Fulfilling My Solemn Declaration: Starting Over Again and Performing Fa-Rectification on Tiananmen Square
(Clearwisdom.net) Last year I was taken to a detention center after I was arrested while distributing truth-clarifying materials. In the detention center, I saw with my own eyes that the guards cruelly beat Falun Dafa practitioners. At first several other practitioners and I went on a hunger strike to protest our illegal detention and persecution. After 7 days I was sent to a forced labor camp. At the camp I was not able to resist the intense persecution, because of my everyday human thoughts. After I was released from the labor camp, I deeply felt that I had not done well. I even thought that I was not qualified to be Master's disciple. Master said, "All the so-called 'reformed' are those who stepped forward without putting down the attachment to humanness and with trusting to luck." ("Suggestion") [draft translation, subject to further improvement]. I was overcome with grief, and for several days my eyes were swollen from crying. Even so, I still wanted to study Dafa; this desire must have come out of my true nature. I accessed some recent Falun Dafa articles, and saw the article from the Minghui Editors, "Double Your Efforts to Make Amends, Catch up With the Fa-Rectification Process". I understood that Master was giving me a hint. Master had not given up on me, a disciple who didn't do well. Master said, "Master's heart has always been pained by those who have fallen, ..." ("Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples"). I knew I should let Master see that I would start over again and firmly follow the Fa. I started by setting very strict requirements for myself: I practice the 5 sets of exercises every day and study the Fa every day. I clarify the truth about Falun Dafa to all people that I come into contact with, because I witnessed and experienced first-hand the viciousness of the forced labor camp. I also send out truth-clarifying materials.
In the process of studying the Fa, practicing the exercises and clarifying the truth, my mind-heart nature constantly improved. More and more I felt I that should go to Beijing to verify Dafa and honor my vow. I felt that it would not be genuine cultivation if I could not do this. I shared this thought with my daughter and she gave me great support. I made a banner with the words "Falun Dafa is Good!" Before I left for Beijing, I told Master that I was going to fulfill my prehistoric vow, and I would come back within two days. At that time I felt very calm and confident without even a bit of fear. I simply felt that this was what I should do. I felt that I could come back in two days, and in my mind I had no concept of being arrested.
I sent out righteous thoughts on the way to Beijing. When I and another Falun Dafa practitioner arrived at Tiananmen Square, there were many policemen on the Square and a police car to the east of Jinshui Bridge. They were really ready, in full battle array. We started to send out righteous thoughts, "The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the Evil is completely eliminated." All the police cars of the vicious police in front of Tiananmen left -- nobody could get close to our powerful, righteous field. Nobody could stop us from fulfilling our vows. After a while the police car to the east of Jinshui Bridge was driven away, and later the other policemen all left too. We immediately walked onto the Square, unfolded our banner and called out loudly, "Falun Dafa is good! Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa! Restore my Master's pure reputation!" At that moment I really felt as tall as heaven and incomparably noble. When we unfolded our banner, a man nearby pointed to us and said, "Here comes another group."
It was just two days from the time we left home until we returned. We were very excited. All of this was arranged by Master. Compassionate Master, I, as a Dafa disciple, will absolutely redouble my efforts to make amends, and cultivate back as soon as possible.
December 15, 2001