How Shall I Tell My Little Daughter about Her Dad's Wrongful Death?
(Clearwisdom.net) I remember a proverb, "Happy families are all alike, but unfortunate families all have different misfortunes." But what I am going to say now is "My family is suffering the same misfortune as tens of thousands of Chinese families."
One day in July, my roommate, with unusually solemn looks, gave me some printed news downloaded from the Internet. I was shocked just reading the title "Chen Chengyong, Falun Dafa practitioner forced to become destitute, is persecuted to death," -- because Chen Chengyong is my husband! I dared not to trust my eyes. After wiping my eyes, I read it again. It was real! Such grievous news made me quiver all over. I was feeling faint and dizzy as if everything was spinning around, and couldn't get myself under control... For a long time, my roommate consoled me as her tears fell, and gently held me with her hands at the bed of my daughter who bears a strong resemblance to her dad. Looking through tears at my fifteen-month old baby who had lost her father, I felt my heart had been torn apart, and my body kept shaking.
While immersed in grief, the following misfortunes struck me further. My sister-in-law (also a Falun Gong practitioner) was abducted into a brainwashing class (created by Jiang's regime, for the illegal detention of Falun Gong practitioners) when she went to identify my husband's body. The perpetrators tried to force her to renounce practicing Falun Gong, but she sternly refused because she believed in the principles of Falun Dafa, "Truth, Compassion, and Tolerance," and insisted on the freedom of belief as a basic human right. But the police, being blinded by lust for gain, not only had no pity on her brother who just passed away, but in August they also illegally sentenced her to two years in a forced labor camp. My father-in-law couldn't take the sorrow of losing his young son and the instant imprisonment of his beloved daughter. In September the elderly man passed away from grieving. Being hit by these tragedies one after another, I was plunged into tremendous sadness.
I am frightened by the terror of knowing that within only two months, two of these three family members died tragic deaths, and the other was imprisoned. I don't have the courage to get my husband's remains back from China, where the authorities are placing the Falun Gong practitioners in a hell on earth. I regret that I complied with my husband's decision not come to join me in Australia when I was going back to live in the hometown where I was born. Jiang XX now has made the country, with such a long history and ancient civilization, into a state of terrorism. In which direction is China going? I am lost. In my native country, why is the ruling regime so inhuman to the Falun Gong practitioners' adherence to following "Truthfulness, Benevolence, and Forbearance?" I remain puzzled despite much thought.
My father-in-law had been a critically ill patient diagnosed with uremia, a fatal disease incurable by both modern and traditional Chinese medicine. He had spent a lot of money on medical fees in his quest to become well. Miraculously, his disease disappeared after practicing Falun Gong, giving him a second life. The miracle produced wide repercussions in the neighborhood and in the paper plant where he used to work. It attracted many people to join the practice of Falun Gong. But on July 20, 1999, Jiang XX started to persecute Falun Gong. The old man told the police, "If I were to stop practicing Falun Gong, I would die." The cops replied, "We know Falun Gong saved your life. But since it is the order from the top to outlaw Falun Gong, we have no alternative but to follow the instruction." Falun Gong brought the old man back to life, but Jiang's regime took his life again.
My husband and his sister knew Falun Dafa's goodness in their hearts, and the whole family had greatly benefited from it. As upright persons, they knew to requite kindness with gratitude; they understood the great importance of calling for justice for Falun Dafa. As Chinese citizens they had the responsibility to clarify the government's wrong decision on Falun Gong. Using their constitutional rights, they went to the provincial government and to Beijing to appeal. However, they were arrested again and again, and eventually were fired by their workplaces. Their colleagues said, "They are persons of excellent character, and work so diligently, but got fired. Where on earth is the justice?" Yes, where is the justice in China?
What has happened to my husband, and the news about his death by persecution, keeps coming to my mind. He had been homeless and destitute since November 2000 to avoid the illegal brainwashing plotted by Jiang's state terrorist regime. We kept in contact until January 10, 2001. He was very healthy. With Jiang's regime detaining more and more Falun Gong practitioners in brainwashing classes, the worsening situation made his life harder day by day; then I lost contact with him. As I knew our phone calls had been taped in China, had I inquired about where he was it would have brought him into more danger. All I could do was send blessings in my heart and wish for his safety. But what I got from the news in July was "Recently Chen Chengyong died in a thatched shed. When identifying the corpse, his sister found it was decomposed and it smelled somewhat. It is estimated that he had been dead for a period of time before the police notified the family..."
I have been in deep sorrow over my husband's tragic death; I have been in extreme bitterness for my young daughter who has lost her father forever, before she can even say "Daddy." My husband liked her very much. The first picture taken when our daughter was six months old has become the only memento of my family. Whenever I call my daughter's name, "Fadu" (Fa Save), which was given by my husband, and see her innocently kissing the picture, my heart is bleeding. I have no idea how to tell my growing daughter about her father's miserable death; I don't know what the terror will bring to her. My mind is in turmoil when I face all of this. But one thing I know from the very beginning, is that it is Jiang's regime that cruelly persecutes Falun Gong, and it is the persecution that killed my husband and brings misery to tens of thousands of families like mine. Jiang XX is the prime culprit committing the crime.
For several months I couldn't do anything due to my severe suffering. I didn't even have the energy to hold a pen until today. The first thing I must do is to tell the people about the miserable experiences of my family. I am appealing for support from all compassionate people, to urgently help rescue the Chinese Falun Gong practitioners suffering cruel persecution like my husband, and I am calling on the voice of justice from all organizations of justice and all people of justice, to stop the inhuman persecution of Falun Gong practitioners. One letter, one signature, and one resolution from you will suffocate the evil force's savage acts and will keep other families like mine from suffering the same tragedy. Each of your transmission of truth telling would clarify the truth to those who are deluded. It would also allow those blind order-followers to understand the principle that "Good is rewarded with good, and evil meets evil," and save those who are heading to the abyss of hell.
Written in Sydney, Australia on 12/12/01