Precious Memories (Part II)
Remembering the second half of 2001, Dafa practitioners had a lot of difficulties finding each other and there were only a few truth clarifying materials available due to the evil's persecution. Practitioners were not able to read Teacher's new articles when they were published and they were unable to hold any large experience sharing events. Under all of the pressures, I came to clearly understand the responsibility that each Dafa disciple has of saving sentient beings and I did not wait or depend on anyone's help. I started to use all possible ways to re-establish contact with the veteran practitioners I used to know and re-form the new practitioners' group in my local area. For those practitioners who were misled by the evil propaganda, I never gave up hope in them under any circumstances and offered them encouragement. Teacher would not leave any true practitioners behind and this reminded me of something that happened back in the beginning of 1994.
One veteran practitioner told me that in the early days of the lecture classes in China, every student would fill out a survey about their health conditions and Teacher would read them over one by one. The number of students was increasing tremendously at that time. They were coming from all over China. Sometimes Teacher's seminar helpers would wake up early in the morning to find him still reading through the surveys one by one. After each lecture, Teacher always asked every student to write up their experiences so that he could read them. There were so many students. Who could imagine just how many papers Teacher read through every day? Some of the students who helped Teacher run the seminars used to say, "I do not know when Teacher goes to sleep. Usually when it is dawn, I still see him concentrating on reading through the experience sharing papers." Whenever I saw Teacher back then, he had students' experience sharing papers with him wherever he went and would read them whenever he had free time. He was truly responsible to each and every one of his students! Sometimes I saw that some of the students' reports were very messy and difficult to read and I really felt sorry for Teacher to have to try and read them all. Even in everyday life, reports handed in to our teachers and supervisors need to be neat and orderly.
Many practitioners, even to this day, may not truly realize just how difficult it was for Teacher to look after all of his students back then, but he never gave up hope in any one of them despite this. Our Teacher will not give up on a single pre-destined relationship and this demonstrates how great and kind and compassionate he is. All of this is like what he said in "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" (Essentials for Further Advancement II), "The truth is, I treasure you more than you treasure yourselves!" Teacher has indeed borne a tremendous amount for his disciples and all sentient beings!
In this light, I realized that it is every practitioner's responsibility to help and encourage each other in the Fa-rectification period, and to never give up hope in those practitioners who have been misled by the evil's propaganda. After realizing this, I began to contact more practitioners and together as a group we started sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil beings that persecute Dafa and Dafa practitioners and lead practitioners astray. I sent forth righteous thoughts to all practitioners that used to practice Dafa but have given up and told them that this kind of opportunity is very hard to come by and not to fall behind in the Fa-rectification period.
I did not step out to validate Dafa and expose the evil in the beginning stages of Fa rectification. At that time, I did not know what to do, and stayed home to study the Fa all day long, thinking that I was on the right track. But starting in the year 2000 when Teacher published his new articles beginning with "The Knowing Heart" onward, I awakened to my responsibility to step out and validate Dafa and expose the evil. In "Rationality" (Essentials for Further Advancement II), Teacher says, "You must let the world's people know about their evilness--this is saving people, as well." When I decided to step out, I couldn't find any truth clarifying materials and I thought that if I could only get a copy of some truth clarifying materials I would know what to do next. So I decided not to wait and immediately took action to make some materials myself. After stepping out to validate Dafa a little bit, I studied the Fa again and felt that Teacher had been very clear about the need to step forward. Why was I unable to realize this earlier? After looking inside myself I found the reason: my attachments to selfishness, fear, and my stubborn mentality that always thinks I am right, combined with an irresponsible attitude and an unrighteous heart. Around the National Day of 2000, I could not wait any more and carried a banner that read "The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos" to Tiananmen Square along with several other practitioners.
I still remember vividly what happened on Tiananmen Square that day. There were around one hundred practitioners who had come to the center of the square, and I was among them. Plainclothes and uniformed police and police cars were everywhere looking for Falun Dafa practitioners. My mind was very righteous and I did not have any fear in my heart when I unfolded the banner reading, "The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos". When the police and their cars came over to grab me, I looked at them and said: "What are you doing?" As soon as I said this they looked like they had gotten an electric shock and released their hands from me and stepped back simultaneously. I experienced the magnificent and mighty power of "One righteous mind can subdue one hundred evils." (Zhuan Falun) I returned home safely that same day, and immediately took some truth clarifying materials to go out and continue to validate the Fa and walk my new path of Fa rectification.
Please see http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2003/2/18/32266.html for Part I of the story.