(Minghui.org) I was released from prison a year ago. During the several years of incarceration, I never had the slightest thought of giving up cultivation practice. Every day, I reminded myself to firmly believe in Master Li, firmly cultivate Dafa, and maintain steadfast righteous thoughts.
In prison, I persisted in reciting the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts. Whenever I encountered other Dafa practitioners, we would find ways to encourage and remind one another to stay firm in our faith. I seized every opportunity to resist the persecution and clarify the truth to the inmates and guards. Especially in the detention center, where I was held before being sentenced to prison, I persisted in doing what a practitioner should do every day. I refused to call out my assigned inmate number, refused to cooperate with any unreasonable demands, and did not acknowledge that I had violated any laws or committed any crimes.
I wrote over a dozen letters and submitted them to the Procuratorate and the court. The detention center guards went from interfering with me at first to no longer bothering me, and some even helped me submit letters. I got along well with everyone there. I taught them to recite “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” and the vast majority of them quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations. Of course, none of this would have been possible without Master’s encouragement and strengthening. He also allowed me to experience the Falun (law wheel) rotating in my body from time to time.
As soon as I returned home, I received care and help from fellow practitioners, who promptly resolved my urgent needs. I am infinitely grateful to Master and these practitioners.
During those years of incarceration, I hadn’t been able to study the Fa comprehensively. So I required myself to concentrate and calmly study all of Master’s teachings in a short period of time. In this way, I spent three months studying Zhuan Falun and all of the supplemental teachings. Fellow practitioners helped me obtain Master’s lectures from recent years, and I studied them with even greater eagerness. Master’s sacred grace shook my soul. No matter what I do, I can never repay even a fraction of his immense compassion. I resolved to walk well the path Master arranged, listen to his words, let go of all attachments, and do the three things well.
During this time, whenever I had any attachment, Master would promptly give me hints. Whenever I had any thoughts, as long as they were in accordance with the Fa, Master would give me wisdom. Whenever practitioners kindly reminded me, I would promptly look within, rectify myself, and sincerely thank them from the bottom of my heart.
Master quickly helped cleanse my body from head to toe. I was vomiting and had diarrhea. These episodes occurred 10 to 20 times a day. On the third day, I was lying on the sofa and inadvertently rubbed my belly. It felt like a pond of water, and the sloshing sound was audible. I thought this water must be in another dimension. I didn’t take it seriously, clearly knowing that Master was helping cleanse my body. I continued to study the Fa, do the exercises, and do housework as usual. My body had no other adverse reactions, and I remained energetic as always.
My family members, who don’t cultivate Dafa, were a bit worried and asked if I had eaten something bad or had food poisoning. I told them it was nothing. They were able to see that I had none of the typical adverse reactions that ordinary people have when they experience those symptoms. After four days passed, my family became even more convinced of Dafa’s extraordinary and miraculous nature.
My body went through several more significant cleansing states, one after another. While walking, I twisted my right ankle, but the next day it was my left foot that was in great pain. I pressed my finger on the painful spot, and the sensation was like dipping into an abyss. I didn’t take that seriously, either. My family also knew that Master was helping cleanse my body, so they no longer worried about me.
My family has always been very respectful of Master and Dafa. I have helped fellow practitioners send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the false appearance of sickness karma many times and witnessed the miraculous results. They know about all of them. My family members have also benefited from Dafa to varying degrees. So when I was persecuted multiple times, they were able to view it correctly. They didn’t blame me or Dafa, knowing that it was the CCP doing bad things.
During an exchange with fellow practitioners, a practitioner shared how she dealt with government officials who came to her home to harass her. She said that we should not be affected by the matter itself, but maintain a compassionate and peaceful mindset, use a calm tone to clarify the truth, and urge them to be good persons. Because her starting point was based on the Fa, she turned perilous situations around several times.
After hearing this, I was deeply moved. Suddenly, I found the main reasons why I was persecuted this last time. First, it was the poison of CCP culture—the mentality of struggle and resentment. Every time the authorities came to find me, my first thought was that I found them annoying, thinking they were a stick the Party used to persecute good people. I didn’t listen to Master’s words and treat them as sentient beings who had come to hear the truth and be saved. I only superficially chatted with them. And when clarifying the truth, I couldn’t generate compassion and sometimes even argued with them.
The second issue was my fear of the Party—the attachment of fear. Because I had experienced persecution before, that fear would pop up from time to time. So when I encountered them, I often had the attachment of protecting myself, and I didn’t truly face them with equanimity. Little did I know that this was exactly the excuse the evil in other dimensions grabbed onto to persecute me. At that time, I didn’t realize this was a form of acknowledging the persecution, so I didn’t promptly send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it.
Finally, I used the CCP’s methods of dealing with them, which brought out their evil nature, causing them to retaliate against me through arrest and persecution. After finding these shortcomings, my whole being felt as if reborn.
Through studying Master’s Great Law, I discovered that, in many aspects of my cultivation, I hadn’t truly measured myself against the Fa’s standards and genuinely cultivated. For example, every time I studied the parts about how mainland Chinese people all carry aspects of CCP culture, I never thought it applied to me. I now realize that if you don’t act according to the Fa’s requirements, are you still a Dafa disciple? If you don’t elevate in the Fa and you continue to carry all kinds of attachments, the old forces will exploit your gaps!
This persecution happened precisely because I hadn’t clearly recognized the evil nature of CCP culture and hadn’t promptly eliminated its poison. I now clearly recognize that, even if I have gaps on my cultivation path, it has nothing to do with the old forces! I am a Dafa disciple. I only cultivate in Dafa, rectify myself in Dafa, and only walk the path Master has arranged. I don’t want and don’t acknowledge any other arrangements.
Recently, I finished reading the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party for the first time. I also read other books and watched videos on this topic, and only then did I recognize the true nature of Party culture and its poisonous effect on the Chinese people. I found many notions and behaviors of CCP culture in myself. I don’t acknowledge them. I want to thoroughly remove the poisonous roots of CCP culture!
I have deeply sensed Master’s orderly, step-by-step arrangements. I had been away from the environment of genuine cultivation for several years, so I wanted to restore and perfect many aspects of my character as quickly as possible. Therefore, I often asked Master to arrange the best things for me, even though I didn’t realize some of my intentions were mixed with ordinary attachments.
Fellow practitioners also helped me to recognize and let go of attachments. Sometimes, what I had just asked Master for guidance about immediately appeared—to my great surprise. For example, practitioners with technical expertise suddenly coming to help out. Master also arranged for many predestined people to come near me to hear the truth.
I discovered that regardless of whether I asked Master or not, every single thing along my journey has been perfectly arranged. I am infinitely grateful to Master. I will do the three things well to repay his immense saving grace.
The above are some of my current reflections. If there is anything not in accordance with the Fa, please compassionately point it out.