(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, I have seen some senior practitioners who did not make progress getting over their illness karma. Some had sickness karma manifestations for months, some for more than a year, and there were even some who lost their lives. I have some experience with this issue and would like to share it with everyone. I hope this will help those practitioners who are stuck with illness karma for a long time.
April is the peak time when people in this area get flu and coughs. Many people got this form of sickness karma and so did I. I coughed for a long time and my throat was very itchy. My cough was really bad, especially when I sent righteous thoughts. Initially, I thought it was interference and I looked inside. I found that it was caused by overeating. I also realized that I was occupied with taking care of my mother (a Dafa practitioner), who'd been very sick, and did terribly in studying the Fa and clarifying the truth. The dark minions were using my attachments to persecute me. I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate them, and put in extra efforts to study the Fa and clarify the truth. I was very strict with myself. However, my health did not improve and I was coughing even more. My voice changed and I could barely catch my breath. During this time, I repeatedly thought, "What's the matter with me? I sent righteous thoughts and looked inside, how come I am still like this?" Later I thought, "Whatever, I need to totally give up my attachments and do well in the three things Teacher asks us to do." The cough continued.
One night I was lying in bed and couldn't fall asleep. I kept on thinking and all of a sudden something shook my mind and I enlightened to a principle: I have to change my thoughts. Teacher has told us that good and bad emerges from one thought. The difference in one thought is the difference between a human and godly state. Though I looked inward and sent righteous thoughts, the truth was that I still had pursuits. I did not clear my mind to study the Fa and send righteous thoughts. I did not use my heart to clarify the truth. I acknowledged the old force's persecution without knowing it. Though I had said to myself that I would not acknowledge anything, in my mind I did not really let go of the attachment. Teacher says in Zhuan Falun, "We emphasize one point: If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you." The reason why I could not get over my illness karma for so long was because I did not change my human thoughts. I did not truly relinquish my attachment of wanting to stop coughing, "Having humanly fostered the evil demons, you allow them to capitalize on the loopholes in the Fa." (Essentials for Further Advancement) When I let go of my human thoughts, I really felt that I had jumped out of my human side on this issue. My throat cleared up right then and my cough was gone the next day. Later, whenever I had a slight coughing symptom, I immediately thought, "It's nothing. Nobody can persecute me." That instant the symptom was gone. My cough was totally gone after a while. When I gave up my attachment to coughing, I felt like I never had coughed before. Through this incident, I realized, "Only when I can jump out of human thoughts and human notions will I be able to walk out of the human side. Only when I give up human thoughts will Dafa reveal its divine power to me."