(Minghui.org) A friend said he urgently needed money a few years ago, so I lent him 20,000 yuan (US $2,746) without hesitation. I saw him two years later and mentioned the money he borrowed. He denied it. I asked, “Did you forget? You gave me 5,000 yuan last year, and said you would repay the remaining 15,000 yuan later. Two others were present at the time.”

He said I was mistaken. I was so upset that I shook. I felt uncomfortable and wronged and thought, “How could I have such a friend? He has no conscience.”

I was obsessed with fame and fortune, and I couldn’t eat or sleep well. My wife who also practices Falun Dafa told me, “Forget it, maybe you owed him in a previous lifetime. Maybe you’re losing money so you’ll avoid disaster. Just consider it as paying off your debt. We are cultivators, don’t be angry with him.” I knew my wife was right. But even though I said I let it go I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

A few days ago a friend’s son got married. I saw the man who owed me money at the gathering. I couldn’t stand it and kept saying, “Why doesn’t this man get retribution?” I didn’t realize I was resentful.

I couldn’t calm down afterwards. My heart raced and my blood sugar rose. I began losing weight. One morning, my wife and I finished reading a lecture in Zhuan Falun and then we read the Minghui Article Collection. I read a few pages of the collection titled, “Eliminating Resentment.” The articles touched me. I thought, “Isn’t this talking about me? I also have resentment. I resent the person who owes me money and I want him to receive retribution. Aren’t I behaving like an ordinary person? Doesn’t the desire for fame and fortune cause people trouble?”

The more I thought about it, the more I realized I was wrong. “Where is my compassion? Am I a practitioner? I wasted Master’s hard work. I must get rid of this thought. I am a cultivator.” As soon as my thoughts changed, I relaxed and my blood sugar and blood pressure became normal.

Thank you, Master! Thank you, Minghui! I was able to think about what happened from the standpoint of cultivation. My xinxing improved a lot, and I passed a very difficult hurdle in my life. Looking inward is really effective.

When I went to Fa-study that afternoon and told the other practitioners what happened they said I should write it down. Resentment really harms people, but we seldom notice it. It’s made of hateful substances including the hatred and struggle culture of the Chinese Communist Party. It was so deeply instilled in me that I became accustomed to it and was dominated by it but I did not realize it. I hope more practitioners can quickly get rid of resentment. It affects our cultivation and interferes with our bodies. We must pay attention to it and eliminate it.