Purge the Attachment of Fear; Teacher Is Always Watching Over Us
I started practicing Falun Gong in 1996 when I became curious about why so many people had learned the practice in such a short period of time. Before I learned Falun Gong, doctors told me that I would never be able to have children due to a medical condition, yet I became pregnant three months after I started practicing. After witnessing my physical and spiritual transformation, my husband greatly encouraged me in practicing Falun Gong.
On July 20, 1999, after Jiang Zemin and the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to openly persecute Falun Gong, I gave in to the pressure and started to spend less and less time studying the Fa because I didn't have a good enough understanding of the Fa and because I was very attached to wealth. One day when I was riding my bicycle to go shopping, I was hit in the thighs by a motorcycle. The motorcycle driver left the scene immediately and I passed out. While I was unconscious, I felt that I was going to hell, but I immediately thought, "I must not die! My son is only one year old." Next, I remembered that I was a Falun Gong practitioner and Teacher was watching over me. Then I regained consciousness and started thinking, "What is the use of making a lot of money? I almost lost my life." After this accident, I began to treasure Falun Gong and started studying the Fa seriously.
During the 16th National People's Congress in 2002, I went to Beijing alone to clarify the truth about Falun Gong. I posted small posters with messages telling the truth about Falun Gong at the gate of Tiananmen Square. I chose that spot because it was a high-traffic area. I thought, "May these posters be seen only by kindhearted people. Let them be invisible to the vicious policemen." I continued to post truth-clarification messages until I ran out. I had never been to Beijing before. I would have stayed a few days in Beijing to do sightseeing if I was not a practitioner.
After I returned home, my son told me, "Mommy, hurry up and offer incense to Teacher to thank Teacher." He told me that he had seen with his Celestial vision Teacher sitting on a lotus flower, telling him, "Your mother will be home soon." On hearing this I became all the more determined in helping Teacher with the Fa-rectification. I felt Teacher was right beside me.
I traveled to a remote mountain area and bought a copy machine with several fellow Falun Gong practitioners. I had saved up several tens of thousands of yuan over a period of many years, and I used it all on producing truth-clarification materials at the new materials production site. For the first few months, things went well, but slowly, I became attached to doing things and neglected Fa study. At the same time several fellow practitioners who worked at the site became increasingly apprehensive of their personal safety. One day the local police tailed them and found out the location of the truth-clarification materials site. The police looted the photocopy machine and arrested several practitioners. The practitioners were later sentenced to serve time in prison for 5-9 years. I was also arrested, but I only had the Fa on my mind at the time. I thought, "There is a lot of truth-clarification work that I must do. I must not be incarcerated." I refused to answer questions, I denied everything that the police accused me of, and I refused to sign anything. Finally the police released me unconditionally. This experience validated the might power of the Fa to me once again.
In October 2004, several fellow practitioners, my son, and I, traveled to Beijing with several hundred copies of truth-clarification materials and scotch tape. When I sent forth righteous thoughts, I felt Teacher was right next to me. I had no fear because I knew Teacher was watching over me. I posted the truth-clarification materials everywhere I went. Once a man saw me posting the material and said, "A woman dressed in red posted the material." My son told the man repeatedly, "You cannot cover up the truth any more than you can conceal the sun!" I continuously sent forth righteous thoughts while I was walking on the streets, and returned to the hotel only after running out of posters.
On the train back home, I felt Teacher sitting next to me. I was very happy. I said, "Teacher, I am glad to be sitting next to you." Teacher smiled and took me to a place where the ground was covered with spiky pebbles. At first I thought, "If I sit on the ground, these porcupine rocks will pierce my buttocks and my legs." Next I thought, "Teacher is here. I have no fear." Thus I sat on the ground. I felt so comfortable all over my body. I have never experienced such a wonderful feeling before. Later Teacher pointed out to me that one third of my fellow practitioners were behind me, for they hesitated to approach this spiky area. I understood this experience as a hint that our compassionate Teacher does not want to leave any Falun Gong practitioner behind. I am a Falun Gong practitioner. I should help Teacher with the Fa-rectification. Teacher taught in the poem, "One With the Fa,"
Broadly shines a Buddha's light,
Justly setting all things right.
Advance together, ever diligent,
To a glorious future. (Hong Yin, translation version A)
Since 2004 we have maintained a Fa study group. The group has enabled us to upgrade our cultivation level as a whole, and we are able to do a better job of offering Teacher's salvation to people and keeping up with the pace of Teacher's Fa-rectification. Fellow practitioners and I often distribute truth-clarification materials, hang truth-clarification banners and clarify the truth about Falun Gong to people. Some practitioners have told me, "I did not go out to do truth-clarification work before because I had a lot of fear, but I was not afraid at all when I went out to do truth-clarification work with you. I even felt comfortable all over my body."
I have no intention of showing off by writing this article. I am only suggesting that we ought to upgrade in our cultivation practice together and bring those fellow practitioners who have not stepped forward yet with us when we do truth-clarification work because Teacher does not wish to leave any Falun Gong practitioner behind.
As Falun Gong practitioners, we should exchange experiences on our cultivation practice, encourage each other, and do the three things better in order to complete our journey without any regrets and avoid letting Teacher down.