Rectifying Myself before Validating Falun Dafa
(Clearwisdom, July 7) I have been practicing Falun Gong for over seven years. But because I didn't cultivate well, I wrote some ambiguous "materials" that the authorities seized upon and exploited, which caused negative effects. I felt remorseful for this.
On June 25 this year (2003), the officials in my workplace let me write an "ideological progress and problematic" that made me nervous and worried at that moment. In the beginning, I decided not to write it to deny the intentions of the evil force, but later I looked within and asked, "Why does the evil force keep bothering me?" Did I have a loophole in my cultivation? In the past I was unwilling to write what they wanted and dared not to write what I needed to say either. Eventually I took an equivocal attitude and wrote something with double meaning. Didn't they catch my attachment of fear? So this time I must write the truth of Falun Dafa and the facts about my cultivation practice.
Upon hearing this, my mother and elder sister tried to persuade me over the phone to fabricate some stories to deal with the authorities. I told them, "If I did what you told me, I wouldn't feel at ease nor justified, because I couldn't face my own conscience." At last they agreed with me.
When I wrote truth-clarifying materials that night, I kept being interfered with, so I sent forth righteous thoughts that eliminated the evil factors from time to time. I explained the facts about Falun Dafa and my cultivation experience and mentioned the karmic retribution that came to those who persecuted Falun Gong practitioners. In addition, I asked them to think twice before they acted. Teacher says in "Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference", "The Fa is merciful to all beings, but at the same time it's solemn and dignified."
I faxed what I wrote to the boss in my workplace. The next day they asked me to report in person to the headquarters. My fellow practitioners were worried it would be a trap and didn't want me to go there, but I didn't think it would work if I avoided them. On the other hand, it would be an opportunity to clarify the truth and validate Falun Dafa. It might be a chance for them to get saved. Paying much attention to validating the Fa on my trip, I asked fellow practitioners to help me eliminate the evil factors in other dimensions through sending forth righteous thoughts as a group.
On the night of June 29, I went to the headquarters by car. On the way, three colleagues willfully made trouble and slandered Falun Gong and me with malicious words. For the moment I smiled and sent forth righteous thoughts in my mind and they fell into sleep right away. I told myself to keep a sober mind so as to leave no loopholes for the evil force to take advantage of. Once I let go of my attachment, I became brave. At my workplace, I told everyone I met the truth about Falun Gong openly, with wisdom and dignity. Then I realized I was coming to save the people.
On the afternoon of June 30, my boss told me the leaders in the workplace were shocked and scared after reading the materials I wrote, because what they worried about was their benefits. They were concerned that their future plans would be ruined by higher level authorities because of me. I replied that I didn't have the intention to hurt anyone and it was not my fault because I just spoke the truth at their request. The bosses had no alternative but to accept the fact that I practiced Falun Gong. For being treated unfairly during the last two years, I asked them to make corrections and allow me to resume my regular benefits in order to safeguard my rights as a citizen and a Falun Gong practitioner. They promised to consider my request. My family members were happy upon hearing this. My feeling was that I needed to rectify my heart first before validating the Fa. Righteous thoughts overcome all evil factors. When we keep our righteous mind and actions, the outcome will naturally be good.
Written by a practitioner in China on 2003-7-7