I did not want to write "empty" articles which eulogize the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). So, I decided to try my best to avoid such work. This led to co-workers misunderstanding me in my job.
Since there was just one co-worker writing articles in my work unit, sometimes he would ask me to do some writing also. I would say, "Better not ask me to do that. I would rather do anything else than write." After this occurred several times he became unhappy with me and reported the issue to our manager. The manager said to me, "You should have more courage. You can start slowly, but since your specialty is Chinese, you should do a good job." The group leader was more straightforward, and said, "Even junior high school graduates can write. Why can't you? You should be more confident!" These words hit my attachment directly. I looked inward to ask myself. Is my writing ability really not good? As a Falun Dafa practitioner, I should do a good job in my daily work. Am I considerate of others?
After learning the issue, my husband said, "It's become an attachment that you are afraid of writing articles. The more you fear it, the more they will push you to do it. Remember that you are a practitioner. Nothing is a coincidence. It aims at your attachment. You need not to be afraid of writing. The only thing you need is confidence."
He encouraged me this way and helped me to realize my mentality of self-deprecation. To get rid of this attachment, I needed to face the issue directly and regain my reputation. So I changed my attitude and took initiative to write things.
After getting started, I found that it is not a hard thing for me. They did not ask me to write articles in praise of the CCP. After I changed my attitude, my work environment turned harmonious. This issue deeply impressed me. It also helped me to start writing articles to validate Falun Dafa.
One or two years ago, when I wanted to write down my cultivation experiences, I didn't know where to start. I wrote an article once, but it was not published by Minghui. So I did not have confidence to write after that. Later, after I saw the notice titled "First Request for Cultivation Experience Sharing Articles by Falun Dafa Practitioners in China" and on "Righteous Thoughts and Actions", I strongly felt that I should write. But my self-abatement stopped me. Right at that time, the issue mentioned above happened. I thought it was Teacher reminding me to write about what my manager had said to me. My Chinese was not very good when I was in high school, but I was placed in a Chinese program of study at the university. This was not what I wanted when I entered. It might have been a pre-arrangement which now allows me to write articles to validate Falun Dafa.
So, I made my determination to write. When I started writing, memories appeared by themselves in my mind. I remembered experiences, such as how I had overcome sickness karma under the protection of Teacher, and how my relatives survived through practicing Falun Dafa. While writing, new ideas would come one after another. Now, several of my articles have been published on the Minghui website. I know Teacher is encouraging me and helping me fulfill my duty by making good use of my time.
Teacher has said:
"Every attachment for you to remove in your cultivation practice is a wall, standing there and blocking your path of cultivation practice." ("Environment", Essentials for Further Advancement)
On our way of cultivation and validation of Falun Dafa, as long as we change our mentalities of ordinary people, and get rid of our attachments, Teacher will empower us to do things. I encourage fellow practitioners who have the intention and ability to write, to start writing right away. By writing down our experiences and lessons, the crimes of Jiang's regime in the persecution, and our fellow practitioners' stories in the Fa-rectification period, we can help each other as well as validate Falun Dafa. I also hope practitioners who are not well educated will follow the example of the fellow practitioner who wrote the article "From Hoe to Mouse". If you really are unable to write, you could ask other practitioners to do it for you. In this way, the great deeds of practitioners can be recorded on paper.