(Minghui.org) I can sum up my cultivation journey over the past 20 years in two sentences: I studied the Fa, but I didn’t truly obtain the Fa. I did the exercises, but I had no cultivation energy (gong).
My vision started to blur, and I had difficulty seeing the words clearly. I wondered how this could happen. I was reading the heavenly book Zhuan Falun, so my eyesight should have been bright and clear. When I read, I had to close my eyes for a while before I could continue. I saw other practitioners copying the Fa by hand, and I also wanted to do this, but my poor vision stopped me. I felt stuck.
One day, I was listening to a cultivation sharing article, “My Experience of Memorizing Fa for Three Years,” in which the author said, “The first lecture went well, but the second lecture was not so smooth. I realized that I was going through the motions when I recited the first lecture. I really wasn’t paying attention.”
This passage struck a chord with me. Yes, when I memorize the Fa, I memorize one lecture a day; the same goes for reading the books; I can read two lectures an hour. But how much of the Fa have I internalized? I studied the Fa but did I obtain the Fa?
I decided to rectify my state. I began reading the Fa word by word and paying attention to every detail. My eyesight improved, and when I read some passages, the words appeared larger.
When I study the Fa myself, I recite silently; otherwise, I run out of breath after a few sentences.
Master said,
“Every word in my book is a Falun when it’s seen from a low level, and every word is a Law Body of mine when it’s seen at a high level—even the component parts are individual ones. It’s also different from other books when you’re reading out loud with your mouth. Many people have already developed pretty good gong through cultivation, and even the words that they read out loud have images, what comes out of their mouths are all Falun.” (“Suggestions Given at the Beijing Falun Dafa Assistants’ Meeting,” Further Discussions on Falun Dafa)
I also wanted to experience this, but I ran out of breath shortly after I began reading out loud.
Now, by studying the Fa attentively, I've discovered that no matter how long I study, I can read aloud without getting out of breath.
I usually arrange my study time before 6 p.m., but I often feel sleepy when I study at night. As soon as I closed my eyes, I fell asleep. Sometimes, it took me four or five hours to read just one lecture.
After studying the Fa carefully, I no longer feel sleepy when I read at night, and the more I read, the more energetic I feel.
When I did the second and fifth exercises, I often got distracted. After I re-focused, I would start to daydream about many things. The more I thought about them, the more intense they became, and sometimes I couldn’t help getting angry. I couldn’t hear Master’s instructions either. When I practiced the second exercise, I sometimes forgot which movement to do next. When practicing the fifth exercise, sometimes I would just do one movement until the music ended.
After I paid attention to Fa study, I was able to exactly follow Master’s instructions, and my mind no longer wandered.
I had difficulty sending forth righteous thoughts. My mind was everywhere, and I even dozed off. I wanted to change my state, but it was difficult.
After I began attentively studying Fa, whenever my mind wanders while sending forth righteous thoughts, I’m able to control myself and re-focus.
When I got up to do the morning exercise at 3:10 a.m., I often felt tired. I sometimes overslept and did not hear the alarm.
Now I can hear the alarm and I get up right away. I no longer feel tired, and my aches and pains are also gone.
Study the Fa attentively! The results are fantastic!