After Solemn Declaration
(Clearwisdom.net report on May 13th, 2003)
I never expected it, but as soon as I submitted my solemn declaration, I truly felt that the long-term pressure that had surrounded me and made me uncomfortable all the time vanished in an instant. My whole body felt lightened all of the sudden, and everything felt so free and easy like never before. I knew that this happened because I exposed the evil, and it had no place to hide inside my body anymore. At the same time, I knew that Master with his grand compassion and mercy had cleaned my body.
In the summer of 2000, my mother was unjustly detained because she went to Tiananmen to validate the Fa. In order to rescue her quickly, I wrote a "guarantee." Almost three years have gone by. I do not remember what exactly I wrote, but I'm sure that I did not write anything saying that I would "stop practicing," or saying that Dafa was bad. I saw so many solemn declarations everyday on Clearwisdom.net, but I did not pay attention to them, thinking that they had nothing to do with me. Articles which emphasized the importance of solemn declarations kept appearing on Clearwisdom.
This problem interfered with me for a long period of time. I knew that I had played word tricks when I wrote the "guarantee," but even so, what I was doing was actually giving in to the evil. I did not have the courage to face it. I was cleaning up my old papers, and found a piece of paper I wrote to the police in 2000 that I had not thrown away. I felt it did not conform with the behavior of a Fa-rectification period Dafa practitioner, and decided to publish a solemn declaration.
I have cultivated for five years, and have experienced the power and magnificence of Dafa. However, the instantaneous, huge physical change that I experienced so deeply after submitting my solemn declaration made me enlighten that I should write my experience out as a reference to my fellow practitioners who have not enlightened to this point.
When I calmed down, I tried to figure out what had been blocking me from taking this step on my cultivation path, and what had made me stuck at this level for such a long time without breaking through. I guess I was never willing to face my attachment fundamentally, let alone did I have the courage to expose it. I used to find all sorts of excuses to cover it up. As a cultivator I should look inwards, and so although I had spotted this attachment, I was reluctant to admit it. I clearly knew that this behavior was the same as the old forces' conduct, but I still held on to it, and refused to let go. I gave the evil old forces a space to live, and I paid for this field with my physical state. I felt a long-term oppressive force around my chest area, it was hard to breathe, often forcing me to take deep breaths. My shoulder blades were in great pain. I could not concentrate while reading. I knew this was not the right state of a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple, but I could not figure out what I had done to cause this.
Master said in Lecturing on and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference,
"...all of you who have done things that aren't befitting the positions of Dafa disciples, you'd better talk about them openly. That way, many things of yours will be eliminated..."
What Master said is the Fa, and it will manifest the power of the Fa. When I realized that I should publish a solemn declaration, and submitted it, all these discomforts vanished instantly. Master said in Zhuan Falun,
"When your character improves, your body really changes. When your character improves, the matter in your body definitely changes" ("The First Talk: Why Doing Cultivation Exercises Doesn't Increase Gong")
Master said in his article "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s),"
"At present, the evil in the cosmic body has already been completely eliminated, and the Fa has finished rectifying the Three Realms (Essentials for Further Advancement II)."
In fact, the evil is hiding in our own dimensions blocked from the Fa-rectification. Once we expose this evil, they will have no place to hide.
I wrote these thoughts down, and hope to warn fellow practitioners who have not enlightened to this point, please do not miss this unprecedented chance in Fa-rectification. My level is limited, so please point out any mistakes.