Dafa Gave Me New Life
1. Dafa Saved Me and My Family Again and Again
Since the day I started working, I cared so much about personal fame and gain in life, and became very narrow-minded. I had deeply rooted jealousy and a competitive mentality, which did not allow me to eat or sleep well, and ruined my health. I'd developed all kinds of diseases, including neurosis, rheumatic arthritis, pain in my legs and lower back, an ice cold feeling on my back, numbness in half of my body, cataracts, hypotension, and dizziness. Whenever I had a headache, I had to bang my head on the wall to counteract the pain. After suffering all these horrible symptoms, I was so pleased to begin practicing Falun Gong through introduction by friends in 1996. I watched the videotapes of Master's nine-day lectures in Guangzhou, and it felt like Master was right by my side. I could feel Master's benevolence and kindness. The Fa is exactly what I had been looking for.
I paid attention to every word Master said. After three lectures, while I was half asleep, Master helped purify my body. Falun was spinning above my head. After I finished all nine lectures, my body experienced huge changes, from being bed-ridden to becoming full of energy. According to my doctor, I was supposed to stay in the hospital. But after I listened to Master's lectures, I felt very well and could even go to work without any problem. Since that time, eight years ago, I haven't taken any medicine. Dafa is so miraculous. Since that day, I have been cultivating in Falun Dafa. I cut out all my bad habits and followed Dafa's requirements.
Since the first time I read Zhuan Falun, I've treasured this great book. I could feel the righteousness between the lines. Zhuan Falun directly points to human hearts. It requires practitioners to observe laws and regulations, do their jobs well, be kind and honest citizens, look within themselves when facing conflicts, think more of others, care little about personal fame and gain, and give up all attachments. After you have let go of the attachments to fighting for self-interest and competing with others, you will live a much more relaxed life. Master teaches us that we should cultivate while conforming to ordinary society's way of living as much as possible. We don't need to renounce our families and become monks. Instead, we cultivate ourselves with clear minds amongst everyday people in the ordinary society. Through three years of cultivation, my diseases were all cured completely. Dafa made my family live happily and in harmony. My body felt so light and my heart was filled with happiness.
While I was enjoying all these things, on July 20, 1999, Jiang's regime, utilized by the old forces, started the brutal persecution of Falun Gong. They started the propaganda slandering Falun Gong by using newspaper, radio and TV stations. The police launched a mass arrest of practitioners all over the country. Practitioners, who appealed to the higher authorities for help, were arrested, detained, and jailed. Jiang's regime took away the freedoms and basic constitutional rights of Falun Gong practitioners. All of a sudden, Falun Gong was slandered and demonized, and practitioners were persecuted.
After that, the local police in our area had a conversation with me and asked me to write a guarantee statement saying I would no longer practice Falun Gong. They asked about my thoughts. I told them that the TV programs that slandered my Master were all fake and wrong, and that I wouldn't write that guarantee. One policewoman begged me, "Please write it, for the sake of our job and for your family." My human heart surfaced after all her begging. So I wrote the guarantee statement unwillingly and cooperated with the evil's arrangements. I wasn't able to validate and protect the Fa at that critical moment.
The persecution was getting worse and worse. I once lost my freedom and was monitored by the local police. I was a Dafa practitioner who had benefited from the Fa. How could I not take any actions while witnessing all this unfair treatment of the Fa? I went to Beijing to appeal in October 1999. I wanted to tell the media and the Appeals Office the truth about my personal experience. I wrote down my experiences and sent it to the media. The situation in Beijing was horrible at that time, and no matter how much you tried to follow procedures, there was nowhere to tell your story. You would be accused of disturbing social order and arrested and detained for that. Police in Beijing arrested me illegally. I was then transferred to my hometown's liaison office in Beijing and then to a detention center. I was illegally kept there for a month. During that time, I told the police the truth of how wonderful Dafa was. They were all moved by my words and behavior. I told them how to be a good person and not hurt others. Among the prisoners, there were murderers and grafters. After they listened to me, they were no longer fighting with each other. They even helped to cover us when we practiced and studied the Fa.
Friends and relatives all tried to persuade me: "If you think Falun Gong is good, then practice at home. Why bother staying there and suffering? If you insist, they'll send you to a forced labor camp. How could you stand that? Be realistic..." Due to many attachments, and being afraid of hardship, I began to waver. I developed fear and selfishness and wrote a guarantee statement and a repentance statement. Later I was released. I surrendered to the evil and didn't firmly protect the Fa. I felt so ashamed of myself. I felt that I had betrayed Master's compassionate salvation, and my heart was aching as if being twisted with a knife.
During the critical time, I chose to protect myself and followed the old forces' arrangements. I missed many opportunities and was controlled by the evil. After I returned home, my body started to show signs of sickness. I felt dizzy and my lower back became very painful.
In January of 2000, all of a sudden my son started having a headache. I initially didn't pay much attention. But when he got up one morning, he couldn't speak clearly. His mouth was slanting, and he couldn't shut his eyes. He was losing his memory and his hands couldn't hold anything. He had all the symptoms of cerebral thrombosis. I immediately took him to the hospital. The diagnosis was Cerebral Aneurism. There were two Cerebral Aneurisms in his brain stem. It was very severe. I immediately took him to Beijing Capital Hospital, where the reputable doctor Ling Feng gave him a check-up. The doctor said the position of the aneurism was very serious, and operating would be very difficult. Even if it was successful, he might enter into a coma. If it was not successful, my son might not survive. They could give it a try if the family insisted. So we talked to my son and he said, "Let's go home. No operation. I'll go home and practice Falun Gong."
So my son didn't have the operation. He started practicing Falun Gong. When his headache bothered him so much that he couldn't sleep, the only thing that worked for him was to listen to Master's lectures. During the daytime, after he finished watching all the videotapes of Master's lectures, he started practicing the exercises. He fully recovered in one month. After two months, he was able to do all of his daily work and all of his memory recovered. It's been four years now, and he's in excellent condition. It is Dafa that gave my son his new life. This is another miracle of Dafa. Once again, Master kindly showed his compassion towards me and protected and saved my son. Many famous doctors and professors thought that my son could only live for 10 days, 20 days, or a year, and that the aneurism was like a bomb that could explode any time. My son's belief in Dafa is based on conscience and practice, and not just following blindly as some people think. Such belief is firm and cannot be shaken by any force.
It is our great Master's compassionate protection that helped me pick myself up again and again after I tumbled in tough and difficult situations. I completely negate the old forces' arrangement and am firm in my belief now. What we have experienced proves once again that Falun Dafa is a superior science. In my own cultivation experience, Master purified my body again and again. I have become so healthy, and my life is rich and happy. I'm steadfast on my cultivation path.
2. Master's Boundless Benevolence Enabled Us to Become Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples
I became more and more mature during the evil tests arranged by the old forces. I gradually got rid of my fear, apprehensions, and selfishness, bit by bit. The evil factors are negated and cleared by my righteous thoughts.
During my cultivation and Fa-rectification, I gradually was able to distinguish between the old forces' arrangements and the arrangements made by Master. For example, when my living environment was interfered with and damaged or when I was interrupted the moment I wanted to clarify the truth or study the Fa, besides looking inward at my own xinxing, I would always completely eliminate the evil's interference. Everything that prevents me from doing the three things that Master asks us to do needs to be eliminated, because that is the old forces using dark minions to stop me from validating the Fa. I always send forth righteous thoughts before I clarify the truth, whether face to face or indirectly. I always have a thought: I want to save sentient beings. Usually, I receive good results. I've improved a lot in my cultivation during the process of clarifying the truth and saving sentient beings.
I'm deeply grateful for our Master's merciful, arduous salvation. He gives us the most precious cultivation opportunity and makes us the Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples.