Dafa Practitioners' Solemn Declarations
I started practicing Falun Dafa while in graduate school in 1996. Soon after I started the practice, my body became vibrantly healthy and my academic achievements improved and became quite outstanding. The longer I practiced, the more deeply I felt the greatness, beauty and magnificence of Falun Dafa.
When the persecution started in July 1999, I was in my third year of graduate studies. All of a sudden Falun Dafa and Teacher were being slandered and practitioners were being persecuted. Therefore, that year I went to Beijing to appeal several times. After my first appeal, I was placed in a detention center in Beijing. The police beat me mercilessly and used many other sinister methods to torture me. After being sent back home at the end of 1999, I was once again imprisoned in a local police station. One evening, after I was released the second time and was having dinner at a fellow practitioner's home, I was once again arrested and illegally detained.
On December 23, 1999, I was sentenced to a three-year term in a labor camp. The university ordered me to quit school without giving any reason. In the difficult prison environment, I gradually began to lose my righteous thoughts, and my heart of humanness began to grow stronger. In September 2000, a group of so-called "reformed" people from Masanjia Labor Camp came to try and brainwash us. They hypocritically propagandized their evil messages to us. Because I listened to my human heart, my mind was not clear and I accepted their evil awakening, and wrote the so-called "three guarantees." Also, I acted as a "collaborator" and spread the evil messages to many other fellow practitioners at the labor camp, which created huge losses that can never be recovered.
By April 2001 I was considered completely "reformed" and so I returned to school to complete my studies, which had been postponed for two years. Soon after returning to the school, I was deceived into participating in a so-called "exposing and criticizing conference," where I read my "three guarantees." The video recording of this conference was later manufactured into a VCD, and was broadcast and played at many labor camps. My actions had once again helped the evil. Over the years, I have repented deeply and bitterly for the words I said and the deeds I performed against my own will. My bitter and repenting mind has kept me basically isolated from all outside contact. However, in spite of the massive damage I did, in my quiet moments, I could still feel Master's mercy towards me and could still feel the mighty power of Dafa. This feeling suddenly awakened me to the truth and I felt that perhaps I could find my way once again through the maze. I realized that I had to crawl back up, after falling down so far by diligently doing the three things that a Dafa disciple should do. Here, I solemnly declare that what I wrote, said, and did in the past, under pressure and with an unclear mind, and that did damage to Dafa, to be invalid. From now on I will act righteously according to Master's requirements, and progress whole-heartedly with redoubled efforts, to make up for the loss and do well the things that a Dafa disciple is supposed to do.
February 18, 2005
In 1997, when I was in Grade 12, I obtained the Fa. When the persecution started in 1999, I was a sophomore college student. The teacher in charge of our class, the communist youth group leaders, and the local police all talked to me many times about giving up my practice of Falun Gong. At first I persisted in not giving up my cultivation practice, refusing to write the "written guarantee," and steadfastly refusing to say anything to slander Dafa. But because my faith was not sufficiently firm and after many talks, I orally complied to "not practice," but in the interrogation I said that in no way would I damage Dafa, nor would I betray fellow practitioners for my own personal gain. But I signed the written interrogation records of the local police many times. During winter and summer vacations, I had to face local police interrogation in my hometown. Once again, I orally agreed "not to practice." After that, I felt very regretful, ashamed and unworthy of Master's salvation. I felt increasingly hopeless that I would ever be able to reach consummation. And so I became slack at studying the Fa and stopped practicing the exercises.
In 2002, I was interrogated once more by the local police. Threats and violence strengthened my heart of fear and so I did not realize promptly it was Master giving me the chance to make up for all the damage I had caused. Instead I wrote words that slandered Dafa and Master. I am extremely ashamed.
In 2004, with the help of fellow practitioners, I began to access Minghui.org [the Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net]. I finally read Master's recent teachings and fellow practitioners' experience-sharing articles. After this very joyful time of being close to Dafa again, I felt even more ashamed. Now I declare solemnly, that what I wrote and said before, which damaged Dafa and Master, is completely invalid! In the future, I will certainly and diligently do well the "three things" that Master requires of us and compensate for my previous wrongdoings.
February 22, 2005