(Minghui.org) My husband and I had planned to visit one of my relatives last December to clarify the truth to him, but our child suddenly had a fever when we were about to leave.

As we were debating whether to cancel the trip, my mother, also a Falun Dafa practitioner, started to have COVID-like symptoms too. She worried about me and my husband and urged us to cancel the trip. I was still determined to go at that point, but I changed my mind after having an argument with my husband that afternoon. All of my complaints about him during our married life flashed in my mind. I didn’t maintain my xinxing and allowed my strong competitive mentality and resentment to get the best of me. That night, I also developed COVID symptoms.

I reflected on myself and realized that I did not have a strong main consciousness at the critical moment. I knew my COVID symptoms were induced by my poor xinxing and attachments.

As I listened to Master’s lectures, I also enlightened that Master was using this opportunity to help me eliminate my karma and improve my xinxing. I should do the exercises to speed up the recovery, instead of resting like a patient.

After I recovered, I struggled with strong thought karma. I felt numb, hopeless, resentful, depressed, and lazy. I had low energy and did not want to do anything. I sensed some bad substance in me, deep down, shaking my faith in Master and Dafa. I started to study the Fa more and memorize Hong Yin VI, to further cleanse the toxic substances of atheism from my mind.

This experience has indeed given me the opportunity to reflect on myself and helped me develop a stronger faith in the Fa. Regardless of what happens, we should solidly study the Fa, memorize the Fa, and cultivate ourselves. Only when we improve on the Fa can we do well the three things that Master has asked us to do.