(Minghui.org) When I was arrested for practicing Falun Dafa in the past, as long as I let go of my attachment to life and death, I was released. But after my most recent arrest, I felt something was blocking me. I knew I needed to improve before I could pass this test, but I didn’t understand which attachment was blocking me.
I silently asked Master Li, the founder of Falun Dafa, “Master, I am unclear about where my righteous thoughts fall short. Please give me some guidance.” A thought came to mind: “For others.” I was only thinking about how to free myself. I did not consider the practitioners arrested with me or those practitioners and guards in the detention center.
I knew what to do. With every action I take I must consider others instead of myself. Just as I thanked Master, another thought surfaced: “If everything I do is for others, what about me?” I thought, “You have Master to take care of you.” Yes, I have Master; I felt confident and calm.
Before, when I looked within, I thought I let go of life and death. However it was mixed with the selfish intent to protect myself. I never thought about whether I could let go of life and death for others, or whether I could completely hand over my fate to Master. The selfish nature of the old universe was deeply rooted in me. It was even harder to let go of than my attachment to life and death.
Not long after my enlightenment, I had a real-life test. The guard brought in a former practitioner, someone who turned against Dafa, to brainwash me. When I saw him, my first thought was, “Why do you have to test me with someone like this? Am I not firm in Dafa?” Then I realized this thought was wrong. I only considered myself and did not think about the other person. It was a pity that he gave up practicing Dafa because of his attachments. I felt Master brought him to me so I could help wake him up. I felt sympathy for him.
I didn’t look down on him and talked to him sincerely. The atmosphere was calm and peaceful. I felt Master’s compassion; Master cherishes every person. The people monitoring us also listened quietly. I forgot that I was in a detention center.
When he left, he said with emotion, “Your loyalty to Dafa and Master moved me.” I was glad that he recognized Master and Falun Dafa. I am grateful to Master for allowing me to assimilate to Dafa and manifest selflessness, and put others before myself.
That night, I was released unconditionally. Instead of feeling joyful like I did before, my heart was filled with compassion and peace.
This is my understanding at my level. Please kindly point out anything not in line with the Fa.