Righteous Belief Guided Me Through 5 Years of Persecution with Righteous Thoughts and Actions
(Clearwisdom.net) I first learned of the first written experience sharing conference in an announcement in Minghui Weekly. I viewed it as a full conference with special terms and under special conditions. As a Falun Dafa disciple with 8 years of cultivation experience, I thought it would be doing Fa-rectification work to write down my own experience with righteous belief, thoughts and acts. I welcome fellow practitioners to correct it with compassion if there are any loopholes.
1. Righteous Belief
I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. After I finished reading Zhuan Falun, it was very difficult to describe my feelings of happiness and excitement. Zhuan Falun is not only a book, it is Fa. (1) I suddenly understood a lot from it.
In 1996 I was frustrated with my job and family. In my work, I experienced both success and obstacles; but I kept on struggling without giving up. In my family, my second marriage was facing failure. My aspiration was to do my work well and educate my two children well. I thought highly of fame, profit and sentiment, and was unwilling to let go of any of them.
I was a weak woman weighing less than 40 kilograms (88lbs) with a height of 1.55 meters (5'1"). Someone said that a gust of wind was enough to blow me down. But I had the character of never admitting defeat and seeking to prevail over others. This personality caused me to go through many hardships.
I was awarded the title of "advanced worker" every year, as well as "excellent manager," and one of the top 10 news personages in our county. In a celebration conference for March 8th Women's day, the secretary of the county committee commended me as the model for 180 thousand women in our county and called on all of them to learn from me. I started my company from scratch and made it big and strong and gained reputation in my county. People said, "The shortest manager built the highest building". After I experienced great success in my work, I ran into setbacks. Although I desperately pursued success in my work and happiness in family, eventually I lost everything. My heart suffered serious harm, and I developed several kinds of diseases. As a result I looked very old for my age. Some 30-year-old people even called me, "aunt" (2) at 40.
In my 40 years, I walked back and forth in a loss and felt dejected. At that time I always recited Pushkin's poem since it fit my mood perfectly:
I have outlasted all desire,
My dreams and I have grown apart;
My grief alone is left entire,
The gleanings of an empty heart.
The storms of ruthless dispensation
Have struck my flowery garland numb-
I live in lonely desolation
And wonder when my end will come.
Thus on a naked tree-limb, blasted
By tardy winter's whistling chill,
A single leaf which has outlasted
Its season will be trembling still.
At that time I was helpless, disappointed, lonely and miserable. After reading Zhuan Falun, I had a new understanding of many things. It was Zhuan Falun that helped me out of the abyss of misery. Afterwards I was able to treat unfair issues and people correctly. I changed to another state of mind to face my tough life; I found the truth among perplexity.
In the 8 years of cultivation and Fa-validation, Teacher has been looking after me all the time. After the persecution started on July 20 1999, evil was rampant. This good cultivation way was forbidden to be practiced. I did not know what to do then. However, when other people submitted all Dafa books and wrote statements to give up cultivation, I did not follow them. I pondered deeply; the situation had changed so greatly, what should I do? I firmly believed that it was correct to persist in cultivation, to cultivate following the principle of "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance", and believe in Dafa steadfastly.
Soon after July 20 1999, I began to read Zhuan Falun again. Even if I was only able to read 1 page per day, I persisted reading every day. Even if I could only sit for a half hour in meditation, I would practice every day. From then on I respected the Fa and Teacher even more. I placed Teacher's picture in my room. Whenever I heard someone speak ill of Falun Dafa and Teacher, I would tell them, "What you said is wrong". I would turn off the TV when I saw a program slandering Falun Dafa. I did not know about sending forth righteous thoughts then. I only resisted the lies inwardly.
I enlightened from the Fa that I would not lose what truly belonged to me, and that I could cultivate and be a good person in every social situation as long as I could let go of my attachments. Following Teacher's instruction, I did my work pretty well. After I let go the attachment of pursuit, all my diseases went away, and I have not needed to take any medicine for 8 years. I feel very relaxed all over.
I set up a medical company in 1997. My business is getting better and better, and the credit of our company is very good. I also established a science and technology company in 2000. The stockholders trust me very much. They said, "We felt relieved to invest money in your company. You would not deceive us." I set up a medical institute in 2001 and got acquainted with many people from different fields including officials, experts and scholars. They all said, "You are a good person. Falun Gong is really amazing. Your Teacher is extraordinary. The Fa you are cultivating is very good. We have peace of mind, doing business with you."
I got along well with my customers like friends. Since cultivation surpasses the level of the ordinary world, I dealt with disagreements and solved problems in different way than most people. Even if other people treated me badly, I could understand them from their point of view, with good intentions. Many people did not understand why I made concessions with regard to profit issues. But I gained admiration this way. Gradually they knew that it all stemmed from Falun Dafa that I have been cultivating.
In the summer of 2000, I attended a wedding. During the wedding banquet, a friend suddenly asked, "Are you still practicing Falun Gong?" Many people were present. The persecution was most savage at that time. Very few people then dared to admit to be Dafa practitioners in public. So all people present desired to hear my answer. I answered loudly, "Falun Dafa is righteous. I will never give up." Most people on the spot were leaders from different work units. After 4 years, I enlightened that Teacher set up a test for me through an everyday person. My answer was just what Teacher desired.
During that period Teacher said nothing in public, but just allowed students to reflect and make their own decisions. In this hazy environment, as long as we had faith, indeed Teacher could do anything for us.
In the following 5 years, I did much Fa-rectification work like clarifying the facts of Falun Dafa with righteous thoughts and actions. Nobody asked me to write any statements to renounce my belief. Because I have righteous thoughts, actions, and faith, Teacher has been protecting me. Teacher said,
"I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe. What I have said may sound quite inconceivable. You will understand it later as you study further."
Years of Fa-rectification experience has proved this point. With righteous thoughts, actions, and belief, the evil cannot affect me.
In June 2000, I set up a science and technology company with several scientists. Everything went smoothly. When the district police chief came to my company, he left his card and contact information politely, and told me to contact him regularly. The moment my fear emerged, I denied it immediately since Teacher is protecting me.
For 5 years I never stopped studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts. I transcribed Zhuan Falun completely once. For the second time, I transcribed up to Lecture 6.
Teacher said in the "Falun Dafa Lecture in Sydney,"
"After reading the book for the first time, you will find that it is teaching people the principles of how to be a good person. If you read it again, you will find that what it states are not the principles of ordinary people, but it is a book beyond ordinary human knowledge. If you can read it a third time, you will find that it is a book of heaven. If you continue to read it, you will love it so much that you simply cannot let it go of your hands."
I could not help reading Zhuan Falun repeatedly. Later on, I started to transcribe the book word by word. After I did it once, I began to transcribe the book for the second time. For many years, no matter when or where or under what circumstances, I have kept telling others that Falun Dafa is good once I had an opportunity to do so. I have conducted myself and done things according to the standard of "Truth-Compassion-Tolerance" consistently over the past 5 years. My faith in Dafa remains unchanged; I stuck firmly to the requirements of Falun Dafa and my heart stayed unaffected by any external disturbances. During my cultivation in the Fa-rectification process over the past 5 years, my righteous thoughts were created from my faith, which has led me to righteous actions.
2. Righteous Thoughts
After I established righteous faith, my every thought and idea originated from it.
Since I cultivate Falun Dafa, I do everything according to the principle of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
Later Teacher told us to do the three things well, including Fa study, truth clarification, and sending forth righteous thoughts. Only then did I realize that righteous thoughts are a powerful substance existing physically as well as in thought. Sending forth this substance outwards can bring about formidable effects.
When I went on business trips, I always took a copy of Zhuan Falun with me. When I passed through the security check in the airport, the book was never discovered. One time my son and daughter-in-law came to the airport to see me off. Since they knew that I had Dafa books with me, they felt uneasy. They insisted on staying until I passed through the security check. At that time the security was very tight, the passengers even had to take off their shoes to be checked. Later they told me that all other passengers' luggage was opened to be searched, including their pockets, but when it was my turn, everything went smoothly. When I visited Taiwan, I took a copy of Zhuan Falun in my handbag. In Taiwan, Hong Kong and Macao, the tour guide told us that security would make trouble if we brought Falun Gong materials through the security check. However, I brought back Falun Dafa newspapers and magazines made by Taiwan practitioners without any problems. I realized that I did not do this by luck, but through righteous thoughts. Under the effect of strong righteous thoughts, nobody dared to touch Dafa material at will. Because I never had fearful thoughts or what I would do if the materials were found, the security could not see it. The cultivator's principles count: they cannot see as long as I do not allow them to see.
3. Righteous actions
I often went to Beijing for business. I would go to Tiananmen Square each time. There I sent forth righteous thoughts by erecting my palm or sometimes without any hand signs. I went in and out of the Square openly and aboveboard each time. I did all this under the elaborate protection of Teacher. I also saw many Falun fly out of my body and revolve around me.
Once there was a conference for scientists to be held in Beijing. In the conference notice it said that the opening ceremony would be held in the Great Hall of the people. I had participated in conferences in the Hall before and put Dafa material on the tables. On the morning of September 28, 2003, I walked into the Great Hall while sending forth righteous thoughts. From 8 a.m. to 12 a. m., I sat inside the Hall to send forth righteous thoughts for 15 minutes every half hour. I did not hear a word from the speaker. The only idea in my mind was eliminating the evil.
I understood the function of Dafa disciples during Fa-rectification period as a particle. We are all part of a whole. Whenever there was any program slandering Dafa on TV, I immediately eliminated the evil by erected my palm. I am a particle of the Fa and a life created by the mighty Fa. We all have power. It is very powerful when all Dafa disciples send forth righteous thoughts.
Teacher said in "Righteous Thoughts",
"Dafa disciples' sending forth righteous thoughts at this special historic period--in order to reduce the evil beings' persecution of Dafa, Dafa disciples, and the people of the world--has played a very critical role...To reduce the losses, and to save sentient beings, put your Dafa disciples' powerful righteous thoughts to full use! Show your Mighty Virtue!"
During the special period of Fa-rectification, I did a large amount of truth clarifying work like mailing letters, distributing CDs and posting posters with righteous thoughts and actions without being arrested. I realized that as long as we maintain righteous thoughts, Teacher is protecting us all the time and the evil dares not touch us. When I talked with fellow practitioners in Taiwan or at home, it seemed to them that it was somewhat wrong to not go to prison. I have never been detained. It is because I am a Falun Dafa disciple with righteous thoughts and actions.
I sent forth righteous thoughts every day. I was busy during the day and had lots of trivial matters, so I sometimes missed sending forth righteous thoughts. But at night, I persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts at 12 a.m. I never went to bed before 12 a.m., and read 3 chapters of Zhuan Falun. From 11:55 p.m., I began to focus my energy to send forth righteous thoughts. In the view of everyday people, the life of a single person is lonely and unhappy. But a cultivator's living environment and space are very magnificent.
In the beginning there were no Falun Dafa material sites or materials from the Internet. I downloaded the material from the computer myself. Later, the practitioners at the material sites made a lot of small posters. Whenever fellow practitioners delivered them to me, I would go outside to post them. From 7 p.m. to 8 p.m., I posted them by myself and could finish 100 copies in one hour. Before and during the posting, I would send forth righteous thoughts. I posted 300 posters in 3-5 days. Whenever I passed the posters that I put up, I thought that more people would know the facts about Falun Dafa. I sometimes posted on busy streets or at night markets. I was extremely delighted when I finished posting.
When I went to Beijing for business, I would post posters in telephone booths and on advisement boards near the office of Beijing City Committees. The most common thing I did was mail letters to clarify the truth. I got about ten thousand mailing addresses of hotels, companies, plants and many other trades from the yellow pages. I mailed the material to 'person in charge', 'general manager', 'office director' or 'entrance guard' etc. In 2002 I obtained a detailed telephone book which contained the names of leaders in different levels in our province. This time I directly addressed the letter to the specific person, including the governor of the province, secretary of the Provincial Party Committee, director of provincial police department, and director the 610 Office. Afterwards I bought telephone books from my province, other nearby provinces, and the whole country. For years I continually sent out tens of thousands of letters.
I read each edition of Minghui Weekly very earnestly. I took reading Minghui (Chinese version of Clearwisdom) as a Fa conference under the special circumstances of the persecution. Although I did not submit an article to the conference, it was very helpful for my improvement to read fellow practitioners articles.
Fa: Law and principles
Aunt: a term of affection and respect, normally referring to older women.