Give up the Pursuit of "Gaining" and the Attachment to "Results"
(Clearwisdom.net) After reading the experience-sharing article "Only When We Relinquish the Attachment to Human Emotions Will Compassion Grow in Our Hearts" on Clearwisdom.net, February 20, 2004 (http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2004/2/20/45301.html), I felt that this fellow practitioner had a very good understanding. In the back of my mind, however, I sensed there was something missing. I had a feeling of regret: If there were a satisfactory result, it would have been much better. When I shared this notion with a fellow practitioner, the practitioner said that I had an attachment to results. I was surprised, as if I had awakened from a dream. How come I myself hadn't realized this? I was really attached to results!
When I looked inside to see if I really had an attachment to results, I found I had a misunderstanding in my cultivation. In my mind, it seemed that only a satisfactory result would prove that my understanding was correct. Whenever I encountered a test, I expected positive changes in this dimension. In my mind, this seemed to be a law.
What on earth is a "satisfactory" result? What we really should care about is cultivating our own xinxing and upgrading our level. This is fundamental. Why should we care about the changes in this ordinary people's society? It is an attachment when we pay too much attention to them. Master teaches us, "The only way to gain a good understanding of Dafa is to study it without any intention.... Keep in mind: One should gain things naturally without pursuing them." (Learning the Fa) What do we gain? We gain gong and the upgrading of our realm and our level. When we relinquish attachments, one after another, with a hope to have a problem solved or to get ordinary people's blessings, we unconsciously form a wrong understanding, a notion to see ordinary people's blessings as "gaining." We feel that if we do not pursue them, we will naturally get ordinary people's things. So, sometimes when we try hard to give up "pursuing," we seem to simply exchange an attachment to pursuit for an attachment to "gaining."
When I get attached to "gaining," I am still "pursuing." Stuck in this misunderstanding in my cultivation, I could not break through the attachment to or the pursuit of "gaining." Then, reflected in Fa-rectification and cultivation, I formed an attachment to results. As a result of this attachment, the old force has an excuse to persecute my fellow practitioners and interfere with Master's Fa-rectication. The lesson is very profound.