(Minghui.org) At one time, I was an atheist who didn’t believe in anything that I couldn’t see. However, when I was 37, I began to practice Falun Dafa and found the right direction in life.
I have been praised for my good looks since I was a child and was the center of attention wherever I went. Gradually, I became vain about my looks. Once I had children, my sleep became irregular. In my thirties, I developed insomnia, which eventually became severe.
When I had a bad night’s sleep, I looked haggard and old the next day, which bothered me a lot. I was afraid of running into my colleagues and acquaintances in case they reacted negatively to my appearance. My heart became fragile and sensitive. The more I wanted to sleep, the harder it became to fall asleep, and I fell into a vicious cycle. I would be up for days, and nothing I tried helped me get to sleep.
I panicked at the thought of trying to sleep. I broke out into a sweat all over my body and my heart would race. I was exhausted, and all sorts of problems surfaced.
When my mother saw me one day, I looked so drained and tired that she recommended Falun Dafa to me once again. My mother began practicing Falun Dafa in 2003, and told me about it many times; but I was deceived by the CCP propaganda and had an inexplicable hatred and fear of Falun Dafa. I created a lot of karma because of my ignorance.
This time, her suggestion did not upset me. Over the years, I saw my mother’s enormous changes and that all her illnesses were gone. She was always positive and upbeat. I listened attentively to what she said. She told me that not only would my healthy improve, but adherents often appeared younger than their age. Her last statement got my attention.
She encouraged me to give it a try since it would cost me nothing. I thought, “Alright, I will read the book of teachings first.”
That night, I read a few pages of Zhuan Falun and promptly fell asleep in seconds. I slept like a baby. I woke up in the morning refreshed and energized. I wondered how I had fallen asleep. The same thing happened on the next night. A week later, I finished reading Zhuan Falun for the first time. My whole face was radiant. Seeing myself in the mirror, I looked at least ten years younger. It was amazing!
I thought the principles in the book were so right that I decided to abide by them right away. I was upset upon realizing that I had been deceived by the government propaganda, including the “Tiananmen self-immolation” or that practitioners were “engaged in politics.” How can a government make up such lies to deceive the people?
A week later, I started doing the exercises and the meditation. After that, I experienced more amazing things, such as a warm current going through my body that further purified me, the opening of celestial vision, and the ability to see other dimensions. All the previous discomfort I felt disappeared.
The notion of atheism that I had formed over decades was shattered. I was constantly amazed: “So, there really is divinity in this world. It turns out that what Falun Dafa says is true.”
No wonder so many Dafa disciples would not give up their beliefs no matter what they went through in the persecution. There is such deep meaning within it. I used to badmouth Dafa when I was deceived by the propaganda and thus generated a lot of karma. Just because I formed a wish to be a good person, Master rescued me from hell and gave me a new life.
I used to have a bad temper. If I were upset, I would throw things around and storm off. I was also very selfish. For example, when I could not sleep, I would wake my husband and blame him for his loud snoring. He had a good temperament and always tolerated my bad behavior.
Interestingly, once I began practicing Falun Dafa, he would sometimes yell at me for no reason. Even his mother and sister were surprised by his behavior. I told myself it was karmic retribution; I must have mistreated him in the past and was now repaying the debts. Seeing how I patiently endured his outbursts, my mother-in-law was impressed and would praise me.
But sometimes, the conflict would escalate. When my husband scolded me in front of others, I felt humiliated. Even though I endured on the surface, I felt wronged and upset when we got home. I looked within and realized it was time for me to expand my tolerance. I should understand that he was actually helping me to raise my xinxing.
My mother-in-law objected to my practicing Falun Dafa, and blamed my mother for encouraging me to do so. She was mainly worried about my safety. We had always gotten along, but after I began practicing Falun Dafa, I became more considerate, took the time to chat with her, purchased clothes for her, did household chores, and cooked dishes that she enjoyed.
My actions changed her attitude toward the practice. She told others, “I am so blessed with such a wonderful daughter-in-law; she treats me as if I am her mother.” She admitted that practicing Falun Dafa improved my character and demeanor.
My daughter was naughty when she was a child and her grades at school were just average. I suffered from insomnia at that time and always felt exhausted. Thus I did not spend enough time guiding and teaching her.
After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I read Zhuan Falun to her every night before she went to bed. Over time, she had heard all the Dafa books. Dafa’s principles gradually took root in her heart, and she assimilated the Fa without realizing it.
There was no rebellious period as she grew up, and there was no need for me to worry about her studies. Especially in high school, her grades just got better and better. Every semester, she ranked first in the class in all the major exams.
She was very focused while studying, and her efficiency was high. I did not limit her her phone use as she had strong self-control.
She chose to go abroad to attend college. She did well and won many awards. She continued her graduate education at the same college after obtaining a Bachelor’s degree.
Due to modern deviant notions, young people nowadays make friends casually, and the phenomenon of cohabitation rather than marriage is common. Adults worry about their children, but I did not. She has the Fa principles in her heart and does not follow society’s trends. Her roommate was also impressed with her ability to resist social temptations and focus on her studies.