(Minghui.org) After reading Master’s Li’s (Dafa’s founder) recent articles, I initially thought they were unrelated to me. After I took a more serious look at my cultivation, I found I did have the problems Master talked about.
Master said in “Stay Far Away From Peril,”
“When you can’t make it through, you start to complain about Dafa, and some even complain about Master. It is you yourself who has the problem; Master doesn’t owe you anything. While Master is saving you, He also bears your sins for you and even finds all kinds of ways to offset your karma—it is you who is indebted to Master.”
My first thought after reading this was: “How can such people be called a practitioner! Such people are just awful! I don’t have this problem.”
In a sharing article, a practitioner realized that he was complaining about Master when the persecution dragged on with no end. I was shocked because I also had this thought. I longed for the persecution to end. I felt hopeless. I didn’t want to endure the fear and pain anymore. But I also feared that I hadn’t reached the standard if everything were to end.
I recalled that when my family member (also a practitioner) and I had a car accident not long ago, I was upset that such a thing happened to us. I was taking Dafa as my insurance and seeking protection from Dafa, without looking at whether I was following Master’s requirement to cultivate myself. I thought I had made contributions for Dafa and did things for Master, so I was entitled to receive benefits from Dafa. I was complacent and felt good about myself. I felt so ashamed of myself for thinking that way.
Looking deeper, I found that when I failed to pass a test, I always found excuses for myself. Sometimes I made mistakes knowing it was wrong for me to do so. I wasn’t being responsible to myself and ignored Master’s teaching. When Master used other practitioners’ mouths to remind me, I argued back and refused to acknowledge my problem. Isn’t my behavior deceiving Master?
After I found the above-mentioned problems, I took a more comprehensive look at my cultivation. I realized that I often failed to evaluate things with the Fa on small tests in my daily life. I longed for a good life. I had a strong ego and always wanted things to go my way. I often “educated” practitioners for not doing things in line with the Fa, but without looking at my own problems.
Although I was doing the three things every day, I was often absent-minded during Fa study and failed to enlighten to the deeper meaning of the Fa. Sometimes I also skipped sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the exercises.
Master has endured so much for us. Yet I took things for granted, without cherishing such precious opportunities to practice Dafa.
Cultivation is serious. We shouldn’t just follow the formality when looking within but should do it with a clear head and face our problems. I hope we can all cherish the time remaining and be more diligent in cultivation. I hope we can all live up to the expectations of Master and the sentient beings who pinned their hope on us.
Above is the sharing at my limited level. I welcome practitioners to point out to me things not in line with the Fa.