(Clearwisdom.net) When I first started to send forth righteous thoughts, I had many uncertainties. I didn't feel that there was much of an effect when I was doing it. At the 2001 Canada Falun Dafa Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference, Master said, "But if you use this for something a cultivator shouldn't do, it won't work; as soon as the thought arises, retribution will follow or your level will drop." I couldn't understand this clearly and was afraid of dropping a level if I had an incorrect thought.

One day, an article on Clearwisdom.net awakened my righteous thoughts. I realized that I should no longer hang on to my own shortcomings and attachments, and that I should send forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate the evil. At that moment, I felt a strong current of energy flowing upward through my body. Through this I could truly feel the effects of our righteous thoughts. After sending forth righteous thoughts at the three specific times, I didn't feel tired or weak like I used to. Instead, each time I sent forth righteous thoughts, I felt the energy become stronger than it was the previous time. Especially the third time, when I was doing the Big Lotus Palm [a hand gesture in Falun Dafa practice], a benevolent feeling suddenly rose in my heart and I understood the deeper meaning of the words in Master's poem "New Life", "The decayed extinguished, the bright light illuminating." I burst into tears when I was finished. Outside it was storming, with heavy rain and loud thunder. At that moment my heart was full of gratefulness to our Master and benevolence to all sentient beings.

Recently my fundamental human attachment was exposed. I was experiencing a lot of interference when sending forth righteous thoughts and while sleeping. I started to doubt myself and was in a passive state when dealing with this interference. As a result I felt myself becoming weaker and weaker. One night, soon after falling asleep, groups of evil beings began to attack me. Even though I weakly recited the verse, "The Fa rectifies the Cosmos, the Evil is completely eliminated" with doubts in my heart, the evil beings were still eliminated group by group. But such an experience still didn't awaken me to strengthen my righteous thoughts and courage. Near the end, when a large, dark evil being came, I was even too scared to continue reciting the verse, so it beat me without much effort.

After this experience I wondered if righteous thoughts could be sent forth while still holding onto fundamental human attachments? After a thorough self-examination, I found three deeply rooted human attachments: the show-off mentality, zealotry, and the hidden mentality of pursuing Consummation. After repeatedly reading through Master's recent articles, I developed a clear understanding about the attachment to personal cultivation and one's mission during the Fa-rectification process as a practitioner.

That evening, when evil beings started to attack me again, I kept reciting the Fa rectification verses with confidence. Even when the evil was near death, it still wanted to try to shake me. They said things like, "You're protecting yourself and this is for yourself," because these sorts of thoughts used to make me hesitate. This time I sternly warned them and I was very clear, "If it is my own tribulation, I will endure it. However, you are not allowed, under any circumstances, to take advantage of me in order to persecute Dafa. The evil must be completely eliminated." They stopped attacking me and I fell asleep in peace.

Today when I felt exhausted, I realized that I should eliminate the evil beings actively instead of merely responding passively. Immediately, when I started to sit with my legs double-crossed, all kinds of interference came up to try to force me to give up. Then my legs slipped down. I realized that I should not follow them. After overcoming some obstacles, I calmed down and crossed my legs again. I concentrated my attention on eliminating my own bad thoughts. After reciting the verse silently three times, I felt a current of energy rising up from my Dan Tian [field of Dan, an energy cluster located at the lower abdominal area] and instantly moving up in spiral rotation all the way to the top of my head. Then a cloud of powerful red light covered me, which suddenly increased my strength. This time I spent 20 minutes eliminating the evil beings. At some point during this period, I felt that all of the noise around me had disappeared and with this the whole area surrounding me became tranquil. This time I successfully completed the task of eliminating the evil with righteous thoughts.