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Solemn Declaration

I am writing this declaration with my deepest regret. I wish to wash away the disgrace I caused to Dafa.

When Dafa and our teacher were viciously attacked and defamed, I told people Dafa was good based on my personal experience. As a result, I was sent to the forced labor camp.

In the labor camp, those police were unable to persuade me or change my belief. It is not because I am talkative but because Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa. It teaches people to cherish virtue and become good people. It is the indestructible truth. Every practitioner knows this from his heart. However, while I was able to resist the pressure from outside, I was unable to resist the deviated concepts from inside. I listened and believed some ridiculous talk. Under its influence, some of us were forced to write an article to denounce Dafa. After five additional months of supervision, I was thought to have a "stable mind" and released. Although we are physically free now, our hearts are uneasy and not released from the regret and guilt. Can we be considered true practitioners? Isn't this damaging Dafa? Dafa creates everything in this universe. If there had not been Dafa, there would not have been anything. Today Dafa is widely spreading in this human world to offer salvation to people. Everyone should calm down and think about it: Is this human world deteriorated? Fa rectification is to rectify anything that is not good. It rectifies human hearts and brings people to a bright future.

We had obtained the Fa and know all the goodness of Dafa. However, we only dared to practice at home. How selfish and filthy minded we were! How much negative effect would this bring to the Fa? Especially when we followed the wrong thoughts at the labor camp, what crimed we have committed! When I think about this, I regret it so much that I cannot hold back my tears. I am in debt to our Teacher and Dafa! Now I wish to make up for the damage I have done to Dafa. I solemnly declare: Everything I wrote in the labor camp to denounce Dafa under the pressure and bad influence is invalid. I wish to wash away this disgrace in my path of cultivation. I am firmly determined to catch up with the pace of Fa rectification.

A regretful practitioner: Li Yan

Jan 30^th 2002

http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/2/11/24749.html

I have not been courageous enough to write my experience before. As soon as I attempted to write, the attachment of fear would interfere with me. Today I am determined to expose all things that are not conforming to the criteria of Dafa and completely eliminate them.

In July 1999, I went to the provincial government to appeal peacefully. However, when I heard that the government banned Falun Dafa, I told myself to hurry home. I did not think about the fact that the Fa and our Teacher had been slandered and attacked. As a practitioner, why could I not step forth to clarify the truth? The next day after I got home, the police from a local security office came and asked me whether I still practiced Falun Gong. He asked me to sign a "guarantee paper" that was already printed out. Out of my fear of the evil forces, I signed the paper.

In March 2000, other practitioners and I went to appeal in Beijing. I was sent back even before I arrived in Beijing. This time I had a selfish thought and was afraid of being left behind. And once again I wrote a "guarantee paper."

In July 2001, another practitioner and I went out to distribute Dafa materials. Two evil policemen found us and took us to the detention center. When interrogated, I once again yielded to the evil. When I calmed down and looked within, I found the following reasons:

1. The fundamental reason is that I did not firmly believe in our Teacher and Dafa. This is a fundamental issue.
2. Imagination and fear: I imagined all the detailed consequences even before things happened. The more I thought, the more afraid I became. This would hold me back from striving forward.
3. Attached to sentimentality of family.
4. I did not study the Fa diligently, which caused me not to be able to let the Fa guide everything I did and said. When there was not much Fa in my mind, the twisted notions would interfere with me. Although I stepped forward physically, my mind was still in the state of an ordinary person. Thus, I was an ordinary person working for the Fa. In order to strive forward and improve, I must abandon the human notions that had formed for hundreds and thousands of years. I need to rid the shell of human notions and strengthen my main consciousness. Every minute one has to use righteous thoughts to look at everything. I must examine myself and make sure I have fundamentally changed. Here I solemnly declare: Everything I have said and written to denounce Dafa is invalid. I will start all over, eliminate the disgrace and make up for the damage I've caused to Dafa. I will keep up with the pace of Fa rectification and become a true practitioner.

Hua Guiwen

Jan 10^th 2002

http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/2/16/25067.html