(Minghui.org) I’d like to share a recent insight I had while I meditated. My celestial eye is not open, but I felt/saw the following scene:
While I meditated, I suddenly felt that human beings were suffering. Although on the surface they seem to be going about life, their souls are in agony. Their situation is as though they are locked in a cage of one by two meters—I was reminded of a caged animal who paced back and forth. The animal was trapped and oppressed, and not able to endure being imprisoned in such a small, confined area.
I really experienced this intense feeling—that I was locked up and suffocating. I could not bear it any longer and I longed to be freed. This was the first time I ever felt this and I burst into tears. I understood that although people around me seem to enjoy life, only the shell on the surface seems fine, whereas their true spirits are suffering and crying out for help.
I thought that what I experienced might be a first small step into the world of “Compassion.” I wondered if other practitioners who are at the same level can feel the intense suffering of sentient beings. Then, how much more intensely does benevolent Master (the founder of Falun Dafa) feel it? Who could imagine Master’s pain, because he truly can see and feel sentient beings’ suffering!
This might explain why Master constantly urges us to cultivate ourselves well so that we can effectively save people. I also understood that whether or not we can feel the urgency of the situation depends on the cultivator’s level. If a cultivator doesn’t upgrade his level, he doesn’t really feel that the situation is urgent and that people are truly suffering and waiting to be saved.
I’ve had difficulty removing my hatred and resentment towards others. I have no sympathy for some of my coworkers. Although they didn’t directly hurt me (apart from badmouthing me), I was angry because of their bad behavior—they were petty and jealous and some had large egos.
After I saw the scene while I meditated, my perspective changed. I understood that the people who act badly are actually doing it out of ignorance. In fact, their knowing side is against this behavior—their true being is suffering and longs to be helped. Every cultivator knows this. But sometimes compassionate Master helps us understand by letting us feel or see it vividly, like I did.
I set aside my grudges and started to smile at my coworkers and greet them. We gradually began to talk, and the ice melted. I soon had a dream in which two of them sincerely apologized to me.
Although I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for many years, I haven’t been able to remove my resentment towards people who have either wronged me or whose behavior irritated me. I often remind myself of practitioners in China who, although they are persecuted and even tortured, are still trying to save their persecutors. Am I able to forgive and be tolerant as they are? Have I cultivated Ren (Forbearance)?
Master mentioned many times in the Fa that what we see here in this world is not the true situation, and that if we were to see the true picture, our perspective would change. Compassionate Master allowed me to briefly see a facet of the true situation and the true picture – at my level – so that I could further cultivate Ren, be able to assist Master in saving sentient beings and be worthy of the title, “Falun Dafa disciple.”
This is my understanding at my current level. Please point out anything that does not align with the Fa. Thank you.