(Minghui.org) A project coordinator and I had been cooperating very well, especially on editing tutorials. He was responsible for editing the text, and I was responsible for editing pictures. The leader thought his photo editing skills were insufficient.
Some time ago, this coordinator initiated a new project. He told me that it didn’t involve a lot of work. So he would continue editing the text entries and asked me to be in charge of graphic editing. I agreed.
I was experienced in graphic editing. The first entry was a tutorial that I had previously edited. I quickly selected the material and completed the editing. However, the coordinator thought the content in the first entry was too complicated, and he asked me to change it according to his suggestions. I then took new screenshots and edited the page again.
I thought I had done well, but it was rejected again. This time, he edited the graphics himself and even changed the color theme. I thought: there are templates we are supposed to use for editing pictures, how could he change it so casually? Moreover, he used my least favorite color - red.
I had avoided using red since Master Li said:
“... look at what the evil Party is putting on stages for performances: red curtains, red lighting, red costumes, red sets—my goodness, the whole stage is filled with red. If it’s not huge red lanterns, then it’s red flags filling up the stage.” (Teachings at the 2005 Conference in San Francisco)
I told the coordinator I felt that red resembled blood and referred to Master’s lecture. He responded by saying the color red can be decorative. He sent both versions, mine and his, to a higher-level coordinator and explained why he made the color change. His version was chosen.
I realized it was not easy to change my human notions. I decided to watch the video of Master’s lecture to the Australian practitioners. After watching it for two days, my notions were changed. That is, I was no longer entangled in the color issue. In fact, I found that the red arrow the project coordinator used was eye catching.
After that incident, the coordinator gave me another entry to edit. Two days after I finished it, he changed his mind and made his own edits. This time I was calm and said to him: “Please edit all future entries. I don’t want to waste time.” He replied: “Okay, I will send it to you for review after I finish editing it.”
I found that he often did not use my suggestions after I reviewed his edits. So I stopped making any suggestions. I just said “Good!”
When the project was finished, I had to admit that the coordinator did an excellent job. I was happy with the results. However, I realized that among over 30 entries, none of them was done by me! I wondered why? I kept thinking about it and could not calm down, even when I was studying the Fa, doing the exercises, or sending forth righteous thoughts.
I found that it was my attachment of jealousy. I knew I should not allow this state to continue. I must eliminate it!
It was not easy. From time to time, my unbalanced feelings popped up. I continued to make an effort to eliminate this attachment. Master helped me in the end. The next time the feeling of injustice came up, a thought immediately appeared: “It's fine as long as the coordinator is happy.” As soon as the thought came out, swish! I felt my body was extremely relaxed, and my heart was full of happiness and peace. Thank you, Master!
No words can describe my gratitude to Master. The only thing I can do is keep improving in my cultivation!
In another project, the coordinator is someone with a strong sense of responsibility. The work involved constant revising and improving. I cooperated unconditionally, making changes on whatever he told me to do.
I accidentally came across an experience-sharing article that was written by him. It was about the project I was involved in. He wrote: “When I said, ‘I made some changes to the page,’ I actually spent a full three hours on it.”
Upon reading this, I felt upset: “You only spent three hours on it. I spent much more time on it! I was even making changes at 1 a.m. that day!”
As soon as this thought came out, I was alarmed and thought to myself: “What‘s wrong with you? What do you want? You are jealous! You need to get rid of this attachment!”
Eliminating an attachment takes time. When my jealousy surfaced again, I spoke to the bad thought very sternly: “What do you want? You must do better. If you did everything perfectly, the project coordinator would not need to spend his time making changes!” I knew he was involved in another big project. So three hours of time was a lot for him. “You are still angry. You should go away!” My angry feeling then disappeared.
The completion of a project requires everyone’s cooperation. Several very capable practitioners have left my current project. They contributed so much in the past, yet they had to leave when we were nearing the end. I felt sorry for them. I sincerely hope they will return and continue to provide this valuable service to fellow practitioners in Mainland China.