(Minghui.org) The incident talked about in this article happened more than 10 years ago. As farmers, we work long and physically exhausting hours, planting and harvesting ginger.
Even though I said I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, I rarely studied the Fa or did the exercises. I did not cultivate my character and was no different from an ordinary person. I only remembered the phrase, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” Around autumn, I started suffering from lower back pain. I was able to slowly bend at my waist, but as time passed, the pain intensified.
An elderly practitioner and my sister started visiting me in an effort to help me. Despite searching relentlessly for the root cause we never found it, but my back pain worsened. This elderly practitioner drove me on her tricycle to fellow practitioners’ homes to study the Fa and discuss my issues. But, the pain in my back continued.
I had not been looking inward and only cultivated superficially. I did not dig deeper to discover my many attachments. My attachments included lustful thoughts, a competitive mentality, an inability to accept criticism, an attachment to showing off, jealousy, and many more. Why wouldn’t the old forces seize the chance to persecute me? I did not realize this at the time, and almost went to the hospital. Fortunately, my sister convinced me not to go, telling me my symptoms were all illusions. I’m grateful to her for this advice.
At the start of my ordeal, I could still do the exercises and meditate. But nearly a month later, I saw no breakthrough and my condition worsened. I was unable to identify my fundamental attachments, and only knew that I did not behave like a practitioner. After a month, my pain got to the point where I could no longer bend over to wash my hands or lift a kettle. It was as though the bones in my waist fractured, and I could only move a few centimeters with each step. That night I wanted to do the exercises, and so I slept in a room by myself.
I was able to do the exercises with some effort, but I could barely stretch my body and even had to brace myself when I felt a cough coming. I tried meditating but I was unable to sit. Even lying down to sleep was impossible.
I realized that this was an attempt by the old forces to destroy me. So I told the old forces: My life belongs to Master, so why should I listen to you? You are making it impossible for me to sleep? I’d rather not sleep! I want to go out and save sentient beings.
I packed a torch light, two bags of brochures and stickers which were imprinted with, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” At first, I could hardly walk more than a few centimeters with each step. If this were broad daylight, I would have appeared highly comical to any passerby. But at one a.m., the roads were pitch black and deserted. I thought to myself: I’m not afraid of anything. I have Master by my side, and all difficulties will vanish because my intention is to save sentient beings.
I placed brochures at each doorway, moving one step at a time. I only had one thought: “I want to save people.” I walked from east to west, south to north. As dawn was nearing, I realized that I was walking normally. I got home at six or seven a.m. to find my back no longer hurt! I thanked compassionate Master for helping me eliminate my karma.
We used to go near the county police agency and police station on the 15th of every month, so we could send forth righteous thoughts in close proximity. The day after my miraculous recovery, I cycled there with my sister and fellow practitioners. My back pain was resolved after more than a month, allowing me to realize the truth in Master’s words, “When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn the tide.” (“The Master-Disciple Bond,” Hong Yin II)
The false symptoms of lower back pain occurred because I had not cultivated or done the three things well. Although it’s important for practitioners to help each other look inward, we need to make sure we believe in Master and the Fa and have righteous thoughts. Only then can Master help resolve our tribulations.